"Well," he said "what are you going to do for us? You want to go home, so what are you doing for us?" The threat was there in his voice and I wondered if it was time to fulfill my fantasy. The problem was I didn't know how to go about it without the two of them guessing my secret.
I suppose you want to know what the fantasy is.
Well it's quite simple really, it comes from when I was just eighteen years old, walking home I was attacked by a local yob. He quickly had me on the ground, held by the hair and bringing his knee repeatedly up into my face. I was completely helpless and desperate for the beating to stop. All I could think was to undo my trousers so he would see my underpants. I don't know what I hoped to achieve by this but it seemed the natural thing to do. It may have been fortunate that I didn't manage to do it but I have never forgotten that feeling. So now I have a fantasy of myself kneeling in front of the other lad with my trousers open and my white briefs exposed.
Ever since I've wanted to drop my trousers in front of another man. I associate this with physical defeat. Just so you know, I don't consider myself gay, I don't fancy other men, although I do realise this fantasy is a little ambiguous.
Anyway, that's how I came to be in a dark alley with these two strangers. I had decided to take a short cut home, through the worst area in town, in the hope that my fantasy might come true. Despite my anticipation I was nervous when the two of them approached me and didn't relax as they engaged me in conversation. All sorts, who I was, why I was out alone in such a dangerous area. I had no answer to that, I couldn't tell them the truth. If I was going to drop my trousers, it had to be their idea.
I asked them to get out of my way so I could get home. That brought forward the request for me to do something for them. I sensed that they were trying to humiliate me but I wasn't sure what to say.
"What do you expect me to do? Do you expect me to beg?" That struck the right note, the suggestion that I might be prepared to humiliate myself without saying how.
"That's a good idea," the man in front of me smiled and added "why don't you try it?"