The hot dressing room lights beat against my skin, and sweat begins to run down my forehead, making its way past my blue eyes and heading for my chest. I look in the mirror, between the blinding lights, and see that the top button of my costume has come undone. Sighing, I re-button my shirt before exiting the dressing room and heading for the stage.
The hallways are busier than usual. Tomorrow the audience will be just as busy as backstage, with hundreds of patents waiting excitedly to see our production of Cinderella. For now, however, the only sounds I can hear are the screams of actors and techies alike, making sure everyone is where they need to be for the big Act One Finale.
As the Prince, it's my job to make sure that the audience can see exactly why Cinderella falls in love with me. So, as I make my way to the stage for the ballroom number, I amp up the charisma and flash smiles to the stage hands that I pass in the wings.
I stroll onstage, taking my Cinderella in my arms. As I begin to sing the first lines, I notice that the piano in the orchestra is a few measures ahead of me. The orchestra tries to compensate for his misplaced chords, but it throws the entire number off. I do my best to keep up with the jumping around in the score, but ultimately I give up. I huff offstage, nearly in tears. It's my big number, and somehow our pianist has managed to fuck it all up.
***
Sarah, our Cinderella, finds me in the hallway where I'm leaning against a wall. She leans up next to me and puts her head on my shoulder before sighing. "You know what they say. The worse the dress run, the better the opening night."
"I know," I respond wearily. Then, slightly more agitatedly, "I just don't understand how Peter can nail every single number in the show, but somehow mine is the one he screws up."
"You're right. It's shitty, and I'm sorry. Maybe have a word with him?" She suggests sweetly, the melodic tones in her voice doing all they can to put me at ease.
"I don't know. It's not my place, I guess. The director should do it," I retort, the bitterness now clearly discernible in my voice.
"C'mon," Sarah pleads. "You're Hayden fucking Robinson! You're like the biggest name in Johnson County community theatre, and he should know better."
"You're right," I concede, now determined. "I'll be back before the top of Act Two," I add, as I make my way down to the orchestra pit.
***
I find Peter alone in the orchestra pit, eating his lunch at the piano. "Where's everyone else?" I ask, confused as to why they would have left him there alone.
"Josh got mad that I screwed up your number, so they all went to get burgers without me. Glad I brought this salad I guess," he shoots back.
"Well he's not the only one who's upset you fucked up my number," I say snarkily. "What the hell was that about anyways?"
"I'm sorry, Hayden, I was just really distracted," he says, suddenly losing the edge that had been present in his voice only moments before.
"What could possibly be so distracting that you literally forgot how to do your job properly?" I demand, getting angrier by the minute. I don't want to hear his excuses; I want to hear him apologize.
He offers nothing but an under-the-breath murmur in response, glancing at his shoes and kicking the piano just hard enough so that it's audible.
"What was that?" I ask, now fuming? My question is met with silence. "What the fuck happened during my number, Peter?" I'm practically shouting now, thinking of how humiliated I felt when the number went south.
"You!" He shouts all of a sudden, taking me half by surprise. "You happened, okay! You waltzed onstage and you looked so handsome in your costume and I didn't know what to do and I kind of just froze up and overestimated how much of the music I had spent staring at you and so when I tried to jump back in it just made everything worse! I'm sorry!" He's on the brink of tears now, and I can tell that he's genuinely embarrassed
"Shit, Peter," I say. "I had no idea you felt that way. I guess I never even considered it."
As I say that, I give him a glance-over, and it was hard to fathom how I hadn't. He was 6'1", fairly well-built, with jet black hair and chocolate brown puppy-dog eyes that could melt someone's heart in an instant. His arms and hands were nicely toned from years of stroking the piano keys, but he moved them with a grace and delicacy that bordered on ridiculous. And, looking at him now, I'm beginning to consider it.
I take a seat next to him on the piano bench and place my hand on his knee. "Hey, don't worry about it. I get it. We all get distracted and we all make mistakes. I'm sorry I came down so hard on you," I say, taking every precaution to dissipate the anger I had been feeling only moments ago. "Honestly, it's fine. It just means we'll have a brilliant opening tomorrow night," I chuckle.
"You're- you're not mad?" He asks, clearly taken aback by my sudden shift in attitude.
"No, I'm not. And anyways, I can think of some ways you can make it up to me," I say, dropping my voice into a slightly more sultry tone, as I begin to rub my thumb over his knee.