I was in my mid-forties and had been married about fifteen years. As I've found to be true with many married guys, the sex at home with my wife had dropped off to a point where, with few exceptions, getting myself off was my only sexual activity. I didn't want to turn to another woman as the rest of the marriage was solid so I contented myself with this reality.
My job changed to where I began doing a good amount of business travel and the alone time at night would usually find me in my hotel room and at some point, stroking my cock to get to climax. I'd think about the early marriage days and the enjoyable times I had when we were both hot for sex and that would provide some nice mental stimulation. I'd also pick up one of the soft-core magazines found in the airport gift shop and find the reading and pictures to enhance the excitement and stimulation for me. The pictures of women were my focus but I would also notice ones where there was a guy and his cock visible, not really keying in on that but just aware of it in the overall scene being portrayed.
At some point while out of town I decided to go into an adult bookstore, ABS as I see them referred to in some stories, and look through the magazines. These were far more graphic than what was found at airport stores, and I'd head back to my hotel, read the stories, look at pictures and stroke my way to orgasm. I'd always stick to the straight porn sections in the stores and wasn't drawn to the gay material. I wonder now if that might have been a means of trying to assure myself that I had indeed left interest in guys behind after some experiences with a friend or two in my early 20's before I began dating women and eventually married.
Eventually on one ABS visit I decided to go into the arcade area of the store where the private booths were located to watch some video porn. When I had last gone into a booth for viewing porn it was years earlier before I had married and each booth had just one movie running in it. You selected a booth based on the description of the movie on the video jacket that was in a holder next to the booth door with almost all selections being straight porn and just a few of them being gay. I had always gone to the booths with straight porn before I was married so I looked for that arrangement. What I found was that all booths had systems that allowed you to scroll through over 100 channels with different movies that you could select. It was a veritable smorgasbord of sex viewing rather than just a single show.
I went into a booth, put in a few dollars and started punching the button to move through the channels. Scenes of a guy and gal in some form of sexual play scrolled past in the first several selections and I was kind of startled when my cycling of the selector button caused a gay scene with two guys to appear. I hadn't thought about straight and gay movies being mixed like that and I actually punched the button fast a few times to move on to a straight movie. I recall almost having a feeling as if someone might somehow be aware of what I was viewing just because it came up. With a very straight mindset, I moved on quickly back to male/female sex video selections. My interest in just viewing straight sex scenes went on for several trips to such places and I was primed to quickly push the selection button when a gay video came on and move the system on to the straight ones. I picked up on the sequence that there would be nine straight videos in a row followed by one gay and I would be ready to move through when that tenth video appeared.
One night I was going through the channels and came upon a movie showing two guys who were naked on a bed. I was about to hit the button to move on but hesitated as the scene had caught my attention. Both of the guys were smooth with nicely sized shaved cocks, each probably about six inches and cut, and they were in an embrace, side by side to clearly show their cocks to the camera, feeling each other all over. I decided to watch for a while and was turned on by the sight of their hard cocks and what they were doing. They progressed from their embracing and touching to oral play and the heat I felt in watching rose up as they would alternately and also in unison suck and lick each other.
The video then moved on to one topping the other and it appeared that they were both thoroughly enjoying what was occurring. Each of them had a very hard cock and when the guy on the bottom began to moan, buck his hips and raise his back from the bed and shot his cum onto his stomach as the top continued to pump in and out of him, I was caught up in the intensity of the scene. Then the top pulled out and shot a stream of cum from his totally hard cock onto the stomach and chest of his friend below him and I realized there was no doubt that these two were both totally into and experienced the pleasure of the sex that had occurred between them.
I knew from having heard sounds in other booths when I had been in an ABS arcade that guys were likely watching, pants down and stroking their cocks to climax. I had not felt comfortable being exposed even in the locked booth, thinking someone might somehow open the door, so I was fully dressed but had a hard on in my pants from watching that video. Adjusting my pants so my excitement was not so obvious, I left the booth and was convinced the store attendant and any other customers in there saw the tent in my pants as I left. When back in my hotel room I stripped naked, laid back on the bed and with the aid of some lube and mentally rerunning the video I had watched, I quickly came very hard. From then on, I began watching not just straight videos but also guy-guy porn when I went to an ABS, each time not getting off in the booth but waiting to be back in the privacy of my hotel room before I masturbated to a strong orgasm.
One night after watching some particularly hot gay videos in an ABS arcade, I was leaving the store and noticed a rack of free magazines at the door and I decided to pick one up. I drove back to my hotel thinking about the hot video of two guys who had really gotten into one stroking both their cocks in his hand together and bringing each other to intense orgasms where they both shot their cum at the same time all over each other. When I got to my room, I was going to go straight to getting myself off but I decided to first have a look at the magazine I had gotten at the store.
I paged through it seeing that it was full of information on gay bars and other places that catered to just men. I saw an ad for a place that I thought was a male strip club. I had gone to some strip clubs with girls performing and thought to myself that it may be hot to go to one where guys stripped. I decided to call the club but was kind of nervous and hung up before it was answered. I sat and thought about it and decided it was silly to not talk to them and see what the place was like so I called again. When the phone was answered I asked the guy on the other end what kind of entertainment they offered. He kind of chuckled and said that you made your own entertainment there and I didn't know what he meant. He went on to explain that it was not a strip club but a private men's club and guys pretty much did whatever they wanted. I asked if married guys ever went there and he said, "Oh yeah, all the time". I thanked him and thought about it, considering the prospect of going. I wavered back and forth but came to the conclusion that I ought to at least check it out.
It was about a half hour drive to the location and a couple of times I debated turning back but curiosity and being horny from the video I had watched won out and I arrived at a very nondescript building in an industrial area. There were a lot of cars in the parking lot next to a one-story building with just a single open door, the light inside spilling out as a guy emerged from it. He went straight to a car, eyes kind of on the ground in front of him and not looking at or for anyone else in the area, and he got in and drove away. I sat in the parking lot a long time and was quite nervous but decided that I'd go in and check it out and that I could always leave if I didn't feel comfortable.