Finding Out Who I Am

Stick with me on this endeavor as I am no writer.

I am now 53 years old and reflecting back on my days from my teens till now I guess.

My stories start after high school when I was 19.

How it all started...

Well John, good bud, was spending the night at my place while my parents were upstairs the whole time we were gaming. John for some reason was excited and asked if I was interested in some consensual fun. Showing his bulge through his sweats got my attention.

Well that caught me off guard and replied with a hard no. Even though i was getting hard about the thought.

After a year I have a new bestie Trevor. We hang out and game all the time yet his sister keeps coming in on us. Now she is a smoke show and well observed with all the guys.

Well I was a little excited and after she vacated I let Trev known i had a stiff issue.

That never went over very well and I left beyond embarrassed that evening.

A few years went by and I have had multiple girl friends yet I never let go of these experiences. Not sure what I was thinking or what i wanted but they were always my go to in my private time.

3 years later I am living in the big city and the atmosphere is beyond anything i have ever experienced. I was frequenting strip bars, night clubs and any other option available. Life was fun and I was consumed.

One night we were out and we tried a new spot, The Rosey Thorn, and my eyes opened beyond there abilities yet my groin said we liked it and over rid any thoughts to leave.

What was this sensation????

What am I thinking????

The following weekend I broke from the regular group and went back on my own. Was I mental? These feelings I was having are not supposed to be here. My father would kill me if he knew what was in my mind. Yet I proceed to explore this city and this new urge.

This brought me to a club that had steam rooms and saunas. I was well intoxicated and love everything heat so this was sounding like a great place. Little did I know this was a gay sauna.

Well here I was in my inebriated state and starting to realize what I walked into but yet I was comfortable and beyond aroused. I was by far the youngest in this club and at points i was feeling stalked like fresh meat.

I tried the hot tub out for a while and watched two guys make out and one perform oral on the other. After I entered the dry sauna where I felt good and relaxed.

This is where things for me came to life.

I was on a lower bench with multiple men sitting on the bench above me. Now I was beyond excited and was containing myself until this guy walked in. He was an average build guy but he owned himself and was beyond comfortable in the sauna.

He sat across from me and let his towel slide to the sides exposing everything.

I was drawn to what i seen. It was perfect in its flaccid state. I was embarrassed as i could not look away.

Behind me an elderly guy poked me and whispered that that would be the perfect specimen to try as a first experience. Well it was more like, "If you don't act on that I will."

It was perfect from anything I had ever seen. Now never having experienced anything like this before my head was spinning. Like out of control..

A hand lands on my shoulder from behind and pressures me to move forward. The only place I can move is on my knees to the floor so I give and drop down. Here I am on my knees across from this blur in my Intoxicated mind not sure what was going to happen. As I am down on my knees he stands from his sitting position and places himself right in front of my face. His cock semi hard with a little glisten on the tip.

What am I doing here??? What is this all about????

Questions go through my mind like wildfire.

My intoxicated mind is full of confusion and wandering everywhere but interrupted with the soft contact of the head of his cock. In my blur he stood up and placed his now stiffened cock in my immediate presence. I now feel it on my lips, the softness, inhaling the musky scent and hearing this calming voice. It was like a dream and then he pushed a little harder and my lips parted. His cock was entering my mouth.

Never have I done this but there were thoughts and now I have a cock in my mouth for the first time.

What am i doing goes through my mind as my tongue and mouth start to work on his cock. Someone I have never met before, a total stranger now has his cock in my mouth slowly pumping in and out.

I cant help but keep my lips locked around his stiff shaft and it feels amazing. His rhythm is consistent and keeps saying my mouth feels great. We go like this for what seemed hours to me but was only minutes. He pulls out and then tells me to keep my mouth open. Not knowing he offered me up to another cock. This one was really hard and did not flex in my mouth. He was hard!!!

He was using my mouth like he was fucking a pussy and before I knew what was happening he had both hands on my head holding me still when I felt him unload.

I had no idea what to do and his hands were firm so I gagged and choked as his cum blasted my throat. With his hands still restricting my movements I had no choice but swallow his load.

After a minute and realizing what I had just done I was seeing stars. Not only did I take a cock and a load in my mouth I enjoyed it more then anything. In my disbelief of my self I found myself still on the floor on my knees.

Just swallowed my very first load and now I have multiple men standing around hoping for the same result.

This my friends will be another story.