While my kids watched one of their favorite movies for what felt like the millionth time, I leafed through a hot-rodding magazine, dreaming of building a new engine for my old truck. My wife, Cami, had gone out with friends after work, and I happily agreed to watch the kids. What Cami did not know was that my willingness to do so, as well as to do many other things for her over the past couple of weeks, stemmed as much from guilt as anything else.
The source of my guilt lived next door to us, in the person of a cute eighteen-year-old named Kat. Well, cute and sexy as fuck. A little more than a month back, Kat shocked me with a request to help her learn to give a blowjob. She wanted to keep her boyfriend from finding another girl, so she decided to blow him. But because she had never gone down on a guy before, she was nervous and thought it best to learn from someone she trusted. She picked me.
But I had done more than help her out with the BJ, and by 'help out' I mean enjoy a great first attempt from the girl, who proved to be a natural at oral sex. A week later, I popped her cherry. And a couple of weeks after that momentous event, we engaged in a marathon afternoon of sex. Up until the end of our last encounter, I had managed to rationalize away any guilt I felt. One, I convinced myself that I was not a cheater because I had never even considered doing it before. And two, I told myself that I wasn't cheating with Kat because of desire to go outside my marriage, but rather because she needed my help. Of course, I was lying to myself. I buried the truth as far away from my conscious mind as I could. But falling asleep with Kat on her parents' bed had changed everything. Well, everything but my lust for the blonde girl.
I did attempt to channel that lust into sex with my wife. But while that strategy worked on the physical level, guilt still threatened to overwhelm me. And it did not help that any time Kat had a free moment to herself, she texted me with suggestions of things we could do together. Trying sixty-nine showed up in many of her texts, but different sex positions did as well, with reverse-cowgirl perhaps number one on that list. Specifically, she wanted to try that in my truck because she thought she would have sex with her boyfriend soon and suspected that it would happen in his truck. I tried suggesting that she just try these things with him, but Kat wanted to do them with me first. And God help me, I wanted that too. But I knew I should not.
A chime startled me out of my thoughts. I flipped open my phone and read a text from the source of all my worries.
"Saw Mrs. P. go. R u alone?"
"No. Kids r here."
":-("
"Sorry."
"I wanna fuck. Meet in ur truck?"
"I cant."
"Im wet & ready."
I read and reread her last text, my breath quickening. Telling my kids I would be in my bedroom, I hurried down the hall. After closing the door, I called Kat.
"Hey, Brian," she answered in a quiet voice.
"Is someone else there?"
"I'm in my room. Cam is studying in his and my parents are watching TV."
"I see."
"So, you don't want to ram your hard cock into my tight little puss?"
"Kat, I told you we have to stop."
"Yeah, right."
"I'm serious."
"No, you're not. If cheating really mattered to you, you would've never let me blow you, much less the rest of it. And you know it."
"That's not true," I sighed, uncertain whether I needed to convince Kat or myself.
"Yeah, it is. So, if you want to fuck, go to the garage. I'll slip out and meet you there."
"I'm not leaving the kids alone in the house, Kat."
"Put on a movie. They'll veg for long enough for me to ride you."
"No."
"Really? You don't want to feel my tits? Or my lips on your cock, making sure it's hard and slippery before I slide my cunt down it?"
"Please stop..."
"You don't want me to."
I could not deny the truth of her words. I wanted nothing more in that instant than to rush to the garage and feel the snug warmth of the blonde girl's pussy engulf my shaft. But I knew that my growing guilt would torment me afterward.
"We could have phone sex," I suggested, not wanting to upset her. Also, I hoped I might not feel as guilty in the aftermath.
"I could do that with Clarke or a dozen other guys I know," Kat scoffed. "I want the real thing."
"Why not with Clarke?" I asked. I had been wondering that for some time, especially after I tried to cool things off between Kat and me.
"I'm not ready for that."
"I don't understand..."
"I don't want to fuck him, Brian," she snapped. "I want to fuck you."
"Kat..."
"Yeah, I get it. Bye."
I stared at the silent phone in my hands for some time, wondering what to do next. But no ideas came to mind, so I headed to my bathroom to take care of the traitorous erection that had sprung up during my conversation with the girl next door.
***
"Will b alone 2moro. Want 2 69?"
The text came in Friday afternoon while I was working. I attempted to ignore it, but seconds later Kat texted me a question mark.
I texted 'no' although I had wanted to say 'yes'. My wife did not care much for sixty-nine, but I rather liked it. So not only did I feel the normal temptation from my lust for Kat, my mind latched on to the idea that I would get to lick her sweet pussy while she sucked my dick.
"69 & reverse cowgirl??? >:->"
"What time?" I responded, doing my best to ignore the voice in my head calling me a cheating scumbag.
"Afternoon."
"I'll see."
My young lover texted me a smiley face followed by maybe a half dozen exclamation marks.