The silence came upon me in 1952, the day mum asked me to read out the telegram. I'd never seen a telegram before. What I did know was that unless you won on the premium bonds, they always brought bad news.
'Corporal Charles Cooper -- Stop. Missing -- Stop. Believed killed in action -Stop.'
Those awful words hung in the air of our small cottage, they bounced off the walls and broke our hearts.
He had said I had to be the man of the house when he left to fight, and now my words had made my mum and my sister's cry.
He was going to a place I'd never known. A place called Korea. I was sure it wasn't in Europe. Something died inside me when I knew dad would never be coming back from the forgotten war. I vowed never to speak again.
After a year, people gave up talking to me - they stopped trying to break my silence. "Poor Billy!" They'd say, "He's lost his marbles."
I turned eighteen in the June of '56', Ma said I had to stop lollygagging around the house and go help the menfolk in the fields.
That same day a man came to live in our house. He slept on dad's side of the bed - mum said we were to call him Uncle Tommy.
I liked working in the fields with the men. I was free to be myself, treated as one of their own. They were bold, brash, and muscular, and didn't care that I wouldn't talk. "Talk is for politicians and fisher-wives!" They'd boldly say, with laughter in their voices.
I worked until my muscles burned and my hands bled, but I never missed a day. The men sang and roared, and we drank rough cider that burnt my throat and made my head swim. When it wasn't raining, natures dust covered everything, including our half-naked bodies which glistened from hard labour and burning sun.
Insects buzzed amongst the hay dust that made the golden air as thick as a London smog.
House-martins flew above our heads taking flies on the wing, and Kestrels hovered on the hot air searching for homeless rodents.
It was nearly eight o'clock when our gang wearily trudged home on that last exhausting day of the harvest. As we turned into the village Tommy said I could walk in the front of the gang. "Your Dad would be so proud of you lad."
Women came out from their cottages offering glasses of ginger beer and cigarettes. There was talk of a bumper crop, the best since the old war.
When Tommy and I got home, Mum waved a tiny Union Jack; last seen on VE day. "My men have brought the harvest home." she cried, "There will be rations for us all."
The radio blasted out Glen Miller adding to the party mood. Tommy playfully smacked mum's bum and she blushed excitedly.
As always, my sisters ignored me; busy chatting and giggling with a young woman that I'd never met before.
The cascades of champagne hair curled against her soft lily-white shoulders.
She caught me staring and I blushed. She winked at me in a way no girl had ever done before.