Chapter 1, discovering my sexuality
My name is Clover Moffatt, and my sexual awakening came late, at the hands of men who ought to have known better - namely Henry Jones, my elderly neighbour, and the Headmaster of my High School Jed Bonner. Frankly, I regard the whole Jed episode as being completely formative, and ruinous to my chances of romance.
But I should start from the beginning. When I turned eighteen, and Henry Jones initiated me into...something.
It was summer in London. i was eighteen, in my last year at school, and tightly reined in by my parents. No short skirs, no boys no late nights. And behind the door of my bedroom I was RAMPANT for it.
It had been getting worse. I mean eighteen and still having sex by myself? I had had a long day at school, which had ended with sharp words from our rather terrifying headmaster who had spotted me smoking just outside the gate. Jed Bonner. Some of the girls called him Boner because he always seemed to have a vast bulge in his trousers. I had ventured a glance at it as he was talking to me, and realised it was bigger than usual. I wondered if it was because I'd taken my bra off and he could see my nipples poking into my school T shirt. I liked the thought. I could feel my nipples now, subbing against the cotton. That's what I took the bra off, I just loved the feel of my nipples, rubbing... I was like all teenaged girls, then. I was desperate for sex, yet terrified of it. I masturbated all the time. I was kind of hot for myself. I had discovered how much my nipples liked to be stimulated and had positively bruised them in my efforts to intensify my pleasure. And I was endlessly terrified of getting caught. A penis, though - I wasn't ready for one of those. I'd seen them on internet porn. They looked far too vast to be manageable. It had taken me months even to manage a Lillet.
I lived in a pleasant suburb in London called Kentish Town. It was rather twee and trendy, with coffee shops and pastel coloured houses, and bunches of Rastafarians hanging out on street corners selling pot and stealing your wallet. I loved the vibrancy of it - but out house was in a leafy side street with houses on each side and big, old fashioned windows.
As I approached our house my phone pinged. It had pinged several times today and I had rushed to see what my message was each time... I got it out of my pocket, conscious of a stirring excitement. I had been getting anonymous texts for the last week, and they were making me feel strange and excited.
The first one had been last Sunday. I'd been in the front garden in my bikini, lying on a deckchair reading a book. The first message said "tasty titties."
I'd been shocked at first but thrilled that someone would want to send me a message like that. The next day had come, "I love your nipples." And then, more erotically, "would pay good money to suck your little teats."
Last night had come the most erotic of all. It said "i could lick you till you shudder."
I didn't know who they were from. The only person I'd given my phone number to recently was Henry, the old wheelchair-bound man who had just moved in opposite us, for use in an emergency. It was hardly likely to be him.
I headed home, now, wondering whether my nipples might have affected Jed's lunchbox. I hoped so. I longed to have the power to do that. There was a strange little feeling down between my legs when I thought about what Jed Bonner had in there, and what it might look like. I imagined him getting it out, as I walked home. Imagined him standing over me and making me kneel before it and watch it rearing up...
It would be vast. I fantasised about seeing it plunged into Mrs Akin the science teacher, who was only 23 but dressed like a frump and picked on me all the time. I'd seen fucking videos on line. I wanted to see Mrs Akin fucked by Jed till she begged for release. I wanted to see her moaning like the girls in the porn videos. I wanted her to take it up the ass.
I strolled along the street, flanked by beech trees. I could see Henry Jones in the garden of his house, gardening in his wheelchair. His bedroom was right opposite mine, and occasionally I'd see him sitting at his window when I went to get ready for bed, so I'd give him a little wave. He always seemed so pleased to see me.
My parents were out that night and all that thinking of Jed Bonner's penis had be feeling rather aroused. I liked to masturbate with my dad's secret supply of cock cream, which he kept at the back of the bathroom cabinet, so as soon as they'd gone I headed to my room.
It was a hot evening so I had the window open, and the calico curtain was fluttering gently in the breeze. I put a dollop of cream on each nipple. They started to warm up and tingle - I think the cream has pepper in it. I headed over to the window to close the curtain before I lay down and found my little hot thing...
And there was Henry Jones. He was staring straight in. He had seen everything I had done.
Shocked, I closed the curtains... but not before my eyes had registered the smile on his face and the hand raised in greeting.
OMG I realised, he liked it. And I thought, poor Henry, he's in a wheelchair, and he's totally harmless...
And I opened the curtains again. I didn't look at him - I was too shy, but I fondled my nipples in front of the window, then I backed away from the window to my bed and lay back on it so that he could see everything, spreading my legs to show him my moist little pussy...
Then delicately I dipped a finger into my dad's cock cream, took a generous dollop, applied it to my clitoris and started to rub.
I am a real expert masturbator. I have worked out how to tease and please that little button of mine until it begs for mercy. I can roll my finger over it till it hovers right on the edge, till I'm moaning so load I have to put my face in the pillow... and when I'm on the edge I imagine fingers in me and Jed Bonner punishing Mrs Akin... and then I push myself over into wild lovely spasms of pleasure. Everything inside me contracts and I get incredibly wet. And I think I ache for something to be put inside... and sometimes I slide a candle in and move it up and down...
I was really hot. My clit was swollen and nobbly, my experienced fingers powerful and rhythmic. With my left hand I pulled hard on my left nipple and it sent screaming waves of pleasure down to my pussy. I wanted to put the candle in, but I didn't want to spoil Henry's view. I remembered the text person taking about sucking on my titties and I heard moaning.
"Oh that's nice... oh yes... oh yes... oh do it more, do it more..."
Was that my voice? It sounded so deep. I was so hot and excited I was losing control. Oh God...
Two voices. The deep moaning voice wasn't mine, it was Henry. Henry Jones was getting off watching me climax on my bed.
I sat up, legs apart, pussy fully displayed and looked across to Henry's room. He was there, watching. I could see his hand moving in his groin. He was rubbing himself...
I heard a wild moan again. Surely I can't hear Henry across the street?
But no, it was me this time...oh God. i was so hot knowing i had turned him on. The power was exquisite. My clitoris was like a giant knob screaming with lust. I lay back and began to tug on my nipple with one hand, tug tug tug, whilst the other hand fingered my hungry, turgid button. I started a low, animal murmur.
The thought that Henry was watching added a fast, frantic desire to my masturbation. I rubbed my clit harder and harder and started to moan aloud, "oh yes, oh yes, oh that's good, Oh god ... henry i want you to suck my titts, oh god, oh god... oh YEEEEEAAAAAAAHHHHHHH"
I spasmed and came, gorgeous and hungry, weak as a baby. My vagina was contracting in excited waves. Carefully I put one finger into the pussy juices and held it up for Henry to see.