I never considered myself to be gay, but I do remember a point in my latter teen years when I found that I was attracted to the male body. I don't know if it was my fascination with my own developing body or what but I was always curious. I vividly recall my first "gay" experience, which happened when I was 18. This happened with my brother who was a year older than I am.
First of all, I must say that I used to admire his cock when we showered together. I must say he was well hung and even at that age he must have been a good eight inches. I was a bit smaller than he was and I was so envious. I wished that my dick could have been that size so I could be more attractive to girls.
Anyway, I never thought anything of it until one night I awoke and thought I was in a dream. I had the most pleasurable feeling and as I slowly came to full consciousness I realized that I was getting my dick sucked. It felt so heavenly, but I wondered who the hell it was. "I've had my dick sucked before but it had never been like this" I thought to myself as I felt my dick slide in and out of that nice warm mouth. I was practically rock hard by the time I became fully aware of what was happening and my eyes had adjusted to the faint light that was coming in through the glass windows.
What I saw blew my mind. I could barely make out the form of my brother in the dark, but I was not about to let him know that I was aware of what was happening. I tried to lie there as still as possible and enjoy the unexpected pleasure that was afforded me. I couldn't lie still for long though as I was enjoying myself watching my brother as he lovingly licked the tip of my cock and then allowed his lips to slide down to my balls in a slow, deliberate moves. A soft moan escaped my lips and I wanted to call out his name and beg him to make me cum.
I could feel the tension building in my groin as I watched him. He seemed to be enjoying himself as much as I was. I think he sensed that I was awake by this time so he was less careful now as he greedily sucked my balls into his mouth. I couldn't bear it any longer so I reached down and rested my hand lightly on his head guiding him closer to the crack of my ass. He realized what I wanted to so he let his tongue slide tantalizingly close to my asshole and then back up to my balls, all the while slowly giving me a hand job that just increased the sensation of lust that was building within me.