I moved a lot between the ages 14-19 and that made me not so shy because I was use to always have to make new friends. But there was that soft sensitive side of me that no one seen and that side was my sex life. Although you couldn't tell that I had no sex life, it eating me up inside still being a virgin at the age of 19 going on 20. All my friends that I had lost there virginity at the ages of 16 and 17 and here I am almost 20 and have no experience what so ever.
But in I would get close to a girl and when we are just about to hit it off. Something will happen and I'll have to move or we'll stop talking to one another. Girls I've talked to say that I was "too nice" and that they didn't want to hurt me. Shit all I wanted was a little bit of TNA (tits-n-ass).
So after one of my moves I decided just to act like I was experienced and just not bothered telling people I was what I was, a virgin. I never went to my senior prom for the fact that I was a virgin and was now scared of going home with someone not knowing what to do. And so I graduated with a lot of friends and people not knowing anything about me being a virgin and wondering why I never went to the prom.
Well I moved one more time across the United States, and it was on my 19th birthday. Well I was going to collage now and I have no intentions of moving anywhere else. I told my parents no more moving because its killing me, they didn't know it was a sex life that was ripping me apart inside.
So with the new move I decided I was going to have sex by my 20th birthday. By going to school created a lot of opportunities for reaching my goal.
I meet this girl, she seems so opposite of me, but I feel that she the one. So over time we've become good friends and even went out a few times to concerts and stuff. We also started flirting with each another constantly.
Well one day she tells me she just broke up with her boyfriend and that she really hates him now. I figure I have a shot now to be with her, because at this point at are friendship we talk to each other about personal stuff. Sex is about the last thing on my mind when I'm with her. Now I just want her to be mine, I want to love her, take care of her, and do anything for her.
"I see that you've been getting close to me little by little every day as we hangout, do homework, even at school. It is so obvious, everyone can tell." She tells me on day at school.
"Yes, I have feeling for you, but if you want me to I'll stop just for you and we can go back to the way things were, just classmates." I said with a serious look.
"No, No I have to tell you something," she said "I've had feelings for you for a while now. And I thinks its time we because boyfriend and girlfriend."
"Hell yeah," I say with the look of passion mix with excitement on my face, "I was going to ask you but I was afraid you'd say no."
"Why'd you say that?" She asked
"Because I never asked anyone out before, and I didn't know what was going to happen to as friends is I did." I said