A Beta Test

"I wanted you to look through a new software I have developed for mobile devices where enterprise or customer data is shared." Yuvi said as he sipped his protein drink and Jum had cereals and cold milk.

The simple act of Jum picking the spoon and putting it in his mouth, dimples dancing in and out of his cheeks as he chewed and looked up smiling at Yuvi as they talked, made Yuvi feel fuzzy.

"Fuck! You are cute!" Yuvi muttered, kept the mug on the table, walked around to the other side, took the spoon from a surprised Jum and kissed him.

Jum switched to his sensual sexy lover mode as soon as their lips met and grabbed a handful of the soft curly black hair with both his hands and kissed back hungrily.

"You drive me crazy!" Yuvi said between kisses and picked Jum up and placed him on the table top and continued making out with him.

When Yuvi started pushing Jum's shorts down, he broke the kiss and leaned back a bit, "Sir!" He said softly.

"Baby! We have been together for over a month now, you don't have to call me, Sir! I said it once because I was angry." Yuvi kissed Jum's forehead and nose and tried kissing his lips again but Jum moved slightly to pause the make-out session.

"Hmm! I like calling you Sir when we do things!" Jum smiled, "Can we ... do ... you know other stuff besides kissing later?" Jum said nervously.

"Yuvi took his hand out of the shorts and took the small cute face between his hands and made Jum look at him.

"Yes!" He agreed unconditionally.

"It's hurting a bit... but I will be alright in sometime!" Jum explained looking away and feeling as if he was letting Yuvi down.

"Oh! Baby! You hurt?" Yuvi expressed genuine concern.

"Can I check?" He suddenly noticed multiple bites from their tryst last evening.

Jum took care of Yuvi without him consciously trying to or letting Yuvi know he was doing it for him. Just sitting next to him when he had his nightmares, stroking his hair and hugging him.

With Ryan it was all electric and sensual but with Jum it was impulsive and natural.

Jum would wipe Yuvi's brow when they cycled or clean his lips when they were eating.

Jum was there to take care of him in small ways like carrying extra bottles of water for him.

In the morning that day he had protein bars with him which Yuvi loved and Jum hated. He had brought it as Yuvi had missed dinner because of his late-night calls.

They had come from their cycling track last evening and Jum was sitting on that very chair and was rummaging through his bag to dispose of the trash.

His cuteness had multiplied in the time they were together. He was now slimmer due to a regular exercise regime with Yuvi and they worked everyday post working hours at their home office, creating Beta versions using newer technology.

Yuvi had taken Jum's hand and stopped him, "Why do you take care of me so much?" He whispered, knowing but wanting to hear it.

"I like to do it!" Jum said and smiled, his smile making Yuvi a little bit crazier about him.

He got Jum naked and on his knees in a chair backwards with his feet hanging off the seat, and his palms holding the back of the chair. Yuvi pushed his huge cock using only his spit, standing behind a seated Jum with his legs between his own, holding the back of the chair to ensure they didn't fall and Jum didn't get hurt in any way.

With his other hand, Yuvi took Jum by the waist and leaned slightly forward to enter him again and again. Jum bit and licked the huge muscular hand that was holding on to the chair and then held it with both his hands for support as Yuvi pushed in and out of him and threw him out of balance.

When Jum started pushing back and raising off the chair, Yuvi picked Jum up and inclined sideward a bit, bending the leg at the knee and inserted the thick cock into a standing Jum with some effort, the tiny hole and the position making it difficult but extremely pleasurable to both.

With one hand, Jum leaned down to stabilise his body by the palm of his outstretched arm on the table and raised his leg between Yuvi's thighs. He picked Jum's leg and placed it on the chair, his other leg was straight and leaning against Yuvi.

Yuvi grabbed Jum's shapely soft and small buttocks to prevent him from getting tired of his own body's weight and he rammed into him repeatedly.

When Jum's legs started to buckle after he came, Yuvi carried him and laid him on the couch, his legs and butts hanging off it, got on his knees between Jum and inserted into the wet hole, already filled with his cum.

