Money was tight. I was halfway through my senior year in college and money was as tight as it had ever been. A part-time job at a bookstore and financial aid doesnât go all that far. However, it wasnât until my roommate took off that things got desperate. There was no way in the world Iâd be able to cover all that rent. It was a bad situation.
The apartment was not a great one. It was a one bedroom spot. My roommate and I had done okay with sharing a bedroom since we tended to have such different hours. He also spent a few nights at his girlfriendâs place. That made it a lot easier. I was sure it wouldnât be easy to find a similar set up.
Initially, I had two candidates for the spot: the first was a friend of my ex-girlfriend. She had always had a thing for me and I guess that she saw this as an opportunity to do something about it. I explained to her that I would feel awkward having her as a roommate considering that she was friends with my ex. I also told her that my folks would be unhappy if I was to share an apartment with a woman.
The second possibility was a guy I had known since I was a freshman. But he was just about the last person Iâd be happy with as a roommate. He was the partying type and I suspected that Iâd never get my work done. I stalled before giving him an answer. Even if I didnât want him, I might not have any option.
After two days of wrangling with the problem, I decided to make him the one. Iâd just have to set down some ground rules. The decision was made easy by the size of my paycheck that week. I picked it up as I clocked in for my shift and took a quick peek to see if it was as bad as I thought it might be (I had called in sick one day in the previous pay period). It was worse. Yikes. Well, Iâd have to let the partier be the guy.
Just as I was about to finish my shift and head home, I was stopped by one of the assistant managers, Mike. He said that he had heard I was looking for a roommate.
His condo had just sold (after only two days on the market). Unfortunately, Mikeâs new house was still being built. It was a nice place that heâd bought, something heâd been saving up for for years.
Mike was a nice guy. Somewhere in his late thirties, I imagined. I didnât know too much about him â we rarely worked at the same time. The one thing that I did know about him was that he was gay. Now, that didnât bother meâŠand it did. Does that make sense?
Iâd grown accustomed to sharing a room. All of the dorms Iâd lived in were two to a room â just as this apartment was. I mentioned to Mike that it might not be such a great place for him because of that feature alone.
âDonât worry about me,â he said, âI can sleep anywhere. Besides, itâs only for a twelve weeks, eh?â
To my surprise, he wasnât the one that had difficulty sleeping. It was me.
The trouble didnât come at first. It was maybe a week into his stay that I noticed one evening a very faint sound. Initially, I thought it might have been the wind blowing against something outside. But almost immediately I realized that the rhythm to the sound that I was hearing was too consistent.
Finally I realized. Although it was soft â almost too soft to hear â it was obvious to me that Mike was jerking off in bed. It was the sound of his hand against the sheet â at least I thought it was. He didnât moan, breathe heavy or any of the other typical signs of a jerk off. It was clear to me that he was doing his best to keep me from hearing.
That first night I just waited for it to stop. And it did, after about twenty minutes. I hoped at that point that it was a one time thing. It wasnât. Every night for the next week I heard the same sound. Even on the nights that I didnât hear it, I figured that he was either being extra quiet or that he had held off until Iâd drifted off to sleep.
There was one evening that I heard him start up around midnight or so. It was a quick one. An hour or so later, I awoke to hear him whispering.
âScott? Are you awake?â
I didnât respond. I was actually frozen in bed. Why was he asking? I got my answer in short order. The sound began again. It was his second of the night.
The rest of the time, things went fairly normally. We got along pretty well and there were never any disputes about money, space, messes or the typical things that trouble roommates. It was just the nights.
There was one evening in particular that I didnât much feel like hearing the masturbation serenade as I drifted off to sleep. I told Mike that I was going to stay up a little later and get some extra reading done. Truth was, I just curled up on the small couch in the living room and tried to fall asleep. I did okay for about an hour, but the couch was not made for sleeping. I finally decided that bed â even with a guy jerking off several feet away â was a better alternative.
As I approached the bedroom, however, I tried to make a little noise (throat clearing, etc.) to warn Mike that I was coming in. I opened the door and heard him shuffle a little in his bed. It took me a couple of seconds to get my bearing in the dark, but it was obvious that he was laying naked, face down on top of the covers of his bed. It seemed like he was awake, but pretending he was asleep. Quickly, I got into bed, turned the other way and buried my head in the pillow.
By the time that Mike had been there for two weeks, I decided that there was very little I could do. Itâs not in my nature to simply tell somebody that their masturbation is making me uncomfortable. I had the idea that I might embarrass somebody, or hurt their feelings (not to mention the embarrassment for myself). I resolved, therefore, to simply live with the problem for ten more weeks. Iâd probably laugh about it years down the road (although who with, I had no idea).
But sleep was not as restful for me at that point. Iâd also stopped jerking off myself (which ordinarily might happen two or three times a week) because it reminded me of the situation. School was getting tougher as the semester wore on and I must have looked somewhat ragged to Mike. Finally, one night, he mentioned it:
âHey, Scott, I donât want to get too personal, but is everything okay with you?â
âSure, I sâpose so. Why?â I was a little paranoid that my irritation might be showing.
