A Second First Time

After my American boyfriend broke me and returned to the US leaving me with a broken heart and a hungry cunt, I felt lost. I had gotten used to being fucked nearly every day during a year and the weaning was tough. I needed his cock badly and if I sometimes thought I could try another guy I had no idea how to find one. As I had already sucked my cousin's cock, I started thinking I could turn him into my lover, or rather my fucker as I never had for him the feelings I had for my bf, however in fact he turned me into his slut.

Our "relationship" lasted 3 years during which my cousin, Stéphane, seized every opportunity to have me service his cock. During this time, I was leaving at his place for about half of the year so I quickly calculated that he probably used me more than 500 times, each and ever time sperming me, so he clearly holds the record.

In a way, for me, this was a second first time.

I was used to my boyfriend's big cock fucking me deeply and mostly silently, Stéphane had a much smaller cock but very hard, energetic and demanding. When we were together he would often fuck me twice a day, asking for a blowjob during the day and fucking my ass in the evening.

This story also made me discover other hidden sides of my personality like enjoying to be dominated. Indeed this guy had me do pretty much everything he wanted, anywhere anytime.

I have reached the conclusion that the story with my American boyfriend was a love story with intense sex. This story with my cousin is rough sex, he was just taking advantage of the fact that my first boyfriend left me addicted to sex and craving.

While I think he looked at me like a sex toy, I remember he once told me that it was a pity I was not really a girl as he would have taken me as his girlfriend and he added that at the same time it was great I couldn't get pregnant and was ready to fuck all the time. Another time he told me I was a good slut while I still had the taste of his cum in my mouth. Hearing this stuff was making me very emotional, swinging between submission, shame and increased lust. This was a realisation.

While my boyfriend nearly always fucked me in his bed, Stephane fucked me in his bed too, a lot, but also in his car, in the woods, in a barn, standing up (loved that)...

Once he even fucked me at his girlfriend's! I was sleeping in a room next to the one where he was loudly fucking her and suddenly he entered the room, jump on me in my bed and directly tried to force me suck his cock full of her juices, well "forced me" os not really the word as I opened my hungry mouth right away.

I found it quite hot that he stopped fucking her to come with me and that he put his smelly dick in my mouth just after putting it in her cunt, or maybe elsewhere, I never dared asking it I suspect he wanted to sodomize her and she refused, so he came to see someone who would accept whatever fantasy he'd have. After a short blowjob he turned me on all four and started fucking my ass. He was so strong that I couldn't stay on all four and collapsed on my belly. He loaded me with his cum wiped his dick on my ass, collapse next to me and fell asleep.

Usually when we were not in bed, he mostly wanted to be sucked, a few times he would surprise me by opening his fly, outing his hard cock and say "on my knees cocksucker, get to work". I would always obey. He really enjoyed putting me in embarrassing situations, humiliating me, degrading me, forcing me and the truth is that it was making me super hot (it took me some time to admit it but I think he understood before I did as he was really doing it very often).

Another thing he liked and did many times, was to force me to swallow his load. He didn't had to force me suck his dick, that he knew very well, but what he had understood was that my ultimate aim was to be assfucked. And he really enjoyed letting me suck him and at the slightest sign that I may try to escape, he would put his hands on my head and hold me firmly on his cock until he finished spurting, then he would maintain me a little longer to make sure I had no other option than to swallow his cum. He had told me several times that he liked getting girls to suck him dry but many would refuse and when he was forcing me like he was doing with me they got very upset. I never protested or complained and always swallowed even when I was frustrated of not getting fucked.

If I think about it, given the numbers of times this guy is Ed me for his sexual satisfaction and given that he would always ejaculate inside me, whether in my mouth or my ass (with maybe two exceptions), he must have poured litres of sperm in my body. I have also never seen a sperm like his. It was incredibly thick, so sticky and heavy that it would often spurt quite slowly but I surely had my dose.

At no time he seemed to wonder whether I was ok with what he was doing or showed any interest in my pleasure, and the strange thing was that I had no problem with that, I was just happy to be used.

Our hottest session was probably one of the last ones. His bedroom was just above his parents'. One evening we started making up in bed and the mix of laughing, pounding and moaning alerted his parents who banged the ceiling to ask for silence. I was super embarrassed, he was a lot less and clearly wanted to carry on.

He dragged me out of the bed, I was kneeling on the edge of the bed with my torso lying on the bed and he started fucking me from behind. Then he made me stand up and hold to the wall while he fucked me standing up, something I really love. He was particularly forceful this time and lasting longer than usual.

At one point he left my ass gaping, turned me on push me on my knees in front of him. I knew what he wanted as it was another of his humiliating perverse fantasies which always left me doubtful if not disgusted but in the excitement of the moment I offered my mouth. In fact I'm not sure I offered, I think he just took it without any hesitation. He had his cock in his hand, it was unusually swollen, hard and red (and fortunately clean). As the good slit he made me, I let him fuck my mouth.

As I was already bracing for his favourite ending, holding my head firmly on his dick while he was emptying his balls in my throat, I was surprised to see him leave my mouth, come behind me push me on all four and start fucking me again. Ensued an unusually long session during which he played with me, alternating mouth fucking, and assfucking standing or on all four.

He finally came in my ass with what seem to be an exceptional orgasm. Normally his orgasms were discreet, surely not this one. That was also clear the amount of his thick cum that was leaking from my hole. It was so sticky that it was not really flowing down my thighs but just plastering my ass and hole. However I was not done yet, my perverse cousin push me back on my knees and made me clean his cock. His gland was full of his cream. I was on my knees submissively sucking his still engorged dirty dick and jerking off mine.

I'll share more details about this in a follow up story but I'm sorry the rest will be in French as this was the language in which I was getting fucked this time.

Just a note: if my American boyfriend ever reads this, he should know that all the things I did with other guys, I did at least partly because of him, because he set me on that track, but also I did thinking of him and trying to make up for the loss. he should also know that he is the only man who ever made me com by just fucking me. And even if we never dared to talk about that I think I can say I love(d) him.