I take a deep breath, barely believing what I'm about to do. The car is still running and I consider leaving, but know that I won't. I came this far. I'm here to stay. I grab the plastic bag in the passenger seat and look at the contents. It's a thin blue thong bathing suit. Not a man's thong (which somehow would make this better), but a bathing suit bottom for a girl.
My cock twitches. I feel hot shame in my face. I turn off the car and start walking briskly to Mr. Denver's house before I can change my mind.
Mr. Denver greets me at the door and ushers me inside. He's wearing a robe with slippers. The robe is open slightly so I can see his hairy chest. His stomach protrudes through the robe and his jowls move while he smiles.
"Bitch boy, here right on time," he says.
I shudder. "Do you have to call me that?" I ask.
"Well, I could deduct some of your pay," he says.
"No. No."
"No, what?" he says.
"No, sir."
He smiles again. The smile is sickening. He tells me to go get dressed and meet him at the pool.
I stare at my naked body in bathroom mirror. I'm lathered in oil, the way he wanted. The thong straps are high on my hips. I can feel the thin string pulling against my ass.
"You're doing this?" I ask the mirror. I know the answer is yes. I tell myself that it's not gay, that it's just for money. It's the same thing Mr. Denver had said when he first proposed our arrangement.
Mr. Denver was a regular at my gym. He never did much, just walked on the treadmill and benched every now and then. He was an older, successful man however, so, as an 18 year old who wasn't sure what to do with life, I was fascinated.
I was confused about life, about what to after high school, about why adulthood seemed so crushingly difficult. I had done a semester at college. I was also working part time. The world had suddenly gone from a place of carefree fun to a place of overwhelming responsibility.
"I can make it carefree and fun again," Mr. Denver had said.
He offered 500 dollars a week to come to his house on Saturdays. "I want a cute bitch boi around the place. You'll wear a thong, lounge around the pool, serve me drinks, light my cigars. That's 2000 dollars a month for forty hours of work."
So here I was, oiled up and wearing a thong, getting ready for my first Saturday as Mr. Denver's bitch boi.
***
It's far more degrading than I imagined. I feel exposed and violated by his eyes. The thong is not just for his viewing pleasure, but also to break my spirit. I strut around the backyard, my hips swinging, and my tanned oiled ass glistening in the sun. He keeps a stack of dollar bills on a side table next to his chair. When I come over to refill his glass, or to light a cigar, he tugs at the thong strap and places a few bills against my thigh. Then he snaps the thong against my flesh.
"Good boy," he says.
All my instincts tell me to reject this treatment, but something else in me falls under the spell. I'm degraded, dehumanized into a sexualized object. Yet I'm free. I want to slap his hand away, but why? Is pleasing this man (gross as he is) any worse than whatever other jobs I might have?
I lay by the pool, mostly on my stomach so he can see my ass, but occasionally he tells me to rotate to my sides so he can get a different view. He doesn't comment on my rock hard erection, and I do my best to pretend that being eye-candy for this older man isn't making me hard.
This our routine for weeks, with every Saturday growing a bit more degrading. First there were the light taps on the ass. I would bring him a drink and after stuffing my g-string with dollars, Mr. Denver would slap my ass. I didn't say anything, I just took the money and let myself endure the humiliating defilement.
Then came the posing. First, he would just tell me to stand somewhere and pose like an IG model. I hid my face, embarrassed that every time I stuck out my ass or pulled the thong straps higher, I was desperate to hear those simple words of approval.
"Good bitch."
I'm not sure when he started calling me bitch, but by the time I was on all fours, arching my back with his hands caressing my ass, bitch had become my name.
He gives my ass a hard slap and says, "I want to up you to 300 dollars a weekend."
And that's how I ended up here, right now, grinding my hips into his crotch in time with a Nicki Minaj song. I'm wearing makeup, because that was part of his orders. I'm also wearing heels because, again, Mr. Denver said so. I give the middle aged man a lap dance, feeling the enormous girth of his cock press against the thin strap that serves as the only separation between his manhood and my hole.
"Bend forward and pump that ass," he says. I do as I'm told and am rewarded with a hard slap to the ass.