âYou just seem uptightâŠyou know, tense.â
âBusy semester. I mean, after May, Iâll be out of schoolâŠwhich is good, but bad. And Iâve got lots of work between now and then. I suppose itâs making me a little tense.â
âWell, everybody graduating from school goes through that.â
âI sâpose so.â
Now, if that had been the end of it, fine. In fact, I thought that was. But thenâŠ
âYou know, Scott, I used to do massage therapy. If you need a little tension breaker, Iâll be happy to do what I can.â
If heâd done this with a wink and a smile, I would have had an easy time saying no. Mike, however, was completely sincere in the offer (at least it seemed that way). I felt as though saying no might be taken as an insult. Still, I tried to finesse my way out of it.
âThatâs nice, but it sounds like a lot of workâŠyou donât have to ââ
âItâs not a big deal, really. I just thought it might help you relax.â He paused and thought for a moment. âIf it would make you uncomfortableâŠthen itâs okay. I understand.â
Iâll never know if he knew how that would make me feel guilty or if he was being sincere. I choose to believe the latter.
âNo,â I said, âNothing like that. I just didnât want to be aâŠyou know, problem.â
âNot one bit. Why donât you go in and lay down on your bed. Much easier than the couch.â
I got up and walked into the bedroom, all the way wondering if this was his giant come on ploy. I waited for him to tell me to strip and wondered how I would get around that.
âOkay,â he said, walking into the room, âlay face down.â
I was amazed. No suggestion of shedding clothes. I laid on the bed and he sat beside me, starting to work my shoulders and back. It was fantastic. This was draining all the tension from my body in a way that Iâd never felt. Ten minutes later, I was feeling great.
âHow was that?â He asked as he stood, stretching his hands.
âThat was the best. God, my back, my shoulders feel fantastic.â
âGreat.â
With that, he returned to the other room. I didnât mind his jerk off action that night, heâd earned it as far as I was concerned.
The massages continued that week â twice more. Both times were equally great. It wasnât until the following week that Mike said as he prepared to begin another rub down:
âYou know, if you ever want a really great full body thing, I can do that, too.â
âOh?â I asked, nervously.
âYeah. As good as what Iâve been doing for you is, the full body variety is much, much better. You game?â
How could I say no? All the trust that had been built up would look like it didnât count for anything.
âOkay.â I said.
âWell, the first thing I need, is for you to strip down to your underwear. Is that okay?â
âSure.â I said. I didnât think it sounded convincing. I slowly began to take off my shirt and pants. Mike had disappeared. When he returned, he had a bottle of oil with him.
âOkay,â He said, âface down, as usual.â With that, I got into position and he began. He was right. It was much better. He made his way down my back to the top of my boxer shorts and stopped right there. He didnât try to push them any lower. He moved down to my feet. I suppose thatâs when it began. I started feeling my cock harden. Only slightly at first, but harden, nevertheless.
As Mike worked his way up my legs, my cock got harder and harder. I was relieved that it was wedged up against my stomach. Heâd never know if I didnât move from the face down position.
Once he reached my upper thighs, Mike slowed. He didnât try to cross any lines and get up inside the boxers. He was very respectful.
âThere you go,â he said. âHow was it?â
âFantastic,â I replied. It had been. Much better than the previous massages. âI really want to thank-you for thisâ
âDonât mention it,â he said, âgood practice for me.â With that, he returned his oil to the bathroom and I was alone. My cock was coming down a bit, but there was no denying that it had reached maximum density.
The full body massages continued every night that week. He always offered and I would have felt bad saying no. But it wasnât until a Thursday night that he came home from work to find me studying and looked at me with fatigue that things changed.
âWhat happened to you,â I asked.
âHad to work my shift and half of Joe Corriganâsâ
âWhy?â I asked.
âHe was sick, got sick on his way to work. Nobody else could cover.â Mike sat down, sighed.
âYou okay?â
âSure. Just worn out. Have to go back tomorrow morning for the managersâ meeting.â
âDoesnât sound too good.â
âItâs not. Really donât feel like it.â He paused, then looked over at me. âListen, I hate to ask this, but the fact isâŠI feel miserable. Do you think we could switch places tonight. You give me the rubdown? Iâll talk you through it.â
I never dreamed this might come up, but what could I say? No? Iâd feel like the biggest asshole in the world.
âWell, okay, but I donât know how good Iâll be at it.â
âDonât worry about that,â he said, âwhatever you can do will be appreciated.â
As he got up, I wondered if he had the simple âclothes onâ type of rubdown, or the full blown, down to the underwear sort of thing. I got my answer pretty quickly. He returned from the bathroom with his bottle of oil and was wearing only a towel around his middle. Into the bedroom we went.