I sang:
In the warmth of a June evening, I drove to my choir director's small home. Turning off the main street and curving up the hill to her driveway, I was aware of my anticipation building. I was deaf to the radio and staring into space thinking of her long brown hair and a chance to kiss her, just once. I switched off the ignition and sat for a moment holding the steering wheel. This visit was different - I knew we weren't going to stick to a discussion of youth group activities.
Once inside, I was disappointed to find her two year old daughter still up. Stephanie and I talked about the youth group, laughed about a couple of the goofy girls, and all the while I couldn't wait to be with her alone. After an age, the child grew fussy and I hoped to stay long enough to be alone with Stephanie. But instead she stood up and made as if it was time for me to leave. I couldn't believe I was being put off. Hadn't she caught my awkward flirting? Hadn't she seen me glancing down her blouse? Weren't my hands contacting her at every turn enough of a sign that I didn't want the night to end?
I walked slowly to the door. Stephanie stepped out with me onto the front porch. The light wasn't on and we could barely see each other in the glow through the curtains. She leaned to kiss me on the cheek. That wasn't enough for me. I caught her chin and guided her to a full kiss. She tensed and her lips started out hard and thin. Just as I feared I had made a mistake, she softened. As she relaxed, our caress began to shape us onto one. She could be a good kisser when she wanted. My hands on her back felt the indentation at her spine. One hand moved up to touch the clasp of her bra through the fabric. The kiss ended as we slowly moved apart.
Then I surprised myself. Without really thinking I pulled down the zipper on my jeans. Even with the cicadas buzzing in the background the sound was unmistakable.
"You better come inside," she said quietly. I did.
I only waited for a few minutes before the child was in bed and Stephanie returned. She got a glass of wine for herself and turned on the stereo. (I wouldn't have minded a glass myself, but being only nineteen, I didn't think to ask). I watched her move around the room. Even in her bare feet she was tall. Her slender figure only rounded at the hips. Beneath her white blouse I could just make out her bra. Now that she had let her hair down it washed around her shoulders straight and dark.
I was still standing near the front door and expected to sit with her on the couch. But setting her glass on the coffee table, she knelt in front of me. With the zipper already taken care of she undid one snap and jerked my jeans down to my ankles. Her hand touched me through the Jockey shorts and I was conscious how damp they already were. She softly touched me, shifting me in my shorts.
As we caressed, I had one hand across the middle of her back, touching that clasp again. My other hand wandered up into her hair - stroking through it again and again. She liked that. She leaned her head on my shoulder so I could reach more of her hair. I stroked longer and longer. To tell the truth, I started with her hair as a delaying tactic because I was hesitant to attempt her bra. And when she seemed to enjoy the hair so much - she was beginning to sigh - I knew I had done something right.
I needed something to do, so I began unbuttoning her blouse. As I unfastened each one, I lowered myself. I was on my knees by the time I pulled her blouse out at her waist. In the background I heard the music stop. Stephanie grimaced and got up to restart it. I watched her walk across the room. Bare above the waist except her bra, she seemed so graceful and calm.
"Didn't want to wake the baby," she said as she knelt back down. We began to kiss. This time was different. Her lips were soft and full from the start.
With my right hand still going through her hair, my left started down the small of her back. I felt that the waist of her slacks had gapped away from her back. My fingers slipped in and found the elastic and satin of her panties. I paused for just a moment. Already I was well past my fantasies for the evening. A kiss would have sent me reeling, let alone touching a woman=s panties without any protest. I took a chance and slid my fingers inside the elastic. I was trying to distract her with her hair, but as soon as my fingertips reached the top of her behind she moaned out loud and I knew I was okay. I ran my hand across the separation in her behind several times and felt her pressing against my hand. I couldn't believe it.