I drove quickly away. I was thinking about Mary. She told me just before she died that when I'd meet someone it is her wish for me to be happy. And then ovarian cancer took her from me. I wanted to die that evening. Now I am happy I didn't. Holly sat on passenger side. The very seat she used to sit. And we were going my place.
"Are we there yet?" She kept asking through whole way there.
And after 15 minutes I parked outside the house.
It wasn't big. It was just ordinary cottage. It had white walls and oak door. I got out of the car and walked in front of the hood towards the passenger door. I opened it and helped my girlfriend. Next moment we stood near the entrance as I was looking for the key to open the door.
When I finally opened the door she kissed me once more. This time it was different. This time it was better. It was like she wanted to tell me by that kiss how much she desires me.
We came inside and I switched the lights on.
"Nothing much. I'm planning redecoration, but I just moved in. The bedroom is over there, and the bathroom is right here if you must go there. I'll bring the wine, wait for me in the living room," I said closing the door and going downstairs to basement.
When I came back with wine five minutes later, Holly was watching photos in living room.
"Is this your wife?" She asked pointing one of the pictures hanging over the fire place.
"Yes. It was taken just after our weeding."
"She was gorgeous," said Holly taking a glass from me.
"She was. And so young. Too young. She was only twenty-two when she died."
"Forgive me, but what cancer was it exactly?"
"She died from ovarian cancer. But now I don't wish to talk about it. There are so much other subjects for us to talk about."
"I see. And what would you like to talk about?"
"Well... let's see... what do you want to talk about?" I said with contrariness filling her glass with wine.
Holly drank a bit of wine and looked me directly in my eyes.
"How it comes, that such a handsome man like you were so long single after... you know what."
"Me? Handsome?" I laughed.
"I don't know, but if you'd ask me, then tall men with short dark hair, brown eyes and broken nose looks kind of handsome," she answered drinking rest of her wine at once.
She came closer. Now she stood so near me that I could touch her. And I did. Just after short moment my hand was touching her long curly hair. It was soft and smooth. It was so long time I touched woman's hair for the last time. I felt my trousers became too tight. Holly did hug me. And I knew she felt it. She looked there and smiled timidly.
Her smile was so nice and warm. She was so innocent, but also so sexy.
"We came here to visit the bedroom, so why are we still standing in living room?" she whispered into my ear and I felt excitement.
I wanted this so badly I could take her right where we stood. She didn't tell this directly, but I understand. She wanted me to be her first. She still was virgin and wanted me to change that. I wished this also. But I just didn't know if it is good idea.
I even didn't know if I'm ready. And if she is.
But Holly knew. She was ready. She started to unbutton my shirt. And I started to touch her body in the special way.
"So you told, witch way's the bedroom?" She said just before her warm and wet lips touched my dry lips.
"This way," I told bringing her towards the correct door.
She opened the door and walked in. She sat on the bed taking her sweeter off.
Under it she has nothing but bra. It was holding two tiny breasts. She quickly undone bra and let it fall. Her breasts were really tiny and firm. They were perfectly round. The nipples were small and light. I watched this show feeling that the trousers were definitely way too tight.
I was torn between wish to touch her young, virgin body and the belief I shouldn't. And she began to remove her dress. Under it she had plain, white panties.
"Stop right there," I told loudly.
"Something's wrong?"
"No, but I'd like to take them myself... when the time would be right."
"So what do you want me to do?"
"Nothing."
"Nothing?" Holly repeated sadly.
"Yes, I want you to do nothing right now. But don't be sad. Let me," I whispered coming closer to my own bed.