"We're all so full of shit, born and raised by hypocrites. Apostles and disciples of the Jesus of Suburbia."
- Green Day 'Jesus of Suburbia'
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The meeting was going on for hours. The pastor was the only one left who looked even mildly interested in what the deacons had to say. The doddering old fools had each, in turn, clambered onto their soap boxes and proclaimed everyone else unclean. I was thoroughly sick of it. Those same men who flaunted their self righteousness were the same ones who stared at my ass when I walked up the stairs ahead of them, or watched my chest bounce when we played games in youth group,not so very long ago.
Mum's knitting needles clacked together metallically. I restrained myself from simply getting up and walking out. I was expected to be an adult now. Why did turning 18 suddenly change the way everyone looked at you? To relieve some of the boredom, I stared across the aisle at the long-term, albeit secret, object of my affections. James.
Well, Jimmy. He's was the pastor's only boy, and I'll be damned if he didn't get sexier every year. Natural black hair with volume to die for, sea green eyes, and long bangs that fell into his eyes. Not to mention his body. He wasn't incredibly tan, but he still looked positively orange next to me. I blame it on the Irish side of the family. From all the way in our pew, I could see the faint definition of the muscles in his arms. It wasn't showy, but he was strong. He may not be for everyone, but he fit the bill for me.
He turned suddenly and caught me staring. He smiled cockily. I smiled back. He motioned with a quick nod toward the door at the back of the room. I nodded back. Without further preamble, he got up from his pew and left the sanctuary. I leaned over to my mum and whispered that I was going downstairs to hang out with Jimmy. She frowned down at her knitting, and then raised her head and nodded. I padded out of the room, and then downstairs to the basement. He was in the Senior High room. He was leaning against the wall, arms crossed. The very picture of nonchalance. I leaned against the wall a few feet away from him. He unfolded his arms and reached out to give me a high five. I smacked his palm and slid down the wall until I was squatting. He mimicked my posture. It was several minutes before I could think of anything to say. We both enjoyed our solitude. I had closed my eyes against the harsh halogen glow that pervaded the room and was about to ask him about what he was going to do once he graduated, when he put his hand over my mouth. I opened my eyes, and he held my head between his hands.
"Jimmy wh-" he leaned forward and captured my mouth with his. He was gentle, but I could feel the need radiating from his touch. It went beyond passion, that kiss. It went beyond hunger also. This kiss, plain and simple, was every atom in his body screaming 'touch me'. Wouldn't want to disappoint his atoms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him in closer. His eyes widened, and I could see the smile they contained. His mouth was otherwise occupied. I ran the tip of my tongue over the inside of his bottom lip. He sighed and pulled away.
"So what does this mean?"
"1. I really like you. 2. I really want to fuck you."
"Well at least you're honest.I like you too." I could feel my face beginning to color. He grinned like I had made him the happiest man in the world and kissed my forehead. He touched my lips again. I kissed the tips of his fingers, and he let his hand go limp until it rested on my tits.
"Do you mind?" I rolled my eyes.
"If I minded, would you still be alive?"
"True." He slipped his hands under my t-shirt and cupped them at the edge of my bra. "How about now?" I rolled my eyes again, and he slid his hands around my back to unhook my bra. He splayed his fingers out across my boobs. "I'm guessing at least a C. What are you?"
"32D."
"Can I confess something?"
"Sure." his hands massaged my chest slowly
"I fucking love your tits, and your ass, and everything about you. I always have." I felt my face get even pinker.
"May I confess something now?"
"Go ahead."
"You're the sexiest guy I know. I want to sit here and make out with you for eternity." here my embarrassment got the best of me, and I turned away. Jimmy tilted my head back so I was looking at him again. "Alright, I'll just come out and say it. We both know damned well that the presence of god isn't with either of us, and I would fuck you right here in this basement if I thought we could get away with it." His eyes widened, and then he grinned.
"Oh but we can." He moved to stand up, and I noticed the beginnings of a boner in the crotch of his jeans.
"Hey sunshine, where you going with that?" I stared pointedly at his stiffy.
"I'm not going anywhere I guess." I flicked my eyes back up to his.
"So this means we're doing it?"
"If you want to." His eyes begged me to say yes.