Today is Wednesday, June 11, 2003. The time is 3:33 am. And I am sitting in my tent with my laptop looking at the most beautiful sight Iāve ever seen. Tonight was a wonderful night. I was up late from cleaning my house when my best friend Jon knocked on my front door, then walked in. āPatty are you home? Ready to go camping tonight?ā
Oops shit I forgot. āYea Iām home. Just let me get some things together. I totally forgot we were going camping tonight.ā I yelled while cleaning up and changing. Five minutes later I was ready to go and the cars were loaded with everything weād need. And off we went.
We got to the campgrounds a little after 6, paid for a week. Then went to lot 88 to pitch the tent and get everything together. After an hour of unloading the two cars and getting everything set up we were tired. But still had to start a fire in the grill. So while Jon set up the grill I went up to the shower house to change clothes and use the bathroom. By the time I had changed and got back to the site Jon had the food cooked and on the picnic table. He was just pouring me a glass of peach Schnapps when I sat down.
āHey hun, this looks really good. Thank you for making it.ā I said then waited for him to sit before I started to eat. After we ate and I drank two bottles of Schnapps I was ready to cuddle by the fire and go to sleep. So we sat down and watched the fire crackle for a while before it was time to put it out. By around 10 p.m. The fire was out and we were in our tent playing the radio. We were listening to November Rain and with the music and candle light the setting was beautiful.
Even thoā the setting was some sleeping bags 2 book bags, a thing of lit candles, a radio, and some pillows and blankets it was magnificent. Jon and I got into a play fight because he just was not tired and absolutely refused to lie down and go to sleep, where as I was extremely tired from the Schnapps I had to drink. So sometime during our play fight I went from being cuddled next to Jon to lying on top of Jon looking at him while laughing and realized just how much heās changed since we met. I just sat there staring at him in total confusion as to how I didnāt realize before how handsome he is. I didnāt realize how hard I was staring until I realized that I was kissing him. I jerked up and stood up quickly while apologizing to him before I realized he was laughing.
Then he stood up and grabbed hold of me in a hug. And then apologized for laughing at me. āHun Iām sorry itās just funny that youād be so shocked by a kiss that you had started. By the way what made you kiss me?ā Oh shit I canāt believe I did that and here he is asking me why I did it. āIā¦Iā¦I rea⦠really d⦠d⦠donāt know why. I, I, I, I was just caught up in the moment, what with the music and, and, and the candlelight it, it was all just to perfect. And I uh well I just wanted to see how youād taste.ā I kept stuttering profusely as I tried to explain to Jon and myself also why I kissed him. Damn my nervousness.
But I couldnāt help it. Normally itās just a peck but this time it was a full-blown kiss and oh how I enjoyed it. He tasted like cinnamon and something I just canāt place a name to. As I stood there I realized that he was still staring at me but was confused as to why. āDear why are you still staring at me?ā I asked as I cocked my head to the left side like a bird would. He just laughed a bit and continued to stare. So I Looked down to see if I had got food on my shirt or something.
So when I looked down imagine my surprise to see my shirt was completely unbuttoned. I turned red with embarrassment and quickly buttoned my shirt up right before I grabbed my pillow and moved to the other side of the tent. Which is a good-sized tent it can fit up to 8 people in it comfortably. So while Jon stayed on his side of the tent laughing at me I laid with my back to him on my side. So I didnāt feel Jon get up and walk over to lay with me till he had his arms wrapped around my waist, and had started kissing my neck. Now let me tell you THAT sent chills down my spine, because that is the one of the quickest ways to get me in the mood. I tried to move away cause I was still mad at him for staring and laughing at me, but he just held me tighter. I started to roll to look at him but he pulled me closer and started to suck on my neck.
Soon I felt his lips travel to the back of my neck and then down my back, as I shivered.
I knew what was happening but I didnāt know weather to enjoy it or be scared. So while I was lost in thought I didnāt realize that he now was laying me on my back and kissing my throat and chest. I looked at him started as he removed my shirt and then my bra. I was stunned for a minute, but the feel of his mouth on my nipple had my full attention. By then I was to bothered to care that I didnāt really want our first time to be this way. He started to play with the nipple on my other breast as he nipped at the right one. I yelped and bucked a little from the feel of teeth on my nipple. Before he pushed me back down and started to french kiss me.
I couldnāt contain myself anymore and went with the flow. I started to pull his shirt off while he continued to kiss me, breaking the kiss long enough to pull his shirt over his head. When I got it off him I stared amazed at how good he looked. He had a slight tan and even a bit of muscles. I never imagined him shirtless before. Because weād go swimming at his house a lot. But there was usually alcohol or night involved so I never really noticed how he was built. But damn Iām glad I can see now.
I decided to switch the role and see how he tasted but when I tried to roll him over he placed one hand on each side of my head and told me to stay still. He sounded a little angry almost hateful when he said it. And that scared me because he never talks like that to me. So I obeyed and lay perfectly still and quiet aside from a few whimpers and shivers of pleasure. Soon my whimpers became moans as he did things no one has ever done before. Then he went to remove my boxers and underwear but I jerked up into a sitting position and told him no. āCome on Jon Please. Donāt I, I donāt want to go that far not just yet. Please Jon. No! JON NO!ā I shouted as he grabbed my boxers and pull them and my underwear off at the same instant.
I crossed my legs so he couldnāt do anything but he grew madder and backhanded me quite hard. He hit me hard enough to make me fall back and hit my head off the radio. I felt blood rolling down my face as I tried to sit up. I could see him pull of his jeans and boxers right before everything grew blurry. I couldnāt quite see but I felt him grab my ankles and drag me back to the sleeping bags and then tie my hands above my head to the tie for the tent window. Then he pulled my legs apart and separated my lips with one finger as he thumbed my clit. These were strange and new sensations to me. So I was both frightened and horny at the same time.
Soon I felt him place a candle Iām assuming at the hole to my ass, then take it away, saying he wanted to feel me first to take that away himself not with a candle. I was now extremely frightened Iām still a virgin at 19 even thoā Iāve gave a hand job or two. And I refused to do oral to my previous boyfriend. So Iām very terrified now. I canāt help but think please God make him stop. But at the same time I wanted him to continue. Soon he was done fingering me and then he pulled my legs further apart and I felt him lay between them. I was nervous now. Iām not on the pill and Iām praying he at least is wearing a condom.