Authour's Note:
This is part three of Runaway, a story for the Highway Song event arranged by blackrandl1958. In the previous chapters, Lacey and Noah start heading back to Montreal after ending up on the wrong side of the country. Noah is alarmed to discover that Lacey is a virgin, but gives in to his feelings for her before trouble strikes in Toronto.
Chapters have been marked throughout the story and it will be posted in four parts.
Special thanks to the team of people who beta-read and edited this story: BarryJames1952, Bebop3, blackrandl1958, norafares, OneAuthor, and Steve M. This story would not be possible without them. Any remaining errorsβfactual, grammatical, or otherwiseβare my own.
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Chapter Seven
Is there anything quite so strange as knowing you're about to lose your virginity?
I scrubbed myself clean in the shower, nervous and excited, eager and hesitant. I took the time to dry my hair, brush my teeth, stare at myself in the mirror and try to figure out if I'd look any different after. On one hand, I was rushing, trying to get out to Noah as quickly as I could. On the other, I knew the moment I opened the bathroom door, everything would change.
Something as simple as dressing after my shower took minutes to figure out. It seemed silly to put clothes on, knowing he was about to remove them. Walking out with nothing on, though, was beyond what my modesty would allow. I finally decided to compromise with one of the robes that hung in the bathroom, then reconsidered when the fabric felt rough against my sparkling clean skin and the length only came to the middle of my thigh. I finally managed to talk myself into wearing the robe and that the roughness of the fabric was just an incentive to take it off more quickly.
I tried to ignore the part of me that was attempting to sabotage the whole thing.
Deep inside, something taunted me, telling me Noah wouldn't be there when I opened the door.
It's an even more elaborate prank
, said the nasty little voice.
He's fucking with you, just like Roger did.
I told myself he wasn't. I wasn't the same gullible, naive girl who Roger had tricked. Noah wasn't the kind of person who would do that. I trusted Roger in spite of him abusing that trust again and again. I trusted Noah because I knew he wouldn't.
The voice changed to my father's.
Whore.
I shook my head. If God was going to judge me for this and not for the good that I did, then let Him. The God I had begun to believe in was one of love, forgiveness, and goodwill. He was not going to condemn me for something like this.
A smile played across my face as I stared in the mirror. I wouldn't look different once I lost my virginity. I looked different already. The woman in the mirror was not the same girl who had left home a week ago.
She was better.
Once my hair was dry, the robe was on, and I had sufficiently stared at myself in the mirror, I took a deep breath and opened the door.
Noah was sitting on the edge of the bed. His jean jacket lay across the chair in the corner of the room, but he still wore his plaid green shirt and dark jeans. When I stepped out of the bathroom, he stood up. His lips parted, but he didn't speak.
"I'm ready," I said softly.
He came to me and took my hand.
"You are in charge, okay? You want me to stop, say stop. You can change your mind at any time."
"I won't."
"I know, you're set on this. But if you do, if something isn't feeling right, promise me you'll tell me, okay?"
"I promise."
We kissed and Noah let go of my hand, running it up the side of the robe to my shoulders. He pulled back and frowned.
"This robe is terrible."
I burst out laughing. "I know."
"Let me take it off you."
Such a simple statement, yet it was monumental. Noah had touched me in places no one else had. He'd removed my shirt on the train. He'd held me close, pressed tightly against him. This would be the first time he, or anyone else for that matter, would see me fully naked.
I refused to let my nervousness control me.
Noah's hands met mine on the knot of the robe belt. I started untying it; he finished, gently pulling the loop free and letting the robe hang open. I watched his face as he watched my body come into view, his eyes taking in my curves, my breasts, and my sex.
His hands pushed the robe from my shoulders, following its path down my arms until it fell to the ground. Once he reached my wrists, he crossed the bridge to my hips. His hands travelled back up my sides, grazing my breasts lightly before they reached my neck. Cupping my face with both hands, he brought me in for another kiss.
"You are enchanting. Come here. Lie on the bed."
He guided me onto the bed, fluffing the pillows around me so I was cradled in a nest of clouds, propped up so I wasn't quite lying flat on my back. When he was satisfied that I was comfortable, he stood at the end of the bed and shed his shirt and jeans, then joined me on the bed.
Again, he kissed me, and again I felt my limbs go weak as my mind went dizzy. Hovering over me, his head was a silhouette in the golden glow of the lamp in the corner. He looked every bit of the guardian angel I knew he was.
"What am I supposed to do?" I asked.
"Relax and let me take care of you," he murmured.
His lips pressed against mine before I could respond. Then they pressed to my chin, a gentle caress before moving on to my neck. His hair fell to the side of his face, tickling my skin as he feathered his way to my collarbone, his lips worshiping each patch of skin they pressed against. The tip of his tongue traced paths from freckle to freckle, leaving a trail of goosebumps behind as he mapped out my skin.
Fingertips brushed against my breast, prodding lightly as he held one in his hand. The kisses journeyed on, marking my chest and the tops of my breasts until his face was nestled in my cleavage. Again, his tongue darted out, finding an especially sensitive spot between my breasts that made me tremble beneath him.
The mix of anticipation and apprehension was intoxicating. I wanted to lose myself under Noah's body, revelling in the feel of his lips against me, but the fear and excitement of what was to come clouded my mind. I told myself to relax, to enjoy what was happening, to embrace the new sensations and the way electricity seemed to spark at Noah's lips and travel through my body. Each time I tried, however, an insistent little worm of a thought would twist in my mind, telling me to be afraid, urging me to go back, admonishing the parts of me that liked what Noah was doing.
That little voice was wrong. It was ingrained in me from years of being told that anything enjoyable was sinful. I chose to ignore it, chose to believe that there was more to existence than resisting temptation. What better way to honour God than to bask in the delights He created, to love and appreciate the gifts He gave, to live and enjoy and simply be?
Noah glanced up at me, aware of the tension running through me.
"Tell me what you're thinking."
I bit my lip, not wanting to admit I was having a spiritual revelation as he had his face pressed into my breasts.
"Just a little nervous," I whispered.
"About what?"