He fucked a moaning and whimpering Jum, till he came in him multiple times. By the time they were done, Yuvi had frothed his cum in Jum and his hole was red and gaping.

Yuvi brought a warm wet towel and cleaned him and Jum, planning to take Jum to the bathtub but Jum had other ideas.

When Yuvi was done with him and was about to raise him, Jum attacked the swollen lips with animalistic hunger.

He licked the bearded jaw and sweaty neck making Yuvi hard again.

He made Yuvi sit on the couch and sat back on him, taking the dick back in his well-used hole, hissing at the penetration but enjoying every second of it.

Jum rode the large dick, was kissed and caressed by the muscular lover, touched all over his beautiful tight body and finally his 5-inch engorged penis.

"Ranveer!" He moaned which he did very infrequently, mostly calling Yuvi 'Sir' during sex, which was happening multiple times a day through the weeks they were together.

As soon as Yuvi heard Jum take his name, he had lost the final semblance of sense, the Dom in him taking over as he ravished his Sub.

****

Yuvi touched the multiple hickey and bite marks on Jum and kissed his nose, "I lose control with you! It's never happened to me before, not even with Ryan. I like losing myself when I am with you!"

Jum looked up but didn't ask, they were together for 46 days but they hadn't discussed Ryan. Which was weird and awkward but he wanted Yuvi to tell him at his pace.

Who was Jum to ask or preach! He had his own dirty secrets to hide!

Yuvi sat on the couch and settled Jum on his lap, hugging him close, their cheeks pressing, Jum smiled as the beard tickled the soft shaved skin.

He touched the small tattoo on the wrist and leaned back into the muscular body. Yuvi sighed, kissed the man he was extremely attracted to and had started to love and decided it was time to open up old wounds so that they could finally heal, with help from Jum.

Jum was everything anyone wanted in a relationship, he was extremely smart and an ideal work partner.

He was sweet and caring as a boyfriend, assertive when needed and supportive when required and as a lover he was at a different league.

The whole Dom-Sub thing was natural and not put up, he was a completely different person when aroused.

Jum was not only a submissive bottom but also a soft tease.

He would rile up Yuvi by creating sexual tension throughout the day and make him hold onto lots of arousal without release with general touching and rubbing against Yuvi when they were working at home.

On Valentine's Day, Jum deep throated Yuvi until close to orgasm. Then suddenly stopped and said, "Let me get dressed. We're going out, I have something planned for us." Yuvi was desperate to jump Jum the whole time they were out.

That night Jum's moans and Yuvi's grunts could be heard echoing in the large apartment.

When they had the final pitch and demo of the RSF Insurance, Yuvi was closed in a room with his team to iron out every minor detail, Jum was now an integral part of the team.

Jum had come to Yuvi's apartment that morning and handed him a small remote.

"What's this?" Yuvi said as he picked his sling bag.

"It's a remote to the butt-plug in me. If you feel stressed, press it. You will know I am sharing the pressure with you." Jum smiled. Yuvi was speechless but that night after their success party, he was practically clawing at Jum, it was a good night!

But Yuvi also observed that Jum was all that when alone with Yuvi.

At work they were a team, he waited for Yuvi at the dark parking gate every night for stolen kisses.

When they met at the cycling park he would be bros with Yuvi.

Alone he was a passionate lover but it felt like he didn't want to show it to everyone. It felt like Jum was a developer who he kissed, slept with and wrote codes.

He was a software developer with hard benefits. Yuvi wanted his story with Jum to be better, open and real.

****

They went for their first weekend away at White Rock Lake, in his beautifully preserved 1920s Tudor, with timeless charm but recently modified for modern living.

Jum was impressed with the rich hardwood floors flowing seamlessly throughout, adding warmth and character to each room.

"This is you!" Jum said smiling and this time Yuvi's smile was genuinely from his heart and it twinkled in his brown eyes.

****

That night they sat in the glass gazebo surrounded with beauty when Yuvi told Jum everything.

