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As I stand here on the platform, I look around, half expecting to see everyone staring at me. I can feel their eyes on me, but as I look I don't see anyone looking my way. I am just another passenger on this train that is coming in. I look down to the ticket that is clenched in my fist and again I check to see that my luggage is right beside me. I am travelling light because I know that I will not need much at my destination, nor will I need much on the trip. I don't want to be weighed down by luggage that is unneeded.
With a blast the train pulls up to the platform and a sea of people emerge. The jostling, pushing and shoving almost separates me from my case, but I reach out at the last minute to save it from rolling away. I don't have the strength that I use to have, but I guess that comes in connection with my condition.
Wearily I go forward to the doorway of the car that is where I will be spending my trip to the ocean. I don't know if I can make it, but at the last minute, as the train starts to move, I feel an arm around me lifting me onto the train and throwing my case on behind me. By the time I have gained my footing and turned around, there is no one there to thank, so I just take my case and go to look for my cabin.
Slowly I walk down the hallway to where I figure that my cabin is, but when I get there I find that there is no cabin with my number on it. Wearily I lean against the side of the hall until I can catch my breath and gain my footing again. I gather up my wits and go to the end of the car where, to my relief, I find a man in an Amtrak uniform. When I show him my ticket he smiles and directs me to the next car. Gratefully he takes my case from me and carries it to a door where he stops. When he opens the door I see that it is just what I was hoping for, a small room with a bed and a private bathroom.
I guess, when you have the money, you can do anything that you want or get whatever you need. Now I am glad that I pursued that lawsuit against the medical facility where I was misdiagnosed, because now I can do what I want with the rest of my life and even give some financial assistance to some friends of mine. I hand the gentleman $20.00 which he tries to give back.
"Please, keep it. I know this is a long ride, and I know that you will be getting as hungry as anyone else. Go and buy yourself something in the dining car.
"Thank you, ma'am. I may just take you up on that. Is there anything I can get for you?"
I smile. "No. I just need to sleep. Please make sure that I am not disturbed, okay?"
"Okay. You just leave everything to ole Wayne. I'll take real good care of you."
"Thank you."
With that I shut the door and go to lie down on the bed. Before I know it I am asleep. With the sound of the wheels rumbling beneath the floor and the gentle swaying of the train I find that I can sleep better than I have in a long time.
Suddenly something wakes me up. I turn over to look at the door and I see the handle slowly turning. I pretend to be asleep and with it being as dark as it is over here in the corner anyone would think that I am asleep if they were just to glance in. Slowly the door opens and I see a man slowly enter my room. I see him glance over at me and continue farther in.
Very gently he sits down on the edge of my bed, almost as if he doesn't want to wake me. I close my eyes quickly when I see him reach out a hand toward my face. Through my closed eyes I can tell that there are now flashes of light in regular intervals, so I know that we are traveling alongside a road of some kind. I try to keep my breathing deep and even as I feel his hand gently caress the side of my face and slowly comb through my short-cropped dark hair.
I almost give it away when I hear him whisper, for I know his voice very well. "Marie, what have they done to you? Why didn't you call me and tell me?"
I know that this is the man that I love, but I can never have. It is getting harder and harder to keep my breathing slow and even when all I want to do is sit up, throw my arms around him and kiss him. Obviously that wouldn't be a good idea since he thinks I am asleep and he obviously doesn't want me to know that he is here.
"Marie, I know that I can do nothing for you now, but I hope that you know you have just to call me and I will be there for you. I don't know if you can hear me or not, but I hope that you know I will always be there for you."
When he sneaks out of my room I sit up in the dark cabin, hug my knees up into my chest and start to cry. As I rock myself back and forth I now know who it was that got me onto the train β it was him. Even though I know his voice, I have never met him, until tonight.
There is only one way that he could have known that I was going to be on this train, and that is if he was watching the reservations that came in since the last time we talked. He knew that I wanted to meet him, and he knew that I had won my lawsuit, but I have no idea how he got away to come and get me. I just made my reservations two days before I left. Slowly I can feel myself drifting off to sleep again so I stretch out on my bed and close my eyes.
When I next open my eyes it is to a gentle knocking on my door. I tug the blanket β which I don't remember having the night before β up to my chin and call out for the person to enter. A very nicely dressed woman appears in the open doorway and stops dead in her tracks when she sees me.
"So, this is where my husband snuck off to last night. I know he was here, so don't try to deny it. He bought that blanket at that last stop, supposedly for one of his cases, but I don't suppose that is you, is it."
Finally I gain my voice. "You must be Marsha. Daniel has told me a lot about you. I envy you, do you know that?"
I can see the surprise on her face. "I just wish that I had someone that would love me as much as your husband loves you. Yes, I guess you could call me one of his cases. He counseled me through a lot of difficult times, and I will always respect him for that. He knows that I would never do anything to take him away from you, and I would hope that, seeing me, you would realize too that there is no way I could ever compete with you."
With a sweeping glance she takes in my sallow complexion, the thinness of my features, and my cropped hair. "You are still sick, aren't you?"
"Yes, I am. There is nothing anyone can do about it though, so I am taking one last trip to the ocean and I am going there to die. I know most people would be freaking out, but I have always wanted to see the ocean, so I decided to do so now, while I still can. My doctors only give me about a month to live, so I thought I'd better do it now before I have to go into a hospital."
Again she glances over me. "Now I know why he bought that blanket. I'm glad that he did. You obviously need it."
I guess she saw the shiver that I was trying to hide from her. By now I notice that her attitude toward me has changed. If I felt better I would get very upset at the pity that I read in her demeanor, but right now I just want to go back to sleep. Before I drift off again I hear her say one last thing to me as she is walking out of the room.
"I won't stand in the way of you being with Daniel. You need him right now, and I'll always get him back."
When I open my eyes again we are still moving and Wade is standing in the doorway with a tray of food.
"Ma'am, I know that you haven't eaten anything since before you got on this here train, so I hope you don't mind, but I took it upon myself to get your breakfast for you. It is nice and healthy, since it looks like you could use something healthy." He glances again at my face. "Are you okay, ma'am? You sure don't look all that well."