I never wanted to be one of "those" millennials. You know, the ones that go to college and get a useless degree and end up moving back in with their parents and continue to act like kids long past the point of being cute anymore.
For most of my teens I lived with my mom and my two sisters. My parents split when I was 14 and I didn't want to move 200 miles away from my school and friends so I stayed in a house full of women while my dad moved to a new job, new town, new life and eventually a new family.
After college I realized that I wasn't getting any bites on jobs in the small town my mom stayed in so I got an apartment near my dad and his new wife and stepson. Pretty soon my savings dried up and I still hadn't gotten a "real" job. I'd been working almost full time hours at a shoe store but I had student loans coming due so I begged my dad to let me stay with him.
I think he was pretty happy that I came to him and not my mom. I hoped he wasn't holding a grudge about my decision to not move with him when they got divorced but he never mentioned it.
It was awkward at first, because I was also moving in with his wife and her son. I'd met them a few times both before and after the wedding (where I was one of Dad's groomsmen) but it was different seeing them every day.
I continued to work about 30 hours a week and promised to give Dad a couple hundred a month towards my food and board. He seemed a little weird about it but I didn't want to mooch.
About a month after I'd moved in, Dad came into my room the day after I got paid.
"Wally-boy, I'm really glad to have you around again. I've missed seeing you and the girls on a regular basis. Your sister Renee said she was looking for jobs around here, and I really hope you plan to stay in town even after you move out."
"I hope to. There are a lot more opportunities here than BFE, even if I'm struggling right now."
"While you're here, I hope you'll spend some time with Daniel. His mom has been having trouble talking to him ever since he started his senior year and now that he's 18 she's worried that he'll shut her out completely. I know you're close with your mom and maybe seeing that a young man can talk to his mom will rub off on him."
"I'll try. I don't think I'm any kind of role model, though. I can't even find a job."
"You have a job, which is more than I can say for a lot of the twenty somethings I see around. Your job shouldn't define you, anyway. I'm more than the owner of auto repair shop. At work I'm a leader and I try to be a friend. At home I'm a husband, a father and stepfather. With my friends I'm the guy with the truck who always helps them move, and the worst bowler with the most enthusiasm. Find your place in this world beyond what it says in your job description. You were so helpful with your mother, a caring older brother to your sisters and I hope you can be the same for Daniel."
I blushed. "OK, Dad. But there is one thing I haven't told you yet. There were multiple reasons I didn't move back with Mom, but there's one you don't know." I took a deep breath. "Dad, I'm gay. Mom nearly had a breakdown when I told her so I didn't want to tell you. She said it was your fault because you left, that it made me gay not having a man around during my teenage years. I told her I was gay long before you left."
Dad winced a little. He grabbed me in a big bear hug.
"Wally, I've known you were gay since you were 11 and wouldn't stop playing that goddamn Cher CD in your room. Oh, and because you couldn't take your eyes off of the neighbor boy when he mowed grass shirtless. I'm sorry you're mom acted that way. You should have told me. I don't care who you sleep with, as long as they make you happy."
I couldn't believe it. All my friends told me my dad would take it even harder than my mom did, that dads always did. But he not only was OK with it, he was happy for me. I let out a breath that I didn't realize I was holding.
"Honestly," Dad continued, "that's one reason I want you to get closer to Daniel. I'm pretty sure he's gay, too. I was showering a few times and I could've sworn Lisa was peeping in on me but when I came out this last time he was the only other person home. I haven't said anything to Lisa because I don't know if she knows but I don't want her to think I'm perving around with her son. I just started locking the bathroom when I shower."
"You should've been doing that anyway."
"Well, sometimes Lisa surprises me and I didn't want that to stop."
I covered my ears. "I don't want to hear this!"
Dad playfully swatted my head and started to walk out.
"Wait, Dad. I have your money."
"I told you I don't need it."
"And I told you I'm not staying here for free."
"Instead of giving me money, work it off by helping your stepbrother. He needs a friend a lot more than I need two hundred dollars."
The next Friday I had a rare weekend evening off. I figured it would be a good time to get Daniel out of the house and get to know him better. What do kids do these days? Pokemon Go? Is that still a thing?
