When my soon-to-be husband told me he wasn't expecting sex on our wedding night, I just smiled. I knew he was trying to be sweet and caring, to show me that he's marrying me because he loves me and not just so he can finally get to have sex with me. But I also knew that no matter how tired I was from the excitement of the wedding day, I'd be desperate to rip his clothes off the moment the door to our hotel room closed.
We both come from a conservative background where sex before marriage is absolutely forbidden. We've been dating since we were nineteen, which is almost six years now, and in that entire time we've had to restrain our desire to jump on each other.
Of course, it's not like we've always stuck to the letter of the rules. I've jerked him off a handful of times, always surreptitiously. Once in the front of his car, parked down a deserted track. Once in my parents' basement when we were supposed to be watching a movie. He believed that, when the sexual frustration got too much for him, it was a better option than us giving in and having sex. He never touched me in return, except for the occasional squeeze of my breasts. "Men need release," he explained to me. "Women don't. This is the best way to make sure we don't go too far."
My panties were always slick and my cunt throbbing by the time we were done. When I did dare to ask about getting some pleasure for myself, he laughed and reminded me that I didn't need it.
Sometimes, even just kissing him was enough to get me going. When I squirmed uncomfortably, he reminded me how important purity was and said I'd just have to wait.
Masturbation isn't allowed either, especially for women. Some nights, the throbbing need between my legs got so intense that all I could do was writhe, try to breathe deeply, and pray for the strength to resist. I wondered if there was something wrong with me. Even simple things like washing myself down there left me with my legs trembling, groaning with longing when I had to take the shower head away. When I nervously asked friends for advice, they all said the same: be strong and wait until you're married.
And how here we are, me and my new husband. In our honeymoon suite, alone together at long last. I know virgin brides are supposed to be nervous, but I'm not. I hope my eagerness - my desperation - won't put him off. He's stripped me down to my bridal lingerie and laid me out on the big bed, and he's taking his time exploring every inch of my body. When he takes my nipple into this mouth and sucks, I think I will pass out from pleasure. When he strokes my inner thighs, I cannot help moaning and arching my body towards him.
"Is this what you want?" he asks, his fingers dancing along the lacy edge of my white panties. I can only nod, breathless. Trying to control my sexual desires for so long means that giving voice to them now seems impossible. I think I will die if he doesn't touch me. The little nub, the center of all my need, throbs. I can feel that I am drenching my panties.
At last, at long last, he flutters his fingers along my secret place on top of my panties. It feels so good that I cannot help letting out a gasp of joy.
He slips his hand into my panties. It's the first time anyone but me has ever touched that part of my body. He explores me with his fingers, sliding them along my soaking folds and finally coming to rest on that most needy place.
"Now," he says. His voice is suddenly stern, like a schoolmaster. "I want you to be very honest with me. Were you really a good girl the whole time we were dating?"
I nod my head frantically.