What I was not expecting, what I could not have imagined, is being physically overcome by my lust filled desire. He stood there, as he has daily, with the same smile and same swagger he always displays. Why am I suddenly willing to bare myself naked for him? Why do I feel this need for him? Why do I want him to fuck me like a whore?
I have to stop asking why and figure out how. How can I get him between my legs? How can I get his very nicely proportioned cock in me? How can I possess his essence?
I could leap from my seat, rush him, pull his pants to the floor, and put a lip lock on his love muscle. That might get his attention but he does not seem to be someone who could handle a direct frontal assault. I have to make him believe I am his choice.
"Everyday Marty, you come by my cube with the same smile and swagger. I don't feel my work day begins until you pass." I hope that I did not sound too forward. I wanted to sound as though he helps make my day.
The smile on Marty's face broadened. "I come by your cube every morning for the same reason, Jason. Hey, lets do lunch today, my treat."
I guess I was just the right amount of forward, "Lunch sounds good, and I usually break around 12:30. Does that work for you?" I hope he did not hear too much excitement in my voice. I felt like a teen shaking with anticipation.
"Yep, 12:30 is perfect. Lets meet in the break room. You like Dave's Deli?" I got a hint from his voice he felt the same excitement as me.
"Yeah, Dave makes a Rubin to die for. That's a plan, Marty."
I felt buzzed all morning, all my morning contacts clicked; I made a couple high dollar proposals and got contract offers. All I had to wait for is faxed approvals, and they came through at high noon. I could push the paper to production after lunch. As the clock reached 12:27, I was free for lunch.
Marty and I walked into Dave's Deli. We were sixth in line to order, we talked shop until we ordered, then went off to find a table.
"Jason, I appreciate you having lunch with me. We meet in the morning in passing but never have done anything social." Marty's voice was both excited and apprehensive at the same time. "I hope you are not scared off when I tell you I'm gay. I try to have office friendships but I just can't seem to connect with people."
"I hope you are not scared off by me saying, I don't care. I accept whatever you are as long as you can accept me as I am." Marty's face showed much relief.
"What do you mean, accept you as you are," came his next question.
Marty outed himself to me for no reason even though I suspected him as gay. Now it is my turn to answer his curiosity. "Marty, we have a lot more in common than you suspect. I am gay also; just keep it to myself during the workday. Be yourself, it is not important to be gay Marty, just be Marty."
Our sandwiches arrived and the conversation shifted to other subjects. Marty was very much a conventionalist; we joked and laughed all through our lunch hour. As we headed back to the office and our cubes, Marty asked what I do on weekends.
As I explained the different things I do, he made mental notes. Some things I do are things he does and other things were different. I guess that is the nature of people. "Hey Marty, why don't we meet Saturday, go to the University basketball game, drink a couple beers and hang out? I'm a big fan of University."
"Our first fight already, I'm a fan of Up State. I hope you can forgive that little transgression."
"Little transgression," I smiled, "that is a mortal sin and may require a little wager." I was going to wager my ass although I did not tell Marty that. If University wins, I would let him fuck me. If Up State wins, I would let him fuck me, a total win-win.
"I don't bet money on sports, too easy to lose. I will wager dinner. You win I cook at my place. I win, you cook at your place." Marty made the perfect wager and I knew we do more than see a game and I think he had the same idea.
As the workweek slipped by, Marty and I had our usual morning greetings and one more lunch before Saturday. "I took your advice, Jason. I am trying not to play the gay card and people are noticing it. I owe you."
I laughed heartily adding, "I will collect on that debt, trust me." Marty laughed and we concluded lunch. Walking back to our cubes, Marty whistled. "You are scheming something, Marty. Care to let me in on it?"
Marty did not conceal his agenda. "Well, Jason, I am actually thinking about a payment plan for my IOU."
"Marty, I am confident you will have your payment plan in place by Saturday no matter who cooks dinner. We should go to the game in one car instead of trying to park two. I don't mind riding."
"Then we have a plan, I don't mind driving, you." We both smiled at our veiled double meanings. We were syncing at an interpersonal level.
Saturday arrived with plans of Marty coming to my place for lunch then off to the game; I was becoming anxious waiting. The knock on my door startled me back to the real world. Marty made it on time, exactly.?I made a simple lunch of burgers, chips, and ice tea, I hope that is okay with you.?
"Oh heck, yeah, fine. What can I do to help?" Marty jumped right into helping with. A couple times, we bumped into each other and I swear I felt him purposely push against me, or was it wishful thinking?
We spent lunch in playful banter over which team would win and how much we will enjoy our victory dinner. The ride to the sports complex was short and finding parking was easier than we both expected.