"My parents died when I was seven and my sister, Vasu, was only ten. It was a deadly crash on the Trans-Canada Highway near Carberry, sixteen people died including them. My eldest brother, Yuvraj Agastya, the crown prince of our Princely state was only fifteen. He took over the responsibilities of being the Raja. At our father's funeral he held me and Vasu in his arms and promised, 'From today all your sorrows are mine and my joys are yours.' It is our mantra to love and support each other from then on." Yuvi continued to walk around the topic.

His therapist had warned him against it. When he had expressed to her about Jum and how he really was into him and the dynamics of their relationship, she had told him to balance things between them.

If Jum was being physically vulnerable to Yuvi, letting him take what and when he wanted, Yuvi had to open up emotionally and give him everything he had, including his deepest regret.

"I met Ryan when I was in my first year in Uni, I was eighteen and he was in high school ... he was seventeen. He was my then and only girlfriend's Rita's younger brother. I was living a different life and a lie in those days. My family legacy and royalty made me think that I had no other choice."

****

Yuvi was out for a run after spending the night with Rita. They still were struggling to have sex because Yuvi couldn't get a hard-on.

Rita had suspected that Yuvi was not into her and they were at the end of their short relationship.

Yuvi had come to her place to end things but couldn't and had spent a mutually frustrating night with her.

He was running back to the house, his brother had bought him the place because he didn't Yuvi to stay in the dorm.

He saw a couple of boys jostling a kid. Yuvi intervened.

By the time he reached them, they had stripped the poor kid to his boxers.

It was June and New Jersey. It wasn't cold but had rained that morning.

Yuvi yelled at them and they dispersed without looking back, laughing.

Yuvi reached the kid and for the first time in his life was struck by beauty and that too of a man, which was shocking, scary and exhilarating.

He was about 5 '8 but thin with a sports and swimmers body, he had Saddle Brown skin tone which for him was immensely sexy as Yuvi was always extremely fair and never able to tan.

He had shocking grey eyes and long black hair touching his shoulders but no hair on his body besides a slight shadow on his jaw and stray hair around his chest and flat belly.

He was bare besides a solid green boxer short with white and orange old sneakers.

He stood without covering himself with a big smile, his teeth even and white.

As Yuvi took in every small detail about him, he realised Ryan was the first person he was instantly attracted to, man or woman.

"Hey! Thanks Man, for ya help but this was okay, I have seen worse, in fact this was nothing." He had a slight accent which was like Rita's but sounded better and exotic.

"I am Ryan! You are Rita's boyfriend. Nice to meet you! I am her step brother." He gave his hand and Yuvi took it, it was warm, almost hot making Yuvi's hand sweaty immediately.

Without thinking Yuvi took off his jacket and put it on a shivering Ryan.

"How come we never met?" Yuvi said, picking the now damp clothes from the ground.

"OH! I am not welcome at home anymore! With dad gone, my stepmom always working and me coming out as gay! I am kind of banned from here. So, I live with these punks and they keep doing this shit with me!" He said without anger or remorse.

'Gay!' The word reverberated in Yuvi's head, making him hard and coming to terms with it and himself.

"Come with me to my place, I may have some shorts and t-shirt for you and leave in the morning. Don't worry, I own the place and I live alone." Yuvi offered selfishly, wanting Ryan to linger with him.

"Cool" Ryan said and started walking, Yuvi stood there shocked at how he trusted someone immediately after being bullied by others.

He walked a few steps ahead talking non-stop, Yuvi stared at his perfect round ass, moving under those boxers as he marched ahead.

He came to a sudden and sure decision, he was Gay and into Ryan.

They became friends and without any proposal or initiation, they became lovers.

Ryan officially moved in when he was eighteen and Yuvi was in his second year.

It was beautiful, everything with Ryan was beautiful.

With Ryan, Yuvi was head over heels, he rocked his world and connected to Yuvi on a base human level.

Ryan made him feel he was larger than life, the most beautiful man alive and the only one worthy to be loved and to die for.

