"Your first, your worst" is a common adage used to describe losing one's virginity. For me, it certainly wasn't the worst. In fact, the elation of finally being relieved of the shameful v-card remains one of the most potent experiences of my life.
After I graduated high school I attended an out-of-state for college and loved it. While I was a fairly good-looking guy and in very good shape at the time, I suffered from crippling shyness with women. Women were mysterious, magical, otherworldly creatures whom you occasionally made small talk with and admired from a distance, but never actually approached.
As a result, I went through my first three years of my higher education where the only relief I got was from my own hand. I was truly in danger of graduating not just high school, but college, a virgin. The prospect was an utterly humiliating one.
Then, on one unseasonably cool and beautiful late August afternoon, I met
her.
For the purpose of this story, I'll call her Michelle. She was the cousin of a friend who graduated the previous semester, and he asked me to show around campus. I would come to find out later that Michelle transferred from her former university in order to get as far away as possible from her cruel and bizarre family. While it's an interesting story, peppered with truths and lies alike, along with a generous helping of her own embellishment, it isn't especially relevant here.
I would like to tell you that Michelle was a stunning beauty of the first order. That she was the type that turned heads wherever she went. But, she wasn't. However, Michelle was undeniably pretty, and had the body type I had lusted over for so long - large, full breasts and a big round ass to go along with them. Her build was somewhere between athletic and chubby. Her long, dark hair hung to the middle of her back and contrasted beautifully with her smooth, white and even complexion. Her big, brown and keen eyes always seemed to be hiding the punchline to a funny joke or secret she couldn't wait to tell you.
We met the day before classes started when I picked her up from her dormitory.
"Hi, Andrew (my name also changed)! So nice to finally meet you." she said with a beaming grin. We had exchanged several emails over the summer - all very short and casual affairs.
The first thing I noticed was her pronounced Minnesota accent. Having grown up in the Deep South, and having traveled little to this point in my life, it sounded almost alien to me. But, there was something incredibly endearing about it.
Since it was such a beautiful evening we decided to walk to a restaurant near campus. After a few minutes of conversation I noticed something else about Michelle, her charm. At this age, I was often intimidated by and shy around women. However, Michelle she put me at ease, made me laugh and feel as if I'd known her my entire life. She was one of those rare few people you meet from time-to-time that makes you believe that things you say
matter.
We talked for hours, wandered around campus, hung out in her dorm room and talked about everything from old friends, the type of music we liked, and our favorite movies. I told her about jambalaya, which she couldn't wait to try, and she told me about lutefisk, which made me want to vomit.
There were no fireworks on that night. Sometime around 1:30 AM she said she ought to get some sleep and I left. I wasn't disappointed. At this point, it hadn't quite registered that this girl was actually into me. I reckoned I had simply found a cool person to hang out with who happened to be a girl.
Throughout next few weeks this is precisely what happened. Over time, I began to think she may be interested in me, but nothing was to prepare me for such a sudden and wonderful stripping of my virginity that was to come so suddenly. I remember as if it happened yesterday.
It was a Sunday evening and we were both laying upon a blanket on floor watching
The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers.
Earlier that evening she suggested we put a comforter on the floor so we could lay down to watch TV and it still didn't cross my mind what she may be getting at.