I woke up before the alarm went off. Lying on my side, I kept my eyes closed. I'd expected to wake up horny and, instead, I woke up nervous. I peered out from under the blankets at the outfit I'd laid out for myself.
I'd never worn anything revealing in public, except a bathing suit but there it is. A T-shirt with hardly any fabric to it and a bra that will push my tits into cleavage that no guy could ignore, especially since I'd cut the T-shirt's neck to have a deep V. The jeans my Mom had bought me for Christmas. I'd tried them on and, when I saw how the cut made my ass and butt look, I'd immediately bitched her out. They left no curve to the imagination. The G-string I figured was a nice finishing touch. Every time I've ever noticed a girl's thong or G-string slip out of the top of her pants I've seen every male classmate practically stop in his tracks to look. They're like apes and today every ape's eyes are going to be on me.
There's no question, the other girls are going to make comments. That is probably an understatement. They'll probably be outright jealous bitches. The guys won't be assholes though... right? They won't just say "nice tits Jenna Jameson" and laugh as they walk by? They'll be interested, turned on, and actually talk to me... right? I hate this. I hate change.
Shit, you're doing it again, thinking of excuses and scaring yourself out of who you want to be. You're ruminating on the worst-case scenarios. Find courage. Think of the best case scenarios.
I conjured up a mental image of myself at the prom, in a red-carpet-worthy dress, walking in with Holden Stonesbey. Even in my heels he'd still be at least six inches taller than me. He'd almost certainly be in a bow-tie. He's a classy dude.
I don't know how to shake my ass or grind, so I skipped to thinking about us slow dancing and all the other girls looking on wondering how the hell this happened. I pictured his old girlfriend, Becka, watching and pissed. She's a total bitch and doesn't deserve him.
Holden is handsome and popular and has always been really nice to everyone. I know he has a reputation for partying but in school he's always a gentleman. I like that. I pictured him pulling up my dress and him slowly humping me against a wall in a nice hotel suite, my prom dress around my waist and his hands running all over my body. Fuck Becka, smart girls have pussies too.
That was the gusto I needed. I switched off the alarm so it wouldn't go off while I was in the shower and headed for the bathroom, in just my panties and no top. Fuck it, I'm a new woman... and my Dad is always gone by 5am and Mom will already be dressed and downstairs, on her phone answering emails. Whatever, it's a start.
Still, I feel like I'm already a different person as I walk down the hall to the bathroom and feel my big tits jiggling freely with each step. I flip the light switch and check my naked breasts out in the mirror. I can't imagine how different my confidence would be if I had small or misshaped tits. I always let myself feel a little pleasure in knowing that I probably look better topless than most of the 'popular' girls.
I slip off my panties and look at my pussy.
I need to shave.
The shower knobs stick, as usual, but I twist hard and the shower head comes to life. A few minutes later I'm under the warm water, rubbing soap over my arms, stomach, legs, tits, ass, and pussy. After I soap off I detach the head of the handheld showerhead and lean against the shower wall.
With the end of the hose against my clit, I shut my eyes tight, and let the orgasm build. I grab my tit with my free hand and pinch. I love the feeling of playing with my tits. I love squeezing my nipples. Within seconds I'm humping the air, making sure to hold the end of the hose tight against my clit still. I have vibrators, dildos, and even a vibrating dildo. Nothing, though, beats the intense spray of the shower hose. My heart pounds. An orgasm always makes my heartbeat sky rocket and leaves me fighting to catch my breath.
Again? Well, I did wake up early... But who am I kidding? When don't I do it at least twice? Maybe this morning I'll get myself off three times. It's supposed to be my big day, right?!
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The bell rang; I grabbed my books, and headed out of the classroom and down the hall towards the C-Wing exit. The sunlight hit me and a wave of pride and achievement came over me. That was amazing. I never thought it would be that exhilarating!
Walking down a hall and looking over your shoulder to see a group of guys all checking out your ass, amazing. I feel like I should be on the cover of a magazine. Every single guy that I walked by, that I'm attracted to, was either looking at my boobs, my ass, or smiling right at me. Every - Single - Guy. I should make a poster! Maybe I could try out for Playboy. That's probably not the mindless life I want to live, but it would definitely give me something to write about!! That was the best day of school I've ever had. No wonder all the girls are complaining about graduating.
An arm sent me reeling around and I was suddenly face to face with Jake.
"Hey Vicky, what's going on?"
That one caught me off guard.
Uh, you're a popular football jock who just spun me around and you're asking me what's going on?
"Um, just walking home. You know, the usual I guess."
Brilliant Vicky; if Mom was here she'd never let you live that down. That was 100% cat lady boring.
"Oh, walking home? Don't you have a car... or any play sports after school... or plans or anything?"
Be smarter.
"Yeah, I'm meeting a friend back at my house, just to hang out and stuff. My parents aren't home, so we'll probably just tan and sneak a few beers."
Please don't ask me who! Just move on, please!
"Oh, that sounds cool. I just wanted to see if you wanted to leave together for lunch tomorrow. We can take my car."
"Lunch? Tomorrow? Yeah, let's do it." I cut myself short, trying to hide the disbelief in my voice. Lunch!?
"Cool, well I've got lacrosse practice that I'm going to be late for if I don't hurry up. Meet me by my car at lunch then? I always park by the sports shed."
"Yeah, I'll meet you at your car. Thanks!" His face immediately went to a confused look.
Ugh Vicky, you're an idiot. Thanks? Nice.