He beats his wife. She landed up in hospital once. After that incident, his wife whined by my wife, about the abuse and battering. I have tasted his roused tensed temper. I know that look in his eyes when his fertile fury nears flood. I have felt him shuddering when he blasts his blistering rage. Yes, his eruption is forceful: it is uncontrollable and brutal. And the cock-flashing hunk at the barbecue or the well-hung half-naked neighbor or the rugged muscled guy riding his motorbike sensually…they don’t understand the reasons for Sean’s aggression. Unlike them, I know how to tame his rough rampant need.
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Both Sean and I have hectic jobs. We are away from home for months on end. Our private joke is: “Are your children calling you uncle yet?” because that is how seldom they see us. Yet, when we are both at home, Sean and I enjoy hanging out together. We bask in each other’s company.
We were on our way picking up heavy equipment he procured. He asked me to come with him for the ride and to give him a hand. He needed the equipment urgently.
It was late afternoon, when he ventured the lengthy lane in my rough region. On arrival at the pick-up spot, he asked that I load the huge jackhammer into his van. He helped me fit it in. The clouds burst, announced. We got drenched. Everywhere was flooded in seconds. He wiped the downpour off us. He re-started his van’s engine. We were cruising again; headed back home.
Along the way, we spoke about this and that. For some reason, he shared about his childhood. He told me how lonely it was growing up in that small scary town. It was only him and his mother in the one-bedroom house. His only sibling did not stay with them. She was raised by her grandmother after her hymen was mysteriously torn. He told me that his mom was seldom at home. If she was not working, she was getting laid by one of the sugar daddies in town. He told me his most vivid childhood memory was that of him - a freshly fondled five-year old - standing by the window and pulling the curtain, ever so slightly, to watch the other children playing merrily and praying to God to save him from the frequently visiting vicar.
“That was my life growing up, Dave,” he looked at me through teary eyes. “I never had any friends and I never got to deal with my turmoil,” he confessed.