I've always thought my life would be perfect, but if you told me 6 weeks ago everything would turn out the way it did, I would have told you that you were crazy and that you don't know me. Everything would have changed if I knew the whole story behind it, but for some reason I always knew that I would meet that special person that I can truly say I love her. If only I knew...
6 Weeks ago.
I woke up that morning with the feeling I am getting sick with the flu. I looked outside my college dorm bedroom and see a grey sheet over the sky with a wisp of cold in the air. The winter is soon setting in Seattle. My roommate Arthur is still sleeping. I can see he had a rough night of studying as all of his books were packed on his bed side table. He always called it light bed time reading. I smiled as I think of his weird ways. He is your typical jock with the exception of always having his nose in a book if he is not on the field playing rugby, football or swimming. I got out of my single bed and moved my navy blue covers to the side of the bed.
Its kind off chilly in the room and I can feel the cold run over my slightly brown tanned skin. My muscled tensed up and I blew a "brrr" out of the reaction. I pulled my slightly skew boxers over my hips and walked to the shared bathroom. As I stood and have my morning pee, I looked in the side mirror and admired my progress of working out for 2 hours every day.
Melissa always liked rubbing her hands on my chest and muscled arms. I walked to the side cabinet and pulled out the medicine box I kept in handy. I drank a few flu pills and some vitamin supplements. I walked back in the room and hovered over the idea of waking Arthur, but as he really seemed tired I left him and decided to get dressed and go meet Melissa at the college cafeteria.
Melissa, how deeply I was in love with her. It felt like she had some magical spell over me that made me infatuated with her. She was one of the prettiest girls I have I ever met. She came with a friend last year to my 21st birthday bash that my friends surprised me with and we hit it off immediately. We started dating a week after that and it's been going great ever since. She has been feeling under the weather for the past week, but I think it's the stress of the finals creeping up on her.
I got dressed and quietly closed the dorm door so Arthur can sleep till he feels like waking up. I walked past the cold narrow hallways and greeted a few other guys I knew. As I walked out the front of the building I walked smacked into a skinny dark haired guy I've never seen before.
"Ouch! So sorry man! You OK?" I quickly asked as I was rubbing my head and looking at the green shirt he was wearing.
It caught my eye as I realized it was a shirt I seen in South Africa when I went on holiday with my parents last year.
"I'm so sorry man!" he quickly apologized as he grabbed a box of clothes he was carrying that fell on the floor as we collided.
"I didn't see you and I thought the doors pulled instead of pushed to get open. I'm looking for the front office. I'm new here." He said as he looked at me and I realized he had the greenest emerald eyes I've ever seen.
"Yeah sure, don't worry about it. It's just down the hall to your left. You can't miss it." I said as I pushed the door open for him so he can walk in with the brown box of clothes.
"Thanks!" he replied and gave me a wide smile as he passed. I went thru the door and walked down the stairs to my car, which is parked a few yards away from my usual spot I liked to, sit and listen music to.
As I got in my car to get my student ID card I saw Melissa getting out of a red BMW that stopped in front of the building opposite from the main building. She quickly grabbed her bag and half run up the stairs to the girls dormitory. I looked as the BMW sped off and thought that it was weird as her mother didn't drive a BMW and I didn't know anyone that drove one. I took my phone from my pocket and scrolled down to her name. I stood there for about 2 minutes thinking of phoning her when my phone rang and I realized it was her.
I answered it quickly. She sounded different but still, I could tell there was something in her voice that gave me chills as I knew something was wrong.
"Listen Thomas, I need to speak with you. There is something I can't hide from you anymore. Can you meet me in the college park in 10 minutes please?" She asked as I was standing there with a feeling in my gut that just got worse and worse.
I replied "sure thing" and she hung up. The park was a mere 5 minutes' walk from where my car was standing and I quickly locked it again. As I walked to the park the gloomy air and feeling of a near deserted campus made the feeling just worse. I knew something was up with her. I just hope it's not what I think it is. I got to the park and sit down by our favorite bench under the big acorn tree.
I pulled my hair out of my face and listened to the sound of the wind blowing thru the trees. I looked up to the clouds again. It made me just want to go back and climb in my bed. I pulled around quickly as Melissa turned out from around the tree and called my name. I knew she was crying as her face was red and her eyes were puffy.
"What's wrong babe?" I asked as I took my hands and placed them on her, but she just pulled them off again.
"Thomas... I have something to tell you. I just don't know how and I feel really awful about this, but I can't keep going on like this." She half stammered as she tried to keep herself from crying again.
"What's wrong Melissa?" I asked with a little fear in my voice as I knew what she was going to say...
"I want to break up Thomas, I fell in love with someone else. I feel really bad about this, but I can't help it. I wished it didn't happen." She said with tears in her eyes.
That was the last time I spoke to her. After she told me that last sentence I just turned around half running and walking away from the park. She was yelling at me to come back, but I couldn't. I couldn't see her. I was so angry with her, myself and the world. I was heartbroken and furious. Why? That's all I wanted to know. Why? I don't know how long I walked with everything that happened still stuck in my mind. At one point I realized that my face was cold and that I actually cried. As I wiped my face with my shirt , I looked up and realized I walked to the woods where the college was bordered against. I just fell down to the ground and pushed my head against a tree. I knew things won't ever be the same again.
Why did it hurt so much?
I was clenching a small branch in my hand and realized that the sides were cutting into my skin.
I got back after dark that night. I walked into the dorm to find Arthur sitting on his bed with a psychology book. He looked up at me with a weird expression on his face.