The small park lay still and dark, pungent night vapors beginning to rise in the cooing air. Thank god we live in a small town where you don't need neon vapor lights to keep the homeless and druggies from taking over. I lay on my back in the middle of the rose garden dreaming and smelling the fragrance of the American Beauties, dreaming about how great my life will be in two years when I finally get my associate's degree. Community college is supposed to be the best years of your life, but it wasn't working out that way for me. I was always on the outside looking in and the few female friends I had were either too ugly or too prim to make it with the in set.
I hated to think I was in their category but I undoubtedly was. My problem was that I was so shy, I could hardly force myself to say 'good morning' to the other kids. Well, I guess it didn't help that I was almost six feet tall with as little figure along the way up as to not matter. I'd given up checking the mirror in the bathroom to see the first sign of my bust growing. I didn't have any athletic talent either, so all that height just went to waste as far as my dad was concerned.
I was so wrapped in my dreams that I barely noticed the squeaking of a gate to one of the paths that tunnel their way through the dense foliage between the park and the private yards that circle it. But it stayed in my mind and when I finally sat up and saw a faint light swinging back and forth in the playground, my curiosity was piqued.
I walked stealthily toward the playground, staying in the shadows. It was Randy Garvey, the computer nut from across the park, and unless I was mistaken, he was smoking marijuana.
"Hi, Millie." I jumped. I didn't think he could see me. "You thought you could sneak up, eh? Look behind you."
I looked. The sky to the West was still pink from the sunset out over the prairie. I must have stood out like anything. "What cha smoking?" I asked.
"Want some?"
"Sure."
I was feeling pretty cool until I broke out coughing and I knew he could see how inexperienced a doper I was, but he just said, "Ha, ha. It's really bodacious bud. I thought I'd cough my lungs out." I took the swing beside him and we swung together, passing the joint back and forth until it was gone.
"What are you doing out here, anyway?" I asked.
"My brother kicked me out of the house."
"Huh?"
"He wanted to get rid of me so he and his girlfriend could be alone."
"Oh."
"It's okay, though, because he gave me this bud as a bribe."
"It was nice of you to share it with me."
"Millie?"
"Huh?"
"Do you want to see something really cool?"
"What do you mean?"
"Are you game? I mean, it'll be really cool, but it's sort of . . . how shall I say this, it's 'x-rated.'"
"I don't understand."
"That's all I'm going to tell you. But if you're game and you sit tight for a while, I'm sure you'll find it interesting."
"You're not going to make a move on me, are you?"
"No, nothing like that. Hey, are you serious? Do you think I'd make a move on you? Don't you think I'm queer like everybody else?"
"I never heard anything like that about you, Randy."
"Really"
Randy stood up on the swing and started to pump higher and higher until he suddenly let go and jumped as far as he could, rolling forward from where he landed.
"Didn't that hurt?"
"No." But I could see it did from the way he walked. Randy grabbed my hand pulled me over to the teeter totter and we played on it for a while. Each of us was just waiting for the other to try to dump us off. Suddenly Randy said, "There it is."
"What?"
"Look."
"Huh?"
"The lights to the hot tub are on. You've got to be real quiet now." Randy led me over to a big oak tree growing out of the hedge, just across the fence from his home. He helped me up to the first branch before swinging himself up like a monkey. We climbed up slowly and as quietly as possible until we found a perch on a major limb from where we could look straight down into the Garvey's hot tub. Randy's brother, Bill, and Martha Bell, his girl friend were sitting stark naked. Well, not exactly sitting. They were all over each other. Bills hands were busy petting Martha's famous bust which, it depressed me to see, was entirely Martha, putting the lie to what a lot of us girls wishfully hoped was the truth.
I almost gasped audibly when Martha went down on Bill and took his penis into her mouth. Later when Bill started to lick her sex it was all I could do to be silent. I held my breath as nature took is course and Bill mounted Martha, even though all we could see was Bill's white fanny pumping up and down.
It didn't last long and then, when they were finished, we quickly shinnied down the tree.
"I told you it would be hot."
"You act like this isn't the first time."
"Heck no, they get together almost every night."
"Don't you get tired of being kicked out?"
"Not really. I enjoy watching them. Boy, if they only knew."
"That's the first time I've seen a guy's . . . what do you call it?"
"What? Penis?"
"No, I've seen them. But not like that."
"Bill had a hard-on. It's not like that all the time."
"I guess it couldn't be or I would have noticed. You couldn't exactly hide it in your pants, could you?" As I said this, my eyes naturally fell to his crotch and I actually could see that his cock was too big for his pants to hide.
My eyes must have given me away because Randy said, "No, not like that either. I'm still excited from watching them screwing."
"Oh." My nipples were itching something fierce and my panties were cold from the wetness there. It wasn't a feeling I'd had outside of in bed before but I didn't have any trouble figuring out what it meant.
I reached out and petted his cock through his pants. Randy laid his hand over mine and pulled my hand harder against him. "It isn't always that hard. That's a special effect for times like this." His voice sounded funny, and while his hips worked back and forth beneath my fingers, he started to stroke my breast with his other hand. I hadn't thought I had a breast but apparently I did, judging from the shivering feeling his hands induced from my nipples.
Randy pulled me closer and I let go of his cock. He pulled my t-shirt up out of my jeans and reached up inside and started to pinch my nipples gently. Somehow he found two small pear shaped bumps, which he squeezed. He pushed my shirt up and took my nipples into his mouth. I liked it. Suddenly he pulled me to him so he could kiss me. I pursed my lips to kiss back but his tongue slid between them and into my mouth before I could, and then both our mouths were wide open as we tried to suck each other tongues in.
After kissing for an eternity without taking time out for breathing, I became aware of the pressure on my mons which was coming from the bump Randy's pants. It wasn't me who returned the pressure, it was some other person. Suddenly Randy pulled back and reached into his pants. "Something's pinching."
"Huh?"
"Tight pants."
Randy took my hips and pulled them to his and then we stood locked together at the hips swaying to the delicious pressure we felt even through our respective blue jeans. I was just reaching my hands down Randy's tummy, fingers sliding inside his underpants and coming up against a warm obstruction when the whistle blew.
"Shit, that means I have to go."
"So soon?"
"Yeah."
"Gee, I wish . . ."
"Yeah, me too."
"Maybe we can, you know, meet again."
"Let's hope so. I'm out here almost every night after I do my homework."
I fully expected to meet Randy the next evening but I chickened out at the last minute. I hope he wasn't too disappointed. That night, before bed, I looked in the mirror and I could actually see breasts, two to be exact. Not very big, but they were there. All I'd had to do was stop watching for the pot to boil, I guess. Then I couldn't sleep for the longest time, only succeeding after exploring the new feelings Randy had awakened in me with my fingers, first on my breasts and then sneaking down to the itchy groove where my legs come together. Now I thought, why did I pass this up?
I was lying in the rose garden the next night when I heard the gate opening. When I heard the swing start to squeak, I suddenly jumped up and ran back to my house, where I stood shivering in the doorway before running up to my room and throwing myself down face first onto my bed and crying. I don't know why. I was really confused.
I was working on my homework in my room the next afternoon when I heard the doorbell. Mother yelled up the stairs, "Are you decent? You have company." I stepped out the door and looked down. Randy was standing at the bottom of the stairs beside Mother looking apprehensive, a shy little smile on his face.
"Can I come up? I have a question about math."
"Sure."
"Keep the door open, Millicent."
"Yeah, okay. Mother. . . Geeze!"
When Randy got in the room, he said, "Millicent?"
"Millie to everyone except Mother."
"I won't tell."
"I don't care."