You Write Erotica?....
Arriving in Boston, I felt a flutter of excitement mixed with nervous anticipation welling in my stomach. In a moment I would meet her.
Up until now she was a small but beautiful picture on my phone. She'd reached out to me on social media and we'd shared stories. I was impressed and slightly intimidated by her strength and her triumph over adversity. My 'go-with-the-flow' personality was a stark contrast to hers. She commanded the universe to bend. SHE loved MY work?
She has the body of a female warrior and a personality to match and now we're only moments away from an embrace? Do I kiss her? I've come over a thousand miles to meet her. What the fuck and I doing? Am I gay again? I haven't been gay since college. Maybe it wasn't a phase like I'd thought. I put my lipgloss on, grabbed my backpack and took my place in line to exit the plane.
Meeting a stranger over a thousand miles from home was not like me. I tried to calm the butterflies in my stomach but my trembling hands gave me away. I took a deep breath and counted backwards from 5...4...3...2...at the count of one, I was in motion. No going back.
I first saw her from a distance. She greeted me with a warm smile and shining eyes. She tilted her head to one side and enthusiastically waved her hand as if we were old friends. Her eyes seemed to reflect the same mixture of excitement and shyness that I felt.
We decided to start our day with a visit to some of her favorite local spots; museums and art galleries. The quiet, intimate atmosphere and the eclectic art collections provided a much needed distraction from my anxiety.
We wandered through the streets holding hands, laughing and appreciating beauty and art. Each time her silky hand slid into mine my stomach leaped. Her sweet scent wafted into my olfactory senses and I closed my eyes breathing her in. Sparks of electricity rushed through me and I was sure she could see them beaming out, or at least sense it.
After a light lunch and conversation at a nearby café, we headed to the Public Garden. The sun was beginning its descent, casting swirls of gold and pink over the landscape and reflecting a beautiful hue of golden tones onto her warm skin. We strolled along the winding paths, the scent of blooming flowers enveloping us. The romantic vibes were palpable, and I felt an overwhelming urge to tell her that i havent been with a woman since college. Before I could muster the courage, she suggested we head back to her apartment to freshen up before dinner.
The journey back was a blur, my mind was racing with anticipation. As soon as we were alone in her cozy apartment, the unspoken tension between us became too much to ignore. I was trembling again and having removed my jacket I could no longer hide my hands in my pockets. As if sensing this, she took my hand and led me to the dimly lit living room where soft, slow, soothing drum beats played on a speaker in the background.
She made cocktails. French 75. She had to know how nervous I was to make a drink that strong. I took in the scent of her place. The decor was warmly decorated and colorful, bright reds, yellow and orange; my favorite. Her space reflected her personality; strong and feminine.
We sat on her sofa, our knees touching, and she looked into my eyes, her voice barely above a whisper. "I've felt this connection between us since I first saw you...before you arrived" she said moving her lips close to my ear, "Do you feel it too?"
My heart began to try to force its way outside of my chest through my throat. I clumsily gulped my drink and placed it on the coffee table.
Unable to find words, I locked eyes with her and bit my lower lip answering in silence. Understanding the consent, she leaned in and put her lips to mine creating the spark to light the fire. For a solitary moment, the universe paused and a vacuum formed around us taking oxygen away. I closed my eyes and turned my face up at the ceiling while the oxytocin flooded the entirety of my body with a flash of heat in a single tingling wave. I could feel her heartbeat penetrating my body and syncing with mine.
The soft drumbeats pulsated between my thighs sending subtle shudders up my body. She slowly pulled back to see my response. I was found out. She knows I'm about to explode with every touch.
"I'll stop if you want me to," she whispered. I shook my head and bit my lip again, still unable to form a word. Fuck, have I gone mute? I'm a helpless but happy little gazelle watching the lion approach hungry knowing full well what it wants.