Relationships with women haven't been the best for me lately. I've been hurt too many times, and feel like I don't connect with them. Careful self reflection has caused me to believe that other avenues may be best for me. In other words, I have opened myself up to the possibility of a relationship with a man.
This is something that I had never consider an option, up until recently. A few months ago some friends invited me out to a gay friendly night club. I admit that I was a little nervous at first, but found it to be a pleasant experience. It was very liberating to dance with men. I was even flattered to be hit on several times and have drinks bought for me. I'll even admit that things got heated when I danced with a good looking guy. He tried to kiss me, but I wasn't quite ready for that yet. My friends accused me of being a tease and "in the closet".
Tonight my friends have invited me over for some drinks. Not surprisingly, they bring up the fact that I am a tease and are convinced that they can entice me to at least one gay romance in my life. I admit that I like to flirt with guys, but that I don't have the same physical attraction towards men as I do with women. Again they argue that they can convince me. They ask me to trust them. I agree, and let them have their way. We surf the Internet for videos and pictures. I can see the erotic appeal but nothing is overly convincing. They argue that our society has conditioned me to play the straight heterosexual role, and that I need to open my mind to new possibilities.
I am Given headphones and am placed in a dark room with a laptop. The title of the video is "Curios Cock Hypnosis". The title interests me, and stirs up butterflies in my stomach. It begins with relaxation and deep breathing exercises. I play along and feel relaxed. Images and videos of cocks rubbing against each other are displayed in quick succession at first, then slowly. The images are nasty and perverted, yet I find myself curious and aroused. I focus on these dirty cocks and tune out the erotic suggestions coming from a female voice that works subliminally to open my mind to the idea of wanting them. I bet it feels good to give in and let my cock dance with another. Curious thoughts continue to flow in my mind. Suddenly the video is over. I look around the house for my two friends and find them on a bed in a dimly lit room.
They are both naked, kissing and fondling each others' penises. My heartrate accelerates and my stomach flutters. Their warm smooth bodies do look appealing in this light, but my focus is drawn to their big hard dicks dancing lustfully together. I am ready to come out. I really want to join them, and they can sense it. An arm extends out for me to join in. Without thinking I accepted. Virgin meat is for them like doing it for the first time. Sensual kisses explore my neck and ear, while their nimble hands remove my clothing. Their bodies, though masculine, are smooth and silky. My pants are the last thing removed, and they do it in tandem with great care.