Chapter III Punishment and Pleasure
"He did what?"
"Tied me up and tried to brainwash me."
"That's..." Dr. Marsh seemed to be at a loss for words.
"Yeah." Ira was also at a loss for words.
"And um... 'tried' isn't really the operative word there. I feel different."
"Different how?"
"More confident. More powerful. Stronger. And I keep thinking of Brian as My possession."
"So it feels good?"
"Yes. But... feeling good also feels bad. I don't think I should want to feel this way. I only feel this way because Brian fucked with my head. But I also don't want to stop."
"Why not?"
"Partly because I like feeling powerful, but also... Brian must really think he needs me to think of him as a drone to do this. I want what's best for Brian, and it feels weird to say that I know what's best for Brian better than he does. Except..."
"He's a drone who's literally been programmed to think that what he needs is a Controller."
"What should I do?"
"I can't tell you what to do, Ira."
"Okay, what would you do?"
She held up a finger. "First, you will need to punish Brian. He's a drone, and drones are programmed to evaluate the severity of their noncompliance by the severity of their punishment."
"He's already obsessed with compliance."
"Yes, but right now he's basing his ideas of compliance mostly on his programming from before you bought him. If you want him to see 'trying to brainwash Ira' as bad, you'll need to reinforce that. Otherwise he may... creatively interpret your decision not to punish him as meaning you weren't actually serious when you said not to brainwash you again."
"That's a thing?"
"Drones' minds are more complex than they let on; I think maybe also more complex than they realize themselves. And they can be extremely good at motivated reasoning. Personal service drones like Brian, like Chloe for that matter, are the best at it. It's why no reputable producer makes them anymore. An overriding imperative of 'make my Controller happy' is a recipe for disaster, as you've seen."
Dr. Marsh held up another finger. "Second, a punishment that hurts you may be more effective than one that hurts him."
"I shouldn't just spank him?"
"It would work. Drones respond to pain as a form of punishment, but there's a difference between a punishment a drone will learn from and one it -- he -- actively dislikes. I'm not sure your Brian would actually dislike being spanked."
"Why not?"
"Ira, you were audibly disappointed when I said you shouldn't hurt him."
"Wait, what?"
"Brian wants you to be happy. If hurting him would make you happy --"
"It wouldn't!"
Dr. Marsh looked at Ira skeptically.
Ira put his head in his hands. "Fuck. What did he do to me?"
"That's hard to say. He may have made you into a bit of a sadist or..."
"Or what?"
"He may have unlocked something that was already there."
***
Hope was noncompliance, but Brian had still hoped his punishment would be something along the lines of a flogging followed by a fucking. Instead, his punishment was to eat in front of his Boyfriend. His Boyfriend who was hungry and hadn't eaten all day specifically in preparation for this punishment. It was the most brutal punishment Brian could imagine, but the silver lining to the cloud was that his Boyfriend had had to give him a lot of orders to make this happen.
"Don't encourage me to eat today"; "Don't make food for me"; "Make the best bouillabaisse you can, spare no expense when shopping"; "Eat in front of me, seated, while I stand"; "Eat slowly, enjoy the meal"; "Look at me while you eat, listen to my stomach growl." Hateful, hateful orders all of them, but still orders. Orders Brian could obey. Obedience was compliance. Brian wanted to be in compliance.
Once Brian finished his meal, it had been delicious and he'd loathed every bite, he stood up and took his bowl to the kitchen. He had worried that his Boyfriend might order him to let Him clean up, but He hadn't. When he finished, he went back to his Boyfriend who was dining on literal bread and water. "Oh good," said his Boyfriend. "You're done. Finally. You took too long. That's one."
One? One what? Brian was confused. "One, Ira?"
"Lash. Take care not to add more."
"You're going to whip me?" He couldn't keep the excitement, the joy from his voice, even if the display of emotion was noncompliance.
"I'm hungry, horny, and cranky. I went through a lot to punish you this time. Totally not worth it. Next time, your punishment will be something I actually enjoy."
Horny? His Boyfriend was horny? And willing to admit it? Was Brian going to get fucked? Brian knew that fucking him would make his Boyfriend happy. Brian wanted his Boyfriend to be happy. "Can I have the lashes now, Ira?" he begged. "And then maybe you could fuck me till I scream?" This behavior was noncompliant, but Brian wanted to reward his Boyfriend for His compliance. The more his Boyfriend complied, the happier He would be. Brian wanted his Boyfriend to be happy.
"That's two, and I'm too tired to whip or fuck you tonight. I didn't get a bite to eat today for some reason. Which, incidentally, brings you to three."
Once again, Brian was faced with a difficult train of logic to thread. He made an educated guess that being miserable made his Boyfriend want to vent that misery onto Brian. Venting His misery onto Brian would remind Him that Brian was an object for His use, not a person. Viewing Brian as His possession was compliance. The more his Boyfriend complied, the happier He would be. Brian wanted his Boyfriend to be happy. Therefore, Brian had to make his Boyfriend miserable. That seemed illogical, but logic was compliance. It was impossible to apply logic to a Boyfriend who wasn't compliant.
Ira had never ordered Brian to clean their apartment while He was at work, but he always had. But when He walked in the next evening, the apartment was filthy. Brian was directly in front of Him, kneeling. "Ira, I tried to sweep the chimney but I forgot to cover everything first. I'm sorry."
Ira had just wanted to eat a nice meal, fuck Brian (except he really shouldn't fuck Brian), and go to bed. It had been a long day at work. "First, I'm adding ten lashes to your count," He snapped, almost without thinking. "Second, I'm getting a hotel room. Clean the apartment before I come back tomorrow."