Arthur left the dorm after walking in on me and Ryan. I cant blame him. It must have been a shock for the guy. I don't remember exactly what happened after he left. I remember getting dressed again and leaving the room. I left Ryan in the bathroom and expected he probably finished showering. He must have left as well, because he was gone when I got back to the room four hours later.
Arthur wasn't in the room as well. I went to the bathroom and took a proper shower. I got dressed and fell on my bed. My thoughts were running wild with me. I kept getting flashes Ryan naked in front of me. What happened? Why was I feeling like this? Ive never had these types of feelings before for a guy. I didn't even have any gay friends. Was it the fact that Melissa broke my heart? Was I reaching to something I didn't really understand? I laid for three hours on the bed and just looked at the ceiling. I could hear the wind blowing outside. It must have been past midnight I thought.
I woke up the next morning early, having weird dreams about what happened. I looked over and saw Arthur's bed still the way it was yesterday. Some books lying on it and Arthur is nowhere to be seen. It didn't look like he came home yesterday. I got up and started getting dressed. I did my morning routine and left. I went to the gym and did two hours of hard training. I went to the showers, got undressed and walked to the first open shower. Something caught my eye and I looked to my right. I saw Ryan coming in. He saw me, we made eye contact, and I could see him contemplating whether he should stay or go. He turned around and left.
One of my friends I know from the gym walked to the shower next to me and we started talking about sport and stuff. I kept glancing over expecting to see Ryan coming back. He never did.
I went back to the dorm room. Arthur was there. I immediately went ice cold as if someone just threw a ice water over me.
"Hi." I said while trying to avoid his eyes. I walked towards my bed and put my gym bag down.
"Listen.. Thomas.. I didn't mean to walk in yesterday." He was lying on his bed with another book in his hand. He put the book down and looked at me.
"Erm.. Yeah. Sorry. I don't know what or why it really happened. I guess I don't really know myself at the moment." I said while looking back at him.
I guess he figured I didn't want to talk about it, because he took his book and went back to reading. I fell on my bed and pulled out my phone. I was thinking of messaging my mother. Hoping to go home and visit them for the weekend.
I really just wanted to get out. Maybe staying at home for a few days would do me some good.
I must have fallen asleep. I woke up when I heard the bathroom door open. Arthur came out with just a towel on. I pretended to be still asleep, but for some reason I opened my eyes a little and saw Arthur dropping the towel to the floor. I could see he was getting more gym time then book time lately as his muscles were more noticeable. I moved my eyes down and looked at his dick. It was hanging low with a dark patch of hair on top. He was smooth everywhere except for his pubes. I realized what I was doing and quickly closed my eyes. Maybe a bit too hard.
I could hear him getting dressed and felt a shame build up in me for looking at one of my best mates for almost three years now. I heard him get on top of his bed and I expected he would start reading again. I opened my eyes a little and saw he was lying on his bed in his underwear. This was a first for him, as he always had full clothing on. I opened my eyes fully and pretended I just woke up.
"Had a good sleep?" He asked as he saw me getting up.
"Yeah. Was OK. I guess the workout at the gym was more taxing than I thought." I said while rubbing my eyes.
