A true story by Alex Carr.
Thinking about it I did absolutely the right thing inviting Daniel into my life.
I was bi-sexual curious having been married for thirty years, out sexual appetite having some way diminished although we still love each other.
But looking back to my service days in the RAF I have been close to going the full way with another guy called Bernard. I remember with affection now getting into his bed one night, we'd both had too much to drink but despite that I remember so clearly doing something with him I'd always wanted to do when sober, but had never had the courage to.
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Snuggled up behind him I enjoyed the feel of him and remember distinctly how he ejaculated into my hand after just a few squeezes and jerking movements. After that I just returned to my bed, masturbated and fell asleep, the next morning nothing was said and it was as if nothing had happened.
However my curiosity was abound, I wasn't married at that time so didn't know which way I was going, after sharing some conversation with him about girls and the like, as guys together do, I suggested we should go to the bathroom and he agreed.
I don't remember much about that because it was a complete failure, despite frantic mutual masturbation he was unable to enter me so that was that. W never spoke much again.
But later and married I knew I still had a leaning towards my own sex and when my wife worked different shifts to me in a local hospital and I had some time alone I took to dressing up in my wife's clothes, especially the revealing underwear I'd enjoyed her wearing so many times.
It had a positive effect on me, I felt a certain hunger for the want of the right word, in my back passage - I shall call it Henry because most other references seem so crude to something I thought was so very special and wonderful.
Imagining myself as a girl I would practice with all manner of tools and whatever, as long as they had a nice smooth bulbous handle that substituted for a penis. This was before I got into anal vibrators and things which I purchased in a local 'private' shop.
Looking back now it seems crazy the things I use to do but it was jolly nice and very sensual - even though it seems all very funny now thinking about how I used to lay stark naked on the floor with a long mirror well placed to watch Henry being entered with a screwdriver handle, carrot (shaped to look like a penis) a broom handle, a cucumber (of course) - after slowly and provocatively raising my skirt to reveal black stockings and suspender belt and slowly but effectively raising my ardour with the teasing of finger tips aro0und the genitals until I found myself craving, after due lubrication, for the feel of something u there inside me.
I experimented thrusting and moving it in different directions, I discovered just walking about and carrying on the daily duties at home, pretending I was a gorgeous female, was very aspiring, once I got the knack of stopping the vibrator popping out of me with well applied surgical tape. I managed to reach a climax several times this was although massaging my cock did not always work in perfect unison with the feeling inside me.
Often wondered how my wife would react if she had known about my bi-sexual tendencies but she never has so what she the heart doesn't bleed for what she doesn't know about, even afterwards when I regularly enjoyed Daniels fuck and everything else we did together...
Getting bored with the do it yourself thing I wanted much more, knowing I was plainly bi-sexual I craved to be with a real guy in the flesh, but of course he had to be the right guy, someone I could really like and more - because for me emotions always play a big part.
But that was more difficult than one can imagine. I went onto the Utopia Gay chat room on the net and tried to arrange a date with several. But it was always the same thing, all they seemed to want is a cheap thrill exchanging revealing pictures and ;doing it' on Skype to which I could never get true satisfaction.
Even a couple of guys who did look serious did not turn up at a planned meeting place which I found very frustrating after getting myself all hyped up for a real carnal adventure, taking into consideration all those things we had chatted about online and all the things we'd like to do with each other.
It was all too much and I was near to the end of my tether, almost degrading myself to doing the toilet basher bit to relieve my ardent sexual need - but the thought of that revolted me plus the chance of getting caught and all that would mean.
But all was not lost. I discovered Daniel who lived just five miles away so there was no problem with travel. He was divorced and like me bi sexual curious, he lived with his ageing mother though so it was awkward for us to meet and do our thing in his place.
Anyway I said at least let us meet and see if we are compatible with each other in real life because we seemed to have been getting on s well together online and what I liked about Daniel, he wasn't pressing and I had a feeling he was, like me, genuine.
There was a problem also as far as I was concerned, should I invite him to my home when my wife was working or what?
We decided to meet in Morrison's car park with an identification tag and he giving me the registration number of his car. Great, this guy really did seem to mean business so I made sure I was prompt at noon to meet him.
My heart was beating twice the normal with the thrill of the idea, and the thought always of just being intimate withy a real live member of the same sex. By then I had fantasised so much of just how it would be like, how would it feel and everything, and even as I looked for his car number the swell of things to come was positively there bulging in my pants, the excitement was excruciating and just hoped to God this guy would turn up.
I needn't have worried, I saw this guy waving behind his windscreen and somehow from that point I just felt so comfortable, there was something about his welcoming smile, his charisma as he opened the passenger door and invited me to join him.
We exchanged greetings and then he asked was there somewhere we could be more private. Of course at that time I didn't want to take the plunge and invite him to my place before we got more acquainted and I knew he could be prudent so |I suggested a disused car park about a mile away and as we drove there I began to feel like I had known this guy for ages because he seemed so right, and we both had so much in common.
When we got there I suggested parking near the surrounding trees which would give us some cover although he seemed a little nervous and I knew then he didn't want to take any chances and wanted t be just as prudent as me.
He explained his problems in not being able to invite me to his place - I felt the need for him big time and said I would arrange something for the weekend when my wife was working, on Sunday morning in fact.
But I felt there was a need for me to start something and it seemed easy for me just to move my hand over his crotch and get the feel of him as we talked about all the things we had done, surprisingly similar in so many ways even to masturbating before a mirror and imagining being with another guy, although he told me he had not ever and that all this was a new experience for him, but he certainly showed he he enjoyed what I was doing when I started to squeeze him through his jeans, when he parted his thighs and let me unzip him.
I soon discovered he had a lovely seized cock on him and found myself concentrating on the moment in hand, it was so much nicer to be feeling another rather than one's own because you could not anticipate the next movement or whatever. It felt so lovely and appealing, especially with Daniel
His eyes focussed on mine, enjoying that certain intimacy between two guys. I sniffed the scent of him, not dissimilar to my own when I sniff the palm of my hand after masturbation - thinking that was a good omen, that were chemically similar, I had read somewhere that was half the battle when making it with a new partner.
We'd ascertained our leanings, in as much as he was quite happy to be the giver if I was being the taker, the truth being, and that is why my heterosexual marriage has failed in a physical sense, is that I cannot maintain a permanent erection and (I think) have become so much more hormonal female, that I am not longer turned on that way.
As I stroked Daniel he swept back his head and closed his eyes and I just could not help myself, this would be the very first time I had sucked cock and do you know what?, it just seemed sp perfectly natural and loving even with Daniel.. I leant my head down to him, to take in some more of his scent, especially as I eased the foreskin back to reveal the beautiful head, Daniel murmured words of comfort saying I was so good and how he loved the way I just helped myself.
I certainly intended to as first I wanted to experience the taste of him, I licked it first, gradually to take in the flavour, I felt his cock staring to throb in my hand as it grew and grew, it must have been a good seven inches or more, and I was thinking was certainly bigger than anything I had put up there, but it would be alright I felt sure - and anyway I would prepare myself with something just a little bit bigger for the special occasion and anticipation of our very first fuck together.