I kneeled in the temple and wore my ceremonial garb. A white robe clothed my body and stuck to my skin due to the sweat that clung to it. The temple was modest, a small idol of a bull holding a snake as it tried to bite at him while crushing another one under hoof. It was Fentrin; the God of Elders and Elder of all Gods. He was always my favorite when I was a young bull and I still found myself coming back to his shrine.
"Still here pondering and not out farming on your last day of adolescence?" a voice said off to my side. A shadow moved in my peripheral, stepping over the kneeling pillows with careful precision. "I see you moved the pillows to your liking."
My ears swiveled in the direction of the sound and I gave a small sigh.
"Hello Shrine Mother."
"Hello again, Tysius."
The Shrine Mother walked forward with such grace and elegance that it cemented the fact that she was blessed by the Gods themselves. She came down next to me and kneeled, her own robe fluttering for a moment and she smiled softly at me. Her hand moved down to clutch my own and I gripped it tightly for a moment.
"I can feel your heartbeat..." she mentioned off-handedly, her voice as soft as morning dew.
I shuffled awkwardly, my body large and lumbering. The robes were tight on my muscles and clung to me as her golden eyes looked me over.
"I am...scared."
I looked at her for any signs of disappointment or was preparing myself for a long lecture about what it meant to be a bull but it did not come. Her eyes simply gazed into my own and she gave a wise smile. My heart leapt in my chest and I was waiting on her every word. I adjusted my kneeling posture once again and she clicked her tongue.
"You know, I raised you from birth," the Shrine Mother replied calmly, clutching my hand. "Me along with seven other clergy. We know you."
She turned my hand over and her fingers began to trail down my own. She passed my palm and moved to my wrist to find my scar. It was unique; the pattern was a circle with a cross through the middle and her fingers then traced across it with practiced precision.
"Look at the statue in front of you. Study it closely. Look where my fingers lie."
I sighed. We did this a thousand times. I looked at the statue's wrist and noticed the mark along it. Fentrin shared the same scar as me. Every time I looked at the scar and then to Fentrin's eyes in the statue, a familiar shiver shot up my spine. The Shrine Mother noticed it and smiled.
"Do you see it or do you feel it?"
I said nothing at first and continued to stare at the shrine in front of me. As I breathed in, the smell of incense followed with it. The great pines that stretched across our beautiful and bountiful valley were productive this season and the cones that they dropped had a pleasant scent when burned. The oils that were burned with them filled my lungs and gave a soothing coolness before I exhaled and in a puff of air, the oil lathered air was removed from my body. I repeated the breathing exercise that the Shrine Mother taught me.
"Both. What does it mean, Mother?" I said after the long pause.
"All will be revealed to you when you go to the Elders, brother. For now, continue to pray and know this will be the last day you are out toiling in the fields or fighting with a spear in hand..." the Shrine Mother replied.
The thought calmed my mind and I took another deep breath before rising upward. I continued to look at the statue, my mind now brought under control. The fear that once lingered was gone and I turned to look at my Shrine Mother. She was smiling from ear to ear and knew full well what the twinkle in my eyes meant.
"I do not wish to pray anymore. I want to start the Choosing..."
The Shrine Mother smiled. "You have already started it, brother. Go to the Elder's Cabin and you'll find that some have already arrived. Hurry forth and come back a man."
I made my way out of the room feeling like a force of a thousand winds. I ignored the other private rooms of the temple and continued my way forward. Bulls of every age and stature lined the room. Hooves echoed off marble and all were dressed more casually. They cleared out of my way when they saw the red garb that flowed across my body and showed that I was ready to take the next step forward.
Exiting the temple, I walked underneath the towering columns that held up the temple's entrance and was immediately welcomed by the mountain's freezing winds. My hide was tough, however and my resolve was tougher as I went forward dressed inappropriately for the weather. The elders instructed to wear no underclothes. My loincloth and shirt were discarded back at my hut and folded neatly on my bed back at home.
At first I felt ashamed of my nakedness under my robes but that swiftly turned to excitement .I felt liberated with each step, The freedom brought forward confidence and added a swagger to my pace.Snow blanketed the ground and made my brown fur stand out as the light flakes fell from the sky and dotted the log cabins we made from the pines that stretched across the range.
When I finally made it to my destination, I noticed there was no one outside. A light flickered underneath the doorway which was covered by an ornate cloth and I could hear what sounded like chatting going on inside. It was light and sparse, but made me feel confident I had found the right place and strolled in.
Immediately, heat hit me. The room was well lit and large enough for all the Elders and initiates to have plenty of room. On the far end of the wall, statues to our Gods were set up in order from importance and hierarchy.
Aretra stood to the far left, clutching a bow and arrow in one hand and posing victoriously with a hawk perched on the opposite arm. She was dressed in the hide of a bear and had a gaze fit for the Lady of the Hunt. Rasmi was next. His horns curved upward so royally and he clutched a goblet of wine which was practically overflowing. Pine needles decorated his naked body and his endowment hung low between his legs as he longued on a stone bench. His stunning gaze could paralyze if he so chose but it was mostly to court; he did enjoy both sexes religiously. The God of the Great Revelry earned his title with his lavish parties.
Next was Fentrin who sat upon a throne with his cheek on his fist as if pondering something of great importance. Another scene from the plays that I learned and memorized as a young bull. One that came to mind was one where he was mostly organizing and planning to keep the other Gods in check. He had always been so wise and understood who to keep close and who to place who trust in.
Finally, the last major God was Zamparin who held a coin in between his fingers as if he was rolling it between his knuckles. In the other hand, he held a book which had a pinecone of our valley on the front. If I ever needed to perform a ritual, he was the one I would consult.
I required all of them for what I was about to embark on today. I hoped I could serve the gods fully and I whispered a short prayer under my breath and continued forward.
Several other statues made up the rest of the background of statues but were ones that I did not focus on as much in my studies. My eyes immediately moved to Fentrin and I felt that familiar shiver up my spine and my scar itched. My Shrine Mother was so quiet as to what was in store and I felt that familiar sense of anticipation begin to creep up as I walked forward.
The six other bulls that were there were kneeled on ornate, red pillows that matched the robes that I wore and naked as the day they were born. Each one was on full display for the other and for the Elders who sat amongst the statues. The Elders were of varying ages but none were not blessed with youth. Some were muscular and taunt, clearly at the top of their prime while others were slim and lean but still full of muscle from toiling in the fields and doing menial work.
The Elder who sat in front of Fentrin's statue stood up and was dressed in ceremonial garb like myself but his was a royal blue color to show his significance much like the other five.
"Ahh, our final young stud has arrived...we can begin the Choosing. Tysius, please find your spot and kneel," the Elder said, his hand extending towards the far right side of the room where several pillows had been placed.
I did as I was told, unnerved by everyone's sudden silence as I made my way to the pillows. I kneeled on them, feeling their silk on my knees as I took my place.
The Elder then stood upward. I could see his muscular, broad body easily in the torchlight and I suddenly felt intimidated by his very presence. When he began speaking, his voice demanded recognition.
"I shall give the speech a sixth time for it is of such importance that you hear it once again."
The rest of the Elders stood up along with the one in the center and gave a low hum that seemed to reverberate through my soul. It was as if being shaken to my core, my whole body vibrating like an instrument being plucked by a bard. I could only watch on and the rest of my brethren among me simply kneeled quietly; after all, they were most likely familiar with what was about to come.
"Welcome, Tysius. You stand amongst the grounds where your father stood and where his father stood and so forth. You blessed us with your toilage in the fields. You blessed us with your knowledge of tactics and your ferocity in times of battle."