I'm a socially awkward, anxious loner (involuntarily celibate), so any type of attention confuses me, to put it mildly. Despite being a loner, though, I get the urge to talk to women occasionally. Having no social skills, inexplicable awkwardness makes every single interaction ridiculous and embarrassing. With recent urges, I was just trying to ask some random girls what time it was and hopefully manage to speak a little.
So when I heard my voice not being very high (though still wimpy and effeminate) or cracking much, I was obviously shocked. It only happened once though.
We met by the road. She was walking her dog, I was on a bicycle. A pretty tall (5'7"-5'8") brunette, slightly thicker than skinny, but not quite curvy. Nice ass but just big enough to fill my palm, not huge. Medium breasts. Unlike some, this girl not only didn't ignore/reject me- she smiled, looked happy and showed me her watch. I leaned in to look and caught a whiff of her smell. That was enough to convince me to not just flee immediately but ask something else.
We talked for a couple of minutes, of course I couldn't contain myself and was sure she saw my nerves. Still, somehow she laughed at a couple of the lame things I said and we found some common ground. Which may be weird since I'm 25 and Lena's 18, but it was only horror movies and the fact that she actually didn't like dogs. It turned out the mutt was her boyfriend's. He was working and she had all day free (it was summer), nothing to do.
So of course at that point I was getting delusional, like wanted to ask her to go out with me when the boyfriend's not around etc, as in 'why not cheat on your boyfriend with a total loser?'. She was open and nice though, and once I managed to mumble that we could maybe 'do some stuff' in the future, she just teased me playfully, seemed at least not disgusted.
"Let's walk a little!" I suggested.
We strolled towards a crappy little steak house nearby, but it's apparently only open on evenings and weekends. Good thing was it only took a minute to walk, cause my conversation ideas were down to the usual zero. I locked my bike and urged her to come round to the backyard and see the place. I'd never been there before and neither had she.