It was a balmy June night. I was lying back on a set of concrete stairs that led from one street to the one above. There was a streetlight almost directly above me and I was watching the bugs swarming around it.
I wish I could claim that I was having philosophical thoughts but actually I was wondering if bugs had emotions, if they got angry with each other and fought, if there were bug wars.
I had been released from the hospital 12 hours before and unlike the years before my hospital stay; I wasn't craving a drink or jonesing for drugs. The only thing I was craving was a double cheeseburger with extra tartar sauce and some hot French fries. I hadn't eaten since breakfast.
The shiny black Lincoln town car had passed by me a few minutes ago, now it was back, going much slower this time. When it was past, I sat up and looked at my body. The hospital had supplied me with a pair of sweatpants and a tee shirt when I was released but I'd skipped the used underwear. My cock and balls were hanging pretty heavy and low in the soft pants. That explained the gawker.
Maybe I'd get lucky and he'd come back. I'd let guys suck my dick before for drug money, I didn't see anything wrong with getting blown for a burger and fries.
I went back to watching the insects overhead and then I heard footsteps approaching me. When I looked in that direction, a large black man almost as dark as the night appeared in the lamplight. He had on one of those caps that press hair, a shiny black fabric, and a white tank top. The large muscles in his arms and chest looked like sculpture. There was something large and sculpted in the crotch of his jeans, too.
"Are you looking for something?" I asked.
"If I was, I'd probably be in the right place since you've almost got a "For Sale" sign hanging in those pants." he replied.
"Not for sale but maybe for rent, depending on the market." I said.
"The market depends on what's for sale; I can't tell if that's meat or all potatoes. A good hustler shows what he's got."
I stood up and pushed the sweatpants down around my knees. My cock, which even I knew was bigger than most, flopped out and hung in front of me.
"Definitely meat then." the black guy said. "Uncircumcised, too. Extra points for that."
He wrapped his hand around my cock shaft and squeezed while pulling the foreskin back over my cock head.
"How big does it get?" he asked.
"Keep playing with it and you're about to find out." I replied.
With his other hand, he cupped my big balls and stroked them at the same time that he stroked my cock. In less than a minute, my dick was standing straight up and swollen.
"How many inches?" he asked.
"Somewhere around 8." It was much closer to 9 but I'm modest.
"How much are you asking?"
"You can blow me for twenty bucks." I told him. "But, give me a meal and a bed for the night and you can play with it all you want."
"Spoken like a true whore." he replied.
He let go of my cock and balls and then said, "Put those away and come sit in my car. I have a proposition to discuss with you."
"I thought that was what we were just doing."
"A different proposition.' he said. "One I hope you'll find more interesting."
What the hell? I said goodbye to my insect friends after stuffing my throbbing cock away, then followed him down the street. Even in the dark, I could see his meaty buns flexing in the faded jeans.
When I got into the car beside him he said, "I've seen you before."
"I don't remember seeing you."
"That's because every time I've seen you, you've been shitfaced on something or other, a total mess."
"Yeah, well, those days are over. Meet the new me." I said.
"You got yourself straightened out?"
"This is my 29th day clean." I said. "Although, to be fair, I spent the first 14 of them in a coma. Then they kept me in the hospital until today just to make sure there was no permanent damage. I OD'd, and I was too fucked up to even remember what on. No one expected me to revive."
"How long till you're back in the same state?" he asked.
"Never. Something happened while I was out; it was like someone reset the switches or something. When I woke up, for the first time in a long time, I didn't have a need. I couldn't figure out at first why I felt so different, and then the next day it hit me. I not only didn't need to get high, I really didn't want to. Everything looked and felt and smelled so different, it was like I was permanently on. Using would just mess it up."
"I've heard of people coming out of coma with a whole different personality." he said.
"I feel like I came out with a different everything. So, what did you want to discuss?"
"Another chance for a different everything. I liked the way you answered my questions. You're a good looking guy with a big dick. I can use a guy like you if you keep yourself straight."
"The only thing I know for sure right now is that I'm not going to use again. The rest, I'll deal with as it comes."
"Okay, deal with this. I run an agency. You could call it an escort agency, only no one escorts anyone. It's strictly for sex. And, it's strictly older guys who like dick. Following me?"
"You're a pimp." I said.
"Not to be crude about it or anything, huh?" he said with a smile. "Yeah, I'm a pimp. But not like the ones you see in movies. I provide a place for you to stay, I vet and book your appointments, I collect your cash and I protect you from being arrested. All of our calls are outcalls, mainly to hotels. I arrange your transportation there and back."
"And what do you get for being such a nice guy?"
"I get thirty percent of your earnings."
"And a year from now, when I've got a broken dick, HIV and an ass hole that will hold a bowling ball I get kicked to the curb."
"Now you're just being stupid and insulting." he said. "Maybe this is a mistake."
"Maybe. You didn't even ask for my resume'." I replied.
He stared at me a moment before smiling again.
"Okay, let's go over your resume." he said. "Any diseases I should know about?"
"They tested me for everything, probably even Ebola. They were sure I'd at least have one of the Heps but except for slight liver damage, I'm totally healthy. The doctors said if I stay clean, my liver will probably even regenerate itself."
"I know you've let guys suck your dick. Ever had a guy eat your ass hole out?"
"That would cost extra, but no."
"How about sucking a dick? Eating out an asshole?"
"No and no and that would really cost you."
"Ever fuck a guy in the ass?"
"I'd probably do that for free if I can choose the guy."
"Ever get fucked in the ass?"
"No, and I really doubt you could afford enough cheeseburgers to even begin to cover that bill." I said.
"But, at the right price, you'd consider it all."
He had me there.
"I'm looking for a stud, someone who can fuck and get sucked and make the guy paying feel like he's getting his money's worth. The rest is negotiable if you decide you want to earn more. You pick the number of appointments you can handle per day in a 5 day week. No side jobs, under any circumstance. And if you stop pulling your weight, you can't make your rent or I catch you using, your ass is back out on the street. Understood?"
"I haven't agreed to anything, yet." I said.
"Yet. Here's what we'll do. I'll give you that meal and bed for the night. I'll probably even give you that blowjob, too. You think about it and we'll talk in the morning. They call me Black, by the way."
"I'm Tim." I said as we pulled away from the curb. "Fast food is fine, there's a place up here."
"That shit will kill you. I'm cooking tonight."
We didn't really converse on the way to his place. I had too much to think about, anyway. I never even noticed where we were going.
We parked in the front lot of a high-rise condo building. I knew a bit about this place, it was medium level prices, respectable. Not at all what I had expected.
We got out of the car and I followed Black to the door where the night man buzzed us in.
"Evening, Mr. Black." was all he said. He didn't even look at me.
In the mirrored elevator going up, I got a good look at myself for the first time in years.
"Jesus," I said, "I look like skid row."