An Average Day

This is how an average day goes for me. In addition to being a closet faggot and a liar, I'm also a loser and a chronic masturbator.

I'm a loser because I really don't have friends any more after lying so much for the last few years. My friends would call me on a Friday night and invite me out for drinks or to hang out or whatever. But because of my cock addiction, I'd normally have arranged to meet some stranger (primarily black strangers) to fuck my mouth and ass. So I'd tell my friends I have a date with a girl and maybe I'd meet up with them later. After hearing this too many times, my friends just stopped calling.

My chronic masturbating. I'm probably doing it at least five times a day. This is how a week day generally goes for me: I wake up around six having dreamed of cock all night. I'll use the toilet and shower. Then I go to my living room couch and lay a towel down on it so I don't make a mess. I'll open my iPad and look for the perfect porn to stream to my tv. I'll sit there naked and watch. My dildo is always on my living room coffee table. It's not as if I'm having any friends over and the only people that do come over are there to fuck me so it doesn't matter if there's an 11 black dildo there for anyone to see.

I'll stroke my cock as I watch the porn. I primarily like straight porn. A girl and at least one guy. I picture myself as her. Wishing I was a pretty girl rather than a disgusting, pathetic faggot. I'll suck my dildo. Always starting off slow and sensual but fucking my throat with it before long. Gagging and slobbering on cock gets my pathetic waste of a cock so hard. I may or may not fuck my ass with it during each morning jerk off session. Sometimes I'm just too tired. Eventually I'll shoot a load. A small pathetic load and I'll lick it off my fingers or sometimes my stomach of it makes it that far. I don't shoot much if I'm not getting fucked.

I'll get up and get dressed. I go to my panty drawer and pick out the thong or g string I'll wear that day. I think I have maybe a hundred pairs of panties. Mostly bought online but sometimes bought in stores so I can get the public humiliation I often crave, but that's another story. I'll get dressed and go to work.

I'm an occasional smoker so before I go in I'll have a cigarette outside while reading a story on literotica. Anything from femdom stories to rape stories to sometimes straight stories. Then I'll find another video on my phone, go to the bathroom into a stall, drop my pants, pull my little cock out of my panties and jerk off while watching the video. I'll shoot my load into the toilet and lick my fingers clean if I got any cum on them. Pants up and I go to work. That jerk off in the bathroom routine will happen at least twice more in any given work day. I'll go to a bathroom that doesn't get a lot of traffic and if someone comes in, I'll stop and go back to my desk with blue balls.

By the time I leave work I'll have masturbated at least twice if not four or five times. I get home, relax and watch tv for a while before my perversion takes over again. I'll jerk off again just like in the morning. That night I may or may not have plans with a man to fuck me. I put ads on Craigslist and will get emailed responses on my phone throughout the day. Or I may call one of my regulars and invite them over. A man will come to my apartment and use me. Use my throat and my ass. Sometimes make me lick their assholes regardless of how filthy they might be. They leave me covered in cum and my own drool. I'll clean up, maybe watch tv, maybe jerk off again and go to sleep.

And so on. The weekends are the same but with more masturbation, more cock and sometimes trips to stores to buy panties. The looks people give me when I'm clearly buying things for myself is so humiliating and makes my little cock so hard.

I'm such a loser. So pathetic. So addicted.