This is the other side to "a trip to the park". Hope you enjoy both versions.
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As I sat in my car waiting , I couldn't help but marvel at the intense serenity around me. Shielded from external noise I sat in my own little bubble. The trees outside were bursting into colour with pink buds, green leaves and white flowers all around, gently moving in a light spring breeze. The temperature was uncharacteristically warm for the time of year, not quite a mini heat wave but enough to fool you into thinking that winter was a long distant memory.
I checked my phone again. The last message received eight minutes ago just as I pulled into this little play park told me you were on your way. Since then I had reached for the ignition keys twice thinking if I started the car and just drove then I could still continue my life having done nothing worse than been tempted by another man, one that wasn't my husband, the one I loved, the one I have children with, the one who should be my all. But here I was about to meet you for the second time.
The first time we talked, kissed and talked some more. I had expected you to be more forward but other than your hands brushing my hips and holding my hand as we walked around the paths of a local park the only touch was from your lips. Maybe that's what has stopped me fleeing back to my safe little life, you didn't push for more than I was ready for, which is doubly difficult as I don't know what I am ready for myself.
We had worked together for several years in the same company, there had always been some connection between us but neither of us acted to do anything about it. I had taken a redundancy package the previous year and had spent my time since looking after the children and doing some home sales which kept me busy but not challenged. It was during that time that it started, an email began it and from there we quickly began emailing and texting on a daily basis, getting to the point that my "working day" included dozens of texts and even an occasional photos with you. They were a life line during a period that the most challenging daily decision was what I was going to do for tea. The texts were funny and engaging, flirty and exciting. Flirty moved to suggestive, which then developed to sexual and sensual. Don't get me wrong I wasn't being groomed or coerced I was just as involved in the progress of the direction of these conversations as you were but now sitting in my car the conflicting feelings in my body were truly at war. In my head my thoughts were flicking from images of my husband and my children and our house, then there was a pile of washing and another text from my husband asking what was for tea, but the thought of a text made me think of you and the texts you sent me. Suddenly I was aware of fluttering in my stomach and a raised heart rate, holy shit I can even feel the heat between my legs. Maybe if I just go home and masturbate I can get this out of my system without anyone getting hurt. Thinking of masturbating didn't help and only heightened the dull throb that I could feel at my core.
I checked my phone again, nothing. It was then I noticed some movement and saw you standing watching me. I had no idea how long you had been there but your smile made my heart jump, which was closely followed by my butterflies heading south and camping in my knickers. Please don't smile again I thought otherwise I could cum on the spot.
Seconds later you had slipped into the passenger seat of the car, I was doing my best to control my breathing, slow deep breaths. Of course deep breaths had the effect of enhancing my already large breasts which I had to give you credit for when you managed to not make it too obvious by letting your gaze linger too long as you checked me out, my tits were just one of those things that men tended to notice first about me, most tried to be discreet with just a quick glance but the occasional moron would try holding a conversation while not taking his eyes off them. The door closed and we exchanged hellos. You took the lead a split second before me by leaning towards me for a kiss, your fingers brushing against my cheek and neck as they softly caress the back of my neck. The kiss becomes more passionate, our mouths open and your tongue pushes into my mouth. You taste so good, like hot mint. I can feel your hand moving from my neck onto my shoulder, are you going straight for a feel. I can hardly complain while your tongue is dancing in my mouth, but your hand doesn't go to my breast almost to my surprise and disappointment instead it slides down my arm coming to rest on my legs. I only realise now that I have my hand on your chest. I can feel your firm chest and the soft sponginess of hair under your shirt and my desire to explore you further kicks up a notch.
Slowly we separated from the kiss, the look of want and desire in your eyes palpable. I feel as if I am a small deer being sized up by a lion but it's not fear that I feel running through my veins.
I'm keen to get us somewhere quieter, somewhere that I might get to touch you, somewhere where you might touch me in the ways I have imagined you doing for weeks. If you asked I would probably spread my legs for you in the back of the car right now despite telling myself I was going to limit our intimacy to kissing this time and take it slowly. My plan of setting boundaries would work much better I decided if I actually shared them rather than keeping them to myself and breaking them at the first opportunity. I mentally chastise myself, I must be stronger I decided as I started the car and began the drive to another quiet park I had found a couple of days earlier.