Forgiveness
This will be my second story that I have written. Please no negative comments. I am 45 and haven't written since high school. Yes I understand my grammar sucks ass. The person I am having EDITED my story is having the personal things going in their life. They are still editing this story. To fix any problems that I did not see. After they finish editing this story I will resubmit the story. If you don't like this story I am sorry. To everyone else I hope you had some enjoyment. As I did enjoy writing this one.
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Frank McGee walks slowly up to the tombstone. With the name of Emily McGee written across the front. He gently lays roses before her name.
"Hello mother, I am sorry that I haven't talked to you since you died of cancer. There have been a lot of things that have happened to me since then, all bad unfortunately. I need time to talk out loud about everything that has happened. Most the time when I even think about my life, I just end up crying. I've finally come to the realization I need to talk to you. To get it all out there.. so I can start to heal."
"First you may already know this, Jacob Turner got dad killed. Dad wasn't taking your death well and Jacob talked dad into going out drinking. Jacob could always talk dad into anything. Like getting me to be friends with that piece of shit, Greg. But that trash is another story altogether. Right now we are talking about Jacob. Jacob and Dad were found dead in dad's car with Jacob behind the wheel. The cops found them off the side of the road. Crashed into a tree, blood alcohol way over limit. They determined that dad had alcohol poisoning. But he and Jacob had died on impact."
"After I learned about the accident I fell apart. If Sarah and her mother were not there I would have. Sarah's mom took charge. Starting by her telling me to stop calling her Miss Coffee. That she was either Robin or mom. Seeing how I was going to marry her daughter and that I also knew her most of my life. Robin helped with both of the funerals. As Greg's mom still wasn't talking to him. Half the town seems to show up to dads. But no one shows for Jacob's. Greg, Sarah, Robin and I were the only ones there. We all end up carrying Jacob's coffin. The funeral home director and one of his employees also had to help. They look a little awkward about the whole event."
"I had felt bad for Greg. I was there when his mother looked at his dad and him. She told us that her husband was worthless. And how her son was the load she should have swallowed. I told Sarah what Mrs. Turner had said. At the time we both thought she was a horrible mother and wife. But now that I think about it. I need to send her an apology card with roses."
"Greg Turner was always sticking to me like used chewing gum on the bottom of my shoe. He was always there when I didn't want him. It took awhile to get him to understand when I needed space. I start using a safe word like you use in BDSM. I would just look at him and say bacon. He would then just get up and leave. I end up using it a lot around Sarah. As we were always looking for some alone time. Greg really hated Sarah, something fierce. I had to tell him to knock it off his negative comments about her. He would quickly change the subject. I guess he figured if he kept pushing I would say bacon."
"Like I said earlier. Dad made me Greg 's friend. Told me that the whole school hated him. Dad was right. No one likes him, not even the teachers. His personality was as ugly as he looked. The school calls him T Troll. As he looks like a treasure troll hit in the face with a shovel. Dad told me to try, just try. He said that all Greg needed was a friend to show him how to be a better person. That after he became a better person. The rest of the school would start to treat him better. He then would also maybe be able to make more friends. Sarah decided to help me with him. She did not mine his looks. But she did have a problem with his attitude. But she still tried. She said she couldn't kill physically. No one said she could not kill him with kindness. That did piss him off. Like I said he hated her, something fierce."
"Sarah could always bring a smile to my face. Mom, you know how I love her no matter what. I would die a thousand deaths to bring her happiness. She was your greatest gift you ever gave me. When you set up that play date when we were four. I thought we would do everything together. That was until prom. I know you don't want to hear this next part. But it is important you understand. You see mom Sarah and I were going to give each other our virginity. We did have a lot of oral sex. But we never had intercourse. Sarah wants to wait until prom. She thought it would be romantic. That and we would be eighteen then. I could get us a room at the hotel where prom was being held."
"Sarah was so excited about prom. That she had told her friends about our plans for the night. Others with big mouths heard. So that meant that everyone else knew. It did not bother me. I thought it was funny that jocks were giving high fives. Before I even knew why they were happy for me. Greg just stood there growling as I was given the, at a boy's comments. I told him to grow up and get a date for prom. That I was in love with Sarah and we are getting married if he likes it or not. I then left him to fume over own stupidity."
"At the prom Sarah and I were having a great time. At least I thought we were. She was dancing very close to me. Always smiling and keeping her eyes on only me. As if she blinked I would disappear. The last time I kissed her. She held me close and told me how much she loved me. I told her I love her too and I would be right back. As I needed to use the restroom. She asked me to bring her a drink before we headed up the stairs. That was the last time I would ever be happy around her."
"After I had gotten back with her drink. She was gone. As I look around. I could see everyone staring at me. One of the jocks that had high five came over smiling. Look me in the eye and tell me how Sarah was kissing T Troll while dancing. That T Troll was probably fucking my women in my hotel room. As they were groping each other heading that way. I left him as the whole room broke into laughter. I even heard a few people say that I must have a micro dick. For her to cheat on me with that loser."
