"Because I thought it was time," she said without hesitation. "I decided you deserved to know the person you married. I figured it was only fair. You should be able to understand how I really feel about things." She paused. "You deserve to know what I am thinking. What I really want to do. You telling me what Jake said was the perfect excuse. He is right. Most women want to be fucked by a handsome stranger, to be taken and ravished, to be fucked and desired and romanced by someone other than their husbands. Most women dream about it. I know I do. Usually every night. I have wanted to be fucked by Randy since before we were married. How are you taking this?" she asked.
I told her I was surprised, even shocked. I said I wasn't prepared for it. "So you want him to fuck you?"
"Oh yes," she offered honestly. "I would tonight if he were here. I would fuck him in front of you, kind of like an initiation, to let you see who I am, who I have kept you from knowing. I would like to be ravished, to be fucked hard and fast. I'd like to suck him off for you to see, to show you what I want." She paused. "I'd like you to know what kind of slut you married. I'd like to fuck many men, try many dicks. I have kept her hidden from you. I have been the good wife, the shy lover, but I want to be the whore who fucks whoever she wants, as many times as she wants, and as often as she wants."
Over the next few weeks it was all I thought about, my wife saying she wanted to fuck other people. She had named my brother, but she had also gone on to include other people: my best friend, some men from her work, and a friend or two from her past. She had calmly said she often fantasized about fucking men who made her panties wet, men who made her pussy tingle. I could not stop thinking about what I didn't know about her. She had said she wanted to be fucked by a black man, a fellow with a large cock, and someone she had just met the night they went to bed for the first time.
She had confessed reading stories about shared wives, about women who had affairs, and women who fucked other women. I was stunned, astonished by what little I knew of the person who slept next to me each night, about what was going on in the privacy of her mind. Were most women as duplicitous, as secretive about their inner desires? Was I? Of course i was. I fantasized about secret things that went on in my private thoughts, and I didn't share them with the world, with my wife, or with anyone.
She had revealed a part of me I had not acknowledge, didn't admit to, and even deluded myself about. She had shown part of herself I had never seen, never even considered, never guessed about, or that I had not truthfully suspected. The question now, of course, was what would happen next? How would I react to her revelations? What did she want from me? Was she asking for sexual freedom? Did she want to leave me? I simply didn't know, not even what I would do or what was expected of me. When she said she fantasized about my brother did she want to fuck him? Was she saying she was going to actually have sex with him and wasn't asking for permission?
I had many things to decide, and how I felt about it all was the first thing I needed to determine. I needed to know what my wife was going to do, and I had to come to a decision about whether I could handle whatever she decided. I was not angry about it, but I was confused and undecided, a little frightened by it all, and I was worried I would do the wrong thing for us as a couple, that I would not be able to accommodate her needs.
When dinner was over I helped with the clean up and stood next to her at the sink. "You said you thought about other men regularly," I said, trying to sound casual but struggling to deal with the topic that was constantly on my mind. She turned to face me and smiled.
"Maybe I shouldn't have said anything," she said with a sigh. "I did't want to hurt you, but I was just trying to be honest for a change." She put her arms around my neck and kissed me. "Sweetheart, I don't need to have sex with other people," she said after the kiss. "I love you and I only need you."