After Collin sent me that video of Jill blowing him at her house, everything started really going downhill for me. Namely my relationship with Jill.
She barely talks to me or responds to my text messages, when I text her.
I know she's still pissed off at me for fighting Collin and for asking her to have sex with me after I lost said fight.
God I feel like shit. I haven't slept good since that day. The dreams started getting worse too. Sometimes it feels so real, that I'd wake up crying.
Mom in particular, was upset with me after I didn't do my homework the night Collin was at Jill's house. So she added another three days to me being grounded. She still refuses to listen to my side.
I miss Jill. I miss talking to her and eating with her at lunch. I miss the tight hugs she gave me. The feeling of her ample chest pressing into my chest during said hugs.
I should ask her to forgive me and maybe everything will be okay again.
Maybe.
I also need to talk to mom and make her listen instead of ignoring me.
Most definitely.
It's a foolproof plan. I'll start tomorrow. Here's hoping it'll work.
Hopefully.
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The next day, I saw Jill at her locker and bolted over to her.
"Jill wait!" I called out, "I need to talk to you!"
She sighs and turns to face me.
"What is it Jack?" Jill said angrily.
I groveled before her. Yes that"s right-I groveled. Groveled at her feet. I could feel everybody in the hallway staring at me. Hell even heard a few murmur and tall amongst themselves.
"I'm really sorry for not listening to you!" I said, "I'm sorry for being pathetic and not trusting you!"
I felt so awkward. Maybe more so then Jill, who looked embarassed. She then picks me up from the ground.
"You should be!" she said, "I would do anything to keep you safe-ANYTHING!"
She then calms herself down by sighing heavily and leans in close to my face.
"I'm still upset at you," she said quietly, "but I'm willing to forgive you and give you a second chance."
She cuts me off before I can express my gratitude.
"But if you fuck up this time," she said, "I'll never talk to you again."
"You have my word Jill," I said.
She walks off. Now my mom.
When lunch started, I walked to the nurse's office. My heart was pounding fast in my chest. Was I nervous? I took a deep breath and knocked on the door.
"It's open," came mom's voice.
I opened the door and stepped inside. Then closed the door behind me. Mom sat at her desk. She turns her head to face me and immediately sighed afterwards.
"What is it Jack?" she asked.
"We need to talk," I said.
"I think we don't," she said.
I slammed my fist against the wall. Causing mom to jump slightly and stare at me hard.
"We do!" I said.
"Like what Jack!?" she said.
"For starters," I said, "you never allowed me to explain my side of the fight."
She lets out another sigh.
"Fine go ahead," she said rubbing her temples.
"I never said anything about his mom," I said, "I simply went over to him and asked him to back off from Jill."
"Uh-huh sure," she said.
She still doesn't believe me? What the fuck mom?!
"When he refused to back off," I continued, "I punched him. That's what really happened."
Mom doesn't say anything and continued typing on her laptop. Why is she acting like this?
At this point, I was feeling frustrated and annoyed by her...demeanor to me. So
I walked over to her desk and closed her laptop. This made her upset. I stood my ground as I held her shoulders and shook her slightly.
"Mom," I said, "I've done my best to be a good son to you. Yet you still don't believe me! Why?!"
She stared coldly at me. I sighed and released my grip on her shoulders.
"You raised me to always be respectful," I continued.
"Obviously that lesson didn't stick if you said what you said," mom said.
"I'm telling you I said nothing of the sort!" I said, "All I did was try to defend my girlfriend's pride. Do you hear what he calls you behind your back? Behond Jill's back?"
She stares at me blankly.
"Yet you continue to TAKE HIS FUCKING SIDE!" I said.
I had tears in my eyes. I wipe them away and turn to leave.
"I apologized to Jill too," I said, "at least she forgave me....unlike you!"
I walked out of her office and slammed the door behind me. Mom can stew in her own muck for all I care! I thought I could get her listen to me, but I was wrong.
Walking no more than a few steps away, I heard mom open the door and pulled me back inside.
"You apologized to Jill?" she said.
I nodded my head.
"When?" she asked.
"Earlier today," I stated.
"How did you apologize?" she asked.
"I groveled at her feet and said I was sorry for not listening to her and trusting her judgment." I said.
"You...groveled?" mom said.
Again I nodded my head.
Mom sighs and sits back down on her swiveling chair.
"Look," mom said, "I'm sorry if I didn't hear you out. I guess I was just too upset still. I mean can you blame me?"
"I can," I said, "you willingly accepted Collin's version of what happened as the truth. Same as Jill."
I walked away from her and towards tbe door again.
"Wait," mom said.
I turned to face her.
"Come back in here please." she said.
I walked back to her. She sighs again and gives me a hug. The first one a while. I needed it.
"I'm sorry for not giving you a chance to explain yourself." mom stated.
I felt relief as mom continued to homd me. I started crying. Like really crying. Staining her shoulder in salty tears. I guess having both of them on my side again took alot outta me.
For once, I thought everything was back to normal. Jill was my adoring girlfriend again and mom was the caring woman I cherished and respected.
But...like always, I was wrong.
So fucking wrong.
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Come Saturday, I was dressed in one of my favourite shirts. I even wore the cologne Jill got me for my 18th birthday last year.
I walked downstairs and saw mom on the couch. She glanced up at me and smiled.
"Well look at you." she said, "You all dressed up and ready for your date with Jill."
I nodded my head.
"I see you're also wearing that cologne she bought you last year too," mom continued while sniffing the air.
I managed a little smile.
"Just don't do anything stupid to ruin your second chance okay?" mom stated.