"I got up to the room. Remember I gave Sarah the key card to tease her. There I could hear sounds of wild sex. I could recognize her moaning from outside the room. Remembering all the times I gave her orgasms. It felt like acid was pouring over my heart. I don't know how I got home. I just curl up in your bed. Wishing you were here. Making the pain go away. I did think about joining you and dad. But I knew dad and you would kick ass back to the world of the living. I could almost hear his gruff voice telling me to suck it buttercup."
"If I thought that night was the worst thing in my life. I was dead wrong. The day Sarah tried to talk to me. I wouldn't open up the door for her. I just turn up the volume on the radio. I don't know if she tried to call first. As I had blocked her and her moms number. I didn't have anything against Robin. But I knew she would take her side. I did give Robin that info in a text before blocking her number. I gave Sarah nothing. As she should already know how I felt on the subject. I did ask Robin to tell Greg to hide. As if I ever saw him he would die. And I did not want to go to jail because of him."
"When I got to school is when the bad turn worse. The whole school was still laughing at me. Micro dick was written across my locker. I even saw some of the teachers giggling as they looked at me. Mr. Richardson, my English teacher. He was helping with letters of recommendation. To give them a few universities. As his letters did help some students in the past. Pull me aside to tell me that he was not going to help. Because my reputation was not good anymore. That he didn't want to help anybody that was cuckold. By that loser. That I must have a micro dick. Seeing as the whole school knew the T Troll had a four inch penis. And Mr. Richardson did not want to be pulled down with me. He started laughing at me. Telling that there was always the army. As he walked away. He told me to stay out of his class. I already had an A. That me being there would distract the other students."
"My reputation was destroyed in one night. All because I was cuckold by someone who was supposedly my friend. His only friend I might add. In the hotel room that I paid for.... With my fiancé. If their betrayal did not stop there it would have been a miracle. The laughter increased after she found out she was pregnant. I stuck it out until we all graduated. No one was there to cheer for me at graduation. Or that's what I thought. As I cross the stage to collect my diploma. Sarah and Robin to my amazement cheer for me. Their cheers of congratulations did put a small smile on my face. But I still avoided them and went home. The hurt was still there. So was the love. But her betrayal kept me away."
"After Sarah left for her university. Which was after giving birth to her child. Robin stopped by our house. I still can't think of your house as just mine. She knew I needed time for the hurt to dull first. She wanted to see how I was doing. Even if Sarah and I were not a couple anymore. She still saw me as family. I told her she and only she could visit. And as long as it were not her trying to fix Sarah and I. That the hurt has not gone away. She agreed to the conditions. She did tell me about her granddaughter. Tip toeing around as much of the subject as she could. She did tell me that she had passed my message on to Greg. Then she said she broke his nose after the message. I do have to admit I laugh my ass off. You will be upset with me though. When you hear my laughter. woke up Sarah's baby. I came to find out her name was Jessica Coffee. Sarah refused to put Greg on the birth certificate. They made him take a DNA test. So could collect child support on him. Robin also made him have a supervised visit. She thinks he fears that Robin would send me to visit him if he didn't. Oh course I think she told that. Because she was smiling the biggest grin when told me that."
"That was the only time she brought Jessica with her when she came to visit. I did not see Jessica until ten years later at Robin's funeral. If you see Robin tell her that I miss her visits. I wish she told me that she was sick. I did go to her funeral. I tried to avoid everyone I knew. I was just leaving Robin's casket. When this ten year little girl came up to me. She took me by the hand and pulled me aside then hugged me. She said her grandma would have been happy that I was there. I smiled and told her I think she had me confused with some else. She shook her head pointing at me. And said Mr. Frank McGee's picture was on the family wall. She then went on how her grandmother told her not to force me around her mom. As we were still not on any speaking terms. I do have to say this. Jessica took after her grandmother in the looks department. As her dad seemed to leave nothing in her as his DNA was concerned. She reminded me of both women. And with me losing both. Talking with her started to hurt a little. Jessica stayed with me most of the time. Until I told her. That her mom was going to need her more. She gave me a final hug. Told me that I was still greatly loved in that house. Then she left to be with her mom. That was eight years ago. I haven't seen them since."
"So there you have it mom. Your son is having one hell of shitty life. I miss you and dad. If Dad, Robin and/or you could send me a little luck. Just a little. Enough to end my misery. That would be great. As it stands now. All I can get in this shit town is part time work as a mechanic. The house is paid off. So the part time job is enough to pay the bills. All of the inheritance I had from dad and your deaths. Went into paying for all the major bills. But mom I am lonely and stuck in this town. Where people are laughing still reminds me of that awful night."
"Mom, Sarah may have hurt me beyond my deepest imagination. But I still love her. I wish I never met Greg Turner. I want this pain to go away. I want my Sarah back."
