I was making an effort, but if there was a rise to be had from Dominic Castilano, it wasn't happening for me. The well-known and hunky Italian had bought the Thai garment factories my company's line of men's fashion designs used as a major supplier. And the scuttlebutt was going around in San Francisco that Castilano was gayâand an aggressive top. But, though I had confirmed he was a hunk, having met him on this "touching base" and buying mission to Bangkok, I hadn't confirmed that he was gayânot to mention someone who would meld with me. And that was from no lack of trying.
I came to Bangkok frequently. Ostensibly I came here to coordinate with the local factories on the production of our male fashion line, but behind that was Bangkok itself. I could let myself go in Bangkok. I not only did much of the garment buying for our company, but I also was a model for the clothesâDevon said that if the clothes didn't look good on me, he didn't want to offer them in the line. So I was the one sent to Bangkok to close the deal on the acceptability of the cutting and sewing of the new line.
But even beyond that, I came here for a break from Devon. Devon didn't only own the fashion house; in many respects he owned me too. He was my sugar daddy. I lived with him, often felt smothered by him, and occasionally needed to get away from him and his possessiveness and to kick up my heels.
That was what Bangkok represented for meâthe opportunity for some no-entanglement one-night stands with an aggressive muscular hunk in a city of "whatever gives you pleasure."
When Castilano bought the Thai factories, I looked him up wherever I could find him and found that, in media photos, at least, he was a hunk and a half. I decided then that he would be my "thrill" goal for my next company shopping spree to Thailand.
"Yes, I can see that it's a good material for that lounging robe for your company's next year's collection."
Castilano was standing close beside me at the meeting in his Bangkok factory when we were pairing off materials with the sketches for the new line, and I was aching for him to put his arm around me and palm my hipâto show me some sign that bore out the rumors. But he didn't do it.
That disconcerted me. Any other man who was interested in doing meâwhich was just about any man who did menâwould have moved an arm behind my waist and laid his hand there. If I liked the man, I needed no more gesture than that to follow him to a nearby bed. My appetites were such that this even was so in San Francisco, which no doubt explained the tight leash Devon put on me there. I have no idea what he thought I did when I went to Bangkok, but what I did here was open my legs to any good-looking muscular man who showed me he wanted me.
Castilano left both hands on the cutting table surface. He didn't even feel the silky yet gauzy fabric to allow the sensuousness of the material, and the evocativeness of the sketch of the skimpy lounging robe, rev his engines up.
Devon himself had made that sketch and designed that robe in his mind as he was fucking meâto be rendered in material just like this was. He had caught me, standing in the sunlight at the bedroom window, in a robe cut like this, but from entirely different, less-sensuous material. I had been wearing loose sleeping trunks in the same gauzy material, and upon entering the room, Devon had remarked that the material was sexily transparent with the morning sunbeams behind it.
He had walked over, taken the coffee cup from my hands, walked me back to the bed, and laid me on my back. He brushed the robe back from my torso and pelvis while telling me that it was the wrong material and describing what he would make such a robe out of. He kissed my nipples and worked his way down my body with his mouth, while he pulled my sleeping shorts off.
And then he fucked me.
It was, I'm sure, more enjoyable for him than for me. I'd already experienced what this scenario could produce, and although Devon provided very well for me in most aspects of our relationship, his performance on the bed that morning didn't prevent me from craving my little fantasy vacations in Thailand. Rather, it brought the image of the earlier cocking, by the big brute in Bangkok, under similar circumstances to mind.
I couldn't help thinking of that, as weâCastilano, his material designers, and Iâwere selecting the material for the new robe design there in the center of the noisy, dusty factory floor in Bangkok. I was trembling at the remembrance and was sure that Castilano could feel that and hear my ragged breathingâthat, if he were gay and a top, as rumored, he surely could catch and appreciate the encouragement of that. I'd never had a gay top not show interest in me. The image of the connections of the lounging robe design with what now was the ideal material for it had my heart racing. And Castilano was twice the hunk that Devon wasâeven hunkier than that earlier man in Bangkok had been.