:: Michael ::
I couldn't believe that I'd said it.
I saw someone get murdered.
I hadn't said those words in nearly two years but then the word
murder
wasn't usually in my vocabulary.
Fear
was in it. As were
loneliness
and
tears
. Those words had been my constant companions. I felt all three as I gazed at Robby's face.
"What'd you say? You saw someone murdered?"
I nodded. It took me a few minutes but I told him my sad story. I had witnessed a murder and had been relocated by the Witness Protection Program. It was cathartic to be able to finally tell someone what had happened and I was happy that it had been Robby. "So what do we do now?"
"I have to call it in. We'll need to get a team in here ... "
"You can't call it in, Robby! He'll know where I am!"
"He who? The killer? Well, I hate to tell you this, but he already knows where you are. That's why your shop just got shot up."
He was right. I'd have to move again and leave my shop behind. "I guess I'll go home and start packing."
"Whoa! Wait a minute! Who said you had to leave?"
"I don't have a choice, Robby. I have to stay alive to testify and that means hiding." I looked over at him. "You want me to stay with you, do you?" His face darkened and I shook my head. "I didn't think so." I stalked over to the door. "God, I'm so stupid."
"Where are you going?"
"Home. Call whomever you need to. If you need me, you know where I'll be." I got into my car and feeling his cum seeping from my hole, I started to cry. "I'm so stupid." My whisper went unheard as I drove away. Alone.
* * * * *
:: Robby ::
"It's definitely a .38." Ernie, the lab tech showed me the slug that he'd pried out of the wall. "We should be able to get a good ballistics test on this."
"Great. Thanks, Ernie." I wasn't really thinking about the investigation that was going on around me. I was haunted by a pair of green eyes that had overflowed with sadness, mostly at my expense.
Clark smacked me on the back, his face lit by a smile. "It's got ya."
"What?"
"You know something? I've known you a mighty long time and I've never seen you act like this." Bristow whispered, "You're in love."
"No way." I was thinking of how Mike's body had responded to mine, of how silky-smooth his skin was, of how possessive his mouth was,
his tongue thrusting into my mouth ...
"Bullshit! You're thinking about him right now. I can see it in your eyes!" He followed me outside and I'd have given good money for the ability to smoke. Even more for a stiff Jameson and Coke. "You've got a big problem, you know."
"Yeah, I know."
"He's under WPP and his cover's broken."
"Yeah, I know."
"If they know about this shop, it won't take them long before they find his house."
"Yeah, I know."
"And you're head over heels in love with him."
"Yeah, I know."
"Can you say anything else?"
"Sorry." I couldn't think. I was hurting too much. I wanted this to be like every other relationship I'd ever had: purely sexual and it wasn't. I knew it wasn't, no matter how hard I tried to deny it.
"Listen, Robby, I've never interfered in your life but you know I care about you, right?" I swallowed past the lump growing in my throat and nodded weakly. "You need to go over there and get him."
"What am I supposed to do with him?"
"I ain't gay! I thought you already knew what to do!" I looked up, caught his wink and instantly appreciated the lightness he was trying to bring to the situation. I smiled into his jovial face. "But seriously, Rob, I'd say take him to a hotel. Check him in for a night. Then, maybe we can contact someone in WPP and find out what the hell's going on. Sound good?"
"Yeah, Clark." I nodded, sliding into the driver's seat. "Thanks."
Because Mike had filled out the report, I already had his address. It turned out to be a condo, the second in a line of six. As I approached the front door, I noticed that the gate was wide open and the screen door was hanging, broken off by its hinges.
"Oh, God!" I drew my revolver and crept up to the door. "Michael!" There was no answer. A 60 watt bulb lit the stoop, its weak light shining into the entrance hall. "Michael!" A thick-walled vase was shattered just inside the entrance, a bouquet of white lilies and lilacs strewn over the wood floor. The kitchen was empty as was the living room. I backed up and headed up the carpeted stairs.
I found him at the top of the stairs, his skin pale in the hall light and a large blossom of red on his left shoulder. "Michael! Mike!" I shook him but he didn't respond.
Oh, God! He's dead!
"72-05, I need an ambulance at 2, 9, 6, 0 Windsor Lake. Repeat, 2, 9, 6, 0 Windsor Lake. And HURRY!"
* * * * *
For most of the next day, Mike stayed in a coma. I requested guard duty and Clark fought for me to get it. Felder wasn't pleased, but he granted my wish. I sat outside his room, my face carved from stone while my heart churned in my chest. I'd get up every once in a while to check on him but he was always the same. Clark came to relieve me and I walked into his room, standing at his bedside.
"Mike," I started, rubbing my fingertips across his arm. "It's Robby." The beeping of the EKG machine filled the silence. "You've got to wake up." I didn't know what to say, I felt so uncomfortable. I couldn't help but put my finger on his pale lips and trace their outlines. "Please, Mike. Please come back to me."
"He's on too much anesthesia to hear you, Officer." The night nurse murmured as she checked his drip. "I'm lessening it now so we hope to hear him respond in a few hours."
I sat in the oversized chair beside his bed and fell asleep, gazing at his super-pale face.
Please, God! Don't let him die!
I drifted off to sleep, my hand on top of his.
* * * * *
"Robby."
I thought I heard my name but it sounded so far away.
"Robby!"
I shot up out of the chair, acutely awake and totally disoriented. My eyes found Clark who was standing on the opposite side of Mike's bed and he gestured downward. Mike's eyes were open, glazed and unfocused. "Call the nurse!" He left and I bent near Mike's face. "Mike. Mike." His beautiful eyes blinked and turned towards me. "I'm sorry, Mike. I'm so sorry."
"No need." He whispered. His cold fingers clasped mine. "It'll be over soon."
"No!" I couldn't believe that he had said that and I was furious with him. "Mike, you can't die!"
"Why not?" He licked his cracked lips slowly. "No reason to stay."
"Of course there's a reason to stay!"