Yuvi would take a bullet for him and actually wanted to die after losing him, Ryan was his to love and protect.

Ryan owned him but still made Yuvi feel like a king, his King.

****

"Ryan wanted to go to parties and barbeque but I didn't do any of that. I was afraid that coming out was something impossible for me. He didn't have anything to lose but I had a life, a family, education and a future at risk. A future that would include Ryan but I hadn't figured it out how." Yuvi gave a wry smile and wiped his tears.

"I think Ryan knew what was happening and was patient but unhappy. He was free spirited, in love but in a gold cage. The requests to go out with him, weekends, friends, parades became frequent and the constant resistance and rejection from me became more and more heated." Yuvi looked up at Jum.

He was sitting with his hands between his thighs, looking down, his hair covering his face.

"We were in Orlando for a client pitch of my then very first idea, I was 21. It was an automation solution for HR and we travelled together to meet the top 5 companies headquartered there. On our second night, our fourth anniversary. Ryan insisted that we go to a club to celebrate. His friend was hosting a Latino night there, he wanted them to meet me. It was a new town, no one knew me but I didn't. I was not ready to be seen in a LGBTQ+ club. We got into another fight. I normally convinced Ryan to stay with me in the end of all our fights but that night I insisted he went with his friends. Actually, I wanted to work on my software and didn't need the drama." Yuvi gave a dry chuckle.

"So, we fought and Ryan stormed off saying, 'I will not be your secret sex with a boy, Veer! I refuse to be your mistress or your dirty closet skeleton, that you keep hiding. I am going and maybe will stay over at one of my friends, I will send you the address. If you want to be seen with me, come and pick me up. If you don't I will send someone to pick my stuff.' He slammed the door and left.

"That night, that club was attacked. It was 12th June... Almost 300 people were in the club at that time. Ryan wasn't even partying, he was waiting at the front lobby after texting me. He messaged that he loved me and was waiting for a friend to drop him to me, it was 2:01 in the morning. Forty-nine people died in the incident and fifty-three were injured by gunfire, by that one fanatic. Ryan was killed by a senseless act of hatred. I failed him, left him alone and he died." Yuvi wiped his tears, Jum was sitting frozen to his lounge chair, crying and scared.

"After Ryan, the person I met in the mirror was lost, guilty and purposefully unhappy. I became a monk, a workaholic and suicidal. I hated the way I looked because that's what everyone saw, I only wanted Ryan to be attracted to me for my looks and no one else. I felt dirty if any woman or man walked up to me. I felt cheap if my body reacted to anyone and it felt like I was cheating on Ryan if I was attracted to any other person. But I couldn't stop working and working out, it was the only way I knew to cause pain, get tired and try to sleep. I came out to the world and because I am handsome and rich ... a Prince I was accepted, in fact got famous. My family was only concerned about my wellbeing after Ryan and they loved me more than before. I knew I had to put myself out there, self-heal and let go of him like my family, my therapist and my handful of friends kept telling me. I did but it was for occasional sex." Yuvi looked up and wiped his tears and nose on his pullover sleeves. "Until I met you!"

Jum sat there, feeling like a liar, a cheat and a fucking bastard.

He hadn't come out to his family and friends. Ben knew because Ben knew everything. Krystina knew because she was nosy, sworn to secrecy and desperate to be BFF to a gay man and Yuvi knew because Jum wanted Yuvi.

Yuvi had lost everything out of fear and now Jum was about to do the same thing.

His mother had called him to their place for Dano, a spring festival celebrated on the 5th day of the 5th month of the year.

She wanted him to meet a girl, her friend's distant relative.

She wanted Jum to get married, settle down and give them grandchildren, and Jum had said YES! He was hiding away from home and Yuvi was his vice.

"Jum, the reason I brought you here and finally told you everything is because I want you to come to India for a summer festival in May and meet my family." Yuvi sat at his knees and looked up at Jum with his brown eyes, the sadness slowly washed away with tears, replaced with unhidden.

At that moment Jum felt like the biggest hypocrite in the world and one word echoed in his head, RUN!