I never knew what was wrong with me. All my promiscuous friends had told me how wonderful it was and what I was missing out on, but I could never seem to achieve it.
Orgasm.
Since I first became sexually aware of myself I had tried and tried, rubbing, poking, stroking, teasing, but to no avail. It seemed like I was constantly horny, too, the ultimate torture. Now at nineteen I was beyond frustrated with myself, becoming upset with each failed attempt. So I just stopped trying.
I was extremely sheltered my whole life, everything was censored, no 'grown up' tv shows that might contain sex, violence or cursing, I was sent to private boarding schools which allowed no nonsense. This all meant that by nineteen I had next to no life experience. I felt myself becoming unsettled in my tame life, I wanted to experience something, anything that might excite me.
I saw no opportunities as my first semester of university came and went, none of the boys there stood out to me. While my girlfriends and housemates all went on drunken slutty escapades, I stayed in and studied. I was beginning to worry that I'd never be appealing to anyone and that my life would continue this way forever.
During the summer holidays I came back home. Mum and dad always fussed over me whenever I came back from being away, interrogating me, making sure I hadn't done anything stupid like let a drop of alcohol come within a meter of my lips. I answered all their questions as we put my things in my room upstairs.
'I'm so glad you're home sweetheart,' my mum said, kissing me on the forehead and rushing down to prepare dinner, leaving my father and I in the room,
'Oh, I forgot to mention, hun, your mother and I are going golfing tomorrow, then to a barbecue at Lisa and John's. I would ask if you wanted to come along, but I'd say you wouldn't want to hang around us stuffy old people all day.' He chuckled, and ruffled my hair, 'if you do end up going out, just leave the back door open for the IT man, he's coming to fix the computer thingie-ma-jiggy. I've told him where the office is but if you're here you could show him for us, right, doll?'
'Course, dad.' I gave him a quick hug and flopped onto my old bed, he left, shutting the door behind him. I mulled over being home again and tried to think of some kind of plan for the next day, home alone. No point in masturbating like a normal person, no walking around naked, perhaps a swim? Yeah, a swim will do.