Authors notes --
- This story contains a consensual sexual relationship between two adult men that consists of a slow build romance, and BDSM (including bondage, dominance and submission, whips, and various sexual encounters). Not all chapters will contain sexual encounters, but many will. If you are uncomfortable with any of these elements, please pass on this story rather than placing yourself in an uncomfortable situation and/or rating it unfairly. Thank you!
-Sorry for the delay with this chapter. While most of this story is written, it is in its rough form and each chapter needs to be cleaned up and fleshed out before publishing it here.
These men are the result of my need to lose myself in something spicy in order to clear writer's block as I work on a longer novel. While I'm thrilled to say they have indeed managed to assist with this, it means I stepped away from their story and back to the novel for a bit.
I'll get the rest of their tale here for you in the next few weeks!
-The next two (?) chapters will be fairly sex heavy before slowing down a tad for the final two (?).
While this is certainly a BSDM inclusive piece, it is at its heart, a love story. As a result, the remaining chapters will include both BDSM elements, and a bit more focus on the story itself (including a few softer sexual interactions). I have no idea how readers will respond to that, as it might end up with a bit too much BDSM for romance seekers, but a bit too much romance for a BDSM piece LOL. I guess we'll see!
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The following few weeks were some of the most enjoyable I'd ever experienced. As a result, they passed far too quickly. We ate most of our meals together, and Alexander spent each Friday and Saturday night at my side at the club. Despite our busy and often conflicting schedules we found time for 3-5 play sessions a week. During each of these, we incorporated elements we had already found we enjoyed while continuing to explore our new sexual and power dynamic relationship.
Given how much I'd already enjoyed our short time together, it came as little surprise that as we expanded our activities, Alexander's boundaries seemed to pair perfectly with my own. We found he greatly enjoyed being bound, including some level of pain or discomfort during our sessions, and playing with pressing his own limits. He was also incredibly sensual and responsive, seeming to find equal enjoyment in moments of soft touch and aftercare.
We spoke in depth about the two exhibitions I wanted us to engage in during our time together and we agreed that the first would be relatively similar to our first hard session together. He'd be lightly bound while I used whips or floggers for a short time. He also expressed a great deal of interest in exploring emotional submission, and very much wanted to attempt a touch-free exhibition like he'd witnessed on our first night together at the club. While there was no guarantee he could learn to finish hands free, we were both fascinated by the idea of working toward it and decided that if the next few months went well in that area, that would be our plan. It felt as though everything was settling into place perfectly and easily for us.
Three weeks later as we sat quietly at dinner he spoke hesitantly after a long silence "Can I ask for white?"
I smiled kindly, nervous about where this was headed. "White is a safe word. You never have to ask to use it."
He nodded and his eyes searched mine for a long time before he spoke again.
"Have I done something wrong?"
My fork fell to the plate. I was dumbfounded.
"Wrong?" I barely stammered out the word. I wasn't sure how to process what was happening.
He nodded once.
It broke me. I'd been more comfortable and found more enjoyment in our brief relationship than I had with any other sub, or any purely romantic partner for that matter (if I counted my youthful forays when I still believed such a thing might be possible for me).
"You are the most engaging, responsive, and amazing sub I've ever had. Please Alex. Tell me what I could have gotten so wrong that it could have led you to feel you may have done something incorrect."
He cringed as I spoke and peddled back as he began, "Don't get me wrong Grey. My time with you has already been the most erotic, insightful, exploratory time of my life. And I know every dominant is different. Hell, every person is different really, so I suppose it's possible that it hasn't even crossed your mind."
I rose as he spoke and made my way to his side, crouching beside the table and taking both of his hands in mine as he turned to face me. It was not the move of a dom. It was simply the move of a confused man.
"Alex. Please. What am I not giving you that you need? Tell me so that I can offer it."
"When I read through the contract, I was excited, honestly I was relieved that intercourse was listed."
My heart dropped. I knew I'd been holding that back, but it had nothing to do with him. I was simply trying to hide from the intense feelings I'd already developed for him.
"A relationship like ours is just so...intimate." He continued, "That it sort of feels...incomplete in a way for me without it."
