I arrived at college my freshman year with lots of expectations. Back then, I had no idea what I would become during my college years. I'm a senior getting ready to graduate now, and I'm so different than how I was back then...
I had been a good little girl my entire life, and I was hoping to change that a little. I was from a tiny little town where everyone knew each other. I went to church with my parents every Sunday and got good grades at my small high school. I had dated a few guys, and we had messed around just a little. But I had always known that if I had sex or did anything too serious, their friends would find out, which meant eventually our whole school would find out, which meant our whole tiny town would find out. I was too afraid of disappointing my parents and friends to do anything too bad. The same went for drinking and trying drugs. The fear of getting in trouble stopped me. When I was accepted into a large college, I looked forward to breaking free of my parents' rules a little bit. However, while I wasn't opposed to partying or having fun with some guys, I didn't want to take it too far. Of course, that was back then ...
My first day there, I met my new roommate, Jessie. Our parents were there to help us get settled, but soon they left. We put our clothes away quietly until Jessie broke the silence. She was one of those people who is totally outgoing, even with complete strangers. "You know Kerri, it looks like we could maybe share clothes. We're probably about the same size."
"Yeah, definitely," I thought, though I was thinking that some of Jessie's clothes looked slutty. It's true that we're the same size, though we look nothing alike. We are both small and curvy, with little bubble butts and small round breasts. But I have dark skin and dark brown shoulder length hair, while Jessie is paler and has long blonde hair.
While we unpacked, we talked more about ourselves. Jessie was definitely more extroverted than me, and I got the idea from her comments that she was wilder than me too. She was from a large town, so it met my idea of the crazy city girl. She said several things about drinking and I admitted that I had never even been to a real party. "Really?!" she couldn't believe it. "We are so taking you to a frat party this weekend!" I tried to protest, but I actually did think it sounded like fun.
The first week of classes went by unbelievably quickly. Jessie and I became fast friends. We were total opposites, but we had the same sense of humor. We hung out a lot and were getting to know each other pretty well. When Friday night rolled around, Jessie started going through her closet. "I think I'm going to wear this, what do you think?" she asked.
I turned around, surprised to see that she was standing there topless, holding up a skimpy tank top. I laughed. "You don't mean you're going naked, do you?"
She smiled. "Nope," she said. "But what do you think about this top?"
"Slutty," I thought. "Cute," I said. "Good," she said, "Now let's find one for you."
I was pretty anxious as she went through her clothes. I wasn't used to showing a lot of skin. Finally she picked a sparkly pink tank top. I tried it on, and it was skin-tight and partially see-through. She convinced me to also wear a short black skirt (also hers) and heels. I felt ridiculous in my new clothes, but I didn't want to look out of place at the party.
Walking to the party, I could already hear the music and laughter at the end of the street. I had no idea what to expect and I was terrified. Jessie acted like she'd been to a million frat parties, and marched right in the front door. A guy at a table smiled, said hi, and gave us each a plastic cup. I couldn't believe how easily we got in since we weren't on the list, and I said something to Jessie.
"Are you kidding?" she said. "They know we're freshman. They're hoping for a piece of ass in exchange for a little beer."
My stomach dropped. Was I going to be expected to mess around with someone because I was at this party? What would I do if Jessie went off with someone and left me alone? I calmed myself down by assuring myself that Jessie wouldn't ditch me.