"Hey, Daniel. I was gonna go down to the park for a quick run. Would you want to come along? It's a really nice day."
Daniel gave me a strange look. "My mom put you up to this, didn't she?"
"Nope." It wasn't a lie. Lisa didn't even know Dad had spoken to me.
"I just hate going alone..." (OK, that part was a lie.) "...and you've been cooped up with homework all week. Let's have some fun."
"Can we go to the mall after? I want to check out a game before I order it from Amazon."
"Sure, I'm free all night. My dad and your mom have some work party thing so it'll just be us for dinner. We can eat at the food court if you want."
"'k, lemme find some running shoes."
While he rifled through the pile of shoes and clothes that was supposed to be a closet, I went to put on my own running shoes. I never had time to run as much as I wanted to, and it showed. The freshman fifteen had turned into thirty-odd extra pounds over four years that distributed all over my already soft body. I didn't mind that much since a lot of it went to my butt. But my thighs always rubbed and I was usually embarrassed to take my shirt off. I wasn't huge, but I didn't look like the kinds of guys that get laid all the time.
Maybe it was the fact that Daniel was so lean and trim that had me thinking about my weight again. I knew I was never going to be thin. I was just like my dad in a lot of ways, always carrying a few extra pounds and covered in dark hair. At least the hair on top of my head wasn't thinning like his did at my age. He still had some, but the hairline was severely receding and he had a few grays. Mine was still thick and dark and was my favorite physical feature. When I did hook up with guys, they always ran their hands through it. It had gotten long enough to pull into a small man bun, which I had no plan to do until a guy told me it turned him on so much. I still wasn't sold on it, but not getting it cut saved me fifteen bucks a month.
The sound of Daniel's footsteps in the hall pulled me out of my reverie. I finished tying my Nikes and turned to see he had changed into some real running gear.
He had on a tight Under Armour shirt that showed that he wasn't just lean, but had a pretty well defined chest and abs. His shorts were the same brand, but looser. It was pretty obvious that he was free balling in them. I quickly looked away. I can't imagine how awkward it would be to catch your stepbrother checking out your package. Of course, if Dad was right, Daniel had been checking out his stepdad's package and everything else, but I wasn't sure what really happened there.
I looked down at my freebie tee shirt from some work event and the five dollar basketball shorts I'd gotten at WalMart and felt slightly inadequate. But we were just going for a run, not training for a marathon. If anything, he was overdressed for the occasion.
We walked the few blocks over to the park without saying too much. When we got there, I asked him if he cared if I put in headphones but he was already putting his in. It's pretty hard to carry on a conversation when running anyway, so I didn't mind.
Dad's comment about Cher had reminded me about that Believe album that I had been obsessed with when I was a kid. I had discovered it was on Spotify and made a pretty decent workout soundtrack. So when the late-90s techno beat started I took off.
I call it running, but it's more of a fast walk. I can sprint for a few moments but I can't really run. Daniel, on the other hand, ran like the wind. After less than two laps of my own, he'd already passed me three times. My attempt at increasing speed resulted in a stitch in my side so I decided I was just there to get a little exercise. It wasn't a race. He wasn't winning, I wasn't losing.
"Haha, I'm winning!" I heard him shout over my music as he passed me for the fourth time.
"It's not a race!" I shouted back.
He turned around to stick his tongue out but didn't stop running. Smart move. He immediately stumbled over a random tree branch on the track and tumbled to the ground.
I stifled a laugh and picked up my pace to reach my hand down and help him up. Luckily it appeared the only thing seriously bruised was his ego. Once upright again, I brushed some grass out of his sandy blond hair while he shook dirt off of his clothes. He gave me look and we both burst into laughter.
"Let's take a little break," I offered and pointed to a nearby bench.
We sat and I sighed as I sat down.
"Too much exercise for ya, old man?"
"No, and I'm only 5 years older than you are."
"Sorry, gramps."
I playfully swatted at his head, just like my dad would do to me, but he ducked and I missed.
"Just because I was named Walter after my grandpa doesn't mean I'm an actual grandpa."