I shook my head and sighed deeply. "I am sorry Alexander. I never meant for it to feel that way. You're right. Our relationship is one of the most intimate that can exist in my opinion; the way we bare ourselves to one another; showing needs and desires that most people would be appalled by. In a way, this type of relationship is somehow even more intimate than a traditional romantic or sexual relationship. For me, intercourse is the most intimate act we'll share. And if I'm being completely honest, it's always been a bit of a hang-up of mine. I simply never want a sub to feel that I take it lightly or that I'm taking advantage of what they offer. I never once considered that my delay could be interpreted as you having done something wrong."
His face softened, and his fingers tightened around mine as I spoke. The smile he offered was tender and thoughtful as he replied. "That was.... beautiful. Thank you for sharing that with me. I had never considered that it could be interpreted that way."
I grinned as he used my words in return.
"But now that we're on the same page, I'd like to formally let you know that you would certainly not be taking advantage of what I'm offering."
I growled quietly and shifted my weight until I could lean over him to cover his lips with mine. Instantly pressing my tongue into his mouth, possessing him so completely that when I pulled away, he was gasping for breath.
"Would it be taking advantage of you if I've wanted you so badly for so long that I took you hard and deep in my bed tonight instead of waiting until next time we have time for the playroom?"
He moaned deeply as a shiver ran through him.
"Definitely not Sir."
"Good" I grinned.
I picked up the blindfold and made my way over to him slowly. It was custom made; strong, dark, and well fitting. All visual stimuli were removed when it was on, and with that often came a heightened awareness of the other senses. When submitting to another completely, there comes a moment when the world disappears. Not just the world outside of the bedroom, but the world outside of sensation. All self-consciousness is erased, all sense of anticipation, all concern over whether your responses are normal, all worry about your partners expectations and sensations vanishes and there is nothing other than the feel of your blood in your veins and the slightest breath of air against your skin. Nerve endings you didn't even know you had are suddenly alight with sensation. Being bound and knowing that everything happening to you is out of your control, removing a sense like sight or sound, and the unexpected combination of pain and pleasure are all techniques that can assist a sub in finding this moment, this space that exists as its own universe. It was an experience I hoped to offer my subs whenever possible.
We had never used the blindfold before. During our time together, we'd found several ways that I could bring Alexander to this point, but as we weren't in the playroom, and I didn't intend for this interaction to be as intense in the ways we already utilized, I hoped the blindfold would heighten this evening for him.
I slipped the blindfold over his eyes tenderly, ensuring that it was tight and properly placed as he stood beside the bed. I stepped back for a moment, enjoying the way his skin glowed in the warm light and the rise and fall of his chest as his breath sped up slightly as he adjusted to his new reality.
I stepped close once more, sliding my jaw along his before letting the tip of my tongue wander down the side of his throat. I took my time, allowing myself to savor the smooth warmth of his skin as I worked my way across his shoulders and down the center of his chest. His racing heartbeat visible in his neck as shuddering, panted breaths escaped him.
I had intentionally remained dressed until he was blindfolded, and I began to slowly strip while my body pressed against his. Pulling my chest away just enough that the thin fabric of my t-shirt could slip up between us. Each newly revealed inch of skin instantly pressing against his. I slid my hands between our hips, the back of my knuckles brushing his hard, dripping length as I unzipped. I smiled to myself as a shiver ran through him.
Gripping the sides of my jeans, I pressed my body tighter to his, my chest slipping down along him as I sank to step out and cast them to the side, stealing a brief flick of my tongue across his slit. I pressed tighter still as I slowly rose. I'd never felt him this intimately before. Never felt all of his raw, naked strength against me. It was overwhelming.
I took his hips lightly in my fingertips. I didn't need to pull, he was trembling as his body strained to press harder against my own. I moaned deeply and sensually as I leaned into the bend of his neck. While he likely thought it was for his benefit, in truth, I couldn't have stopped the sound if I'd tried. The electricity that seemed to pulse out of his skin and into mine was a sensation I'd never before experienced, and I knew that if I stood like this for long enough, I would lose myself completely.
"So..." I smiled against his neck. "No then?"
He groaned in desperation. "Yes. God. Please yes Sir."
I flicked my tongue below his ear and stepped back.