Author's Note: This short piece is a real, nonfiction story from my youth. It is the unedited, very uncouth, story of me losing my virginity at the age of twenty. This story contains what I call the 'good, bad and ugly' of my real-life experience so I'm not promising it will be to everyone's taste. It is absolutely accurate in every detail if that counts for much.
I considered dressing it up like so many other virgin stories, but I thought it would be fun to just put out the unsophisticated version for a good laugh. If you interested in lots of dynamite sex scenes, you might consider one of my longer, fictional works.
The 'first time' topic is a new area for me. This piece is also the first time I've ever written about myself in the 'first person' perspective so it feels a little strange to me. Please vote and leave a comment letting me know if it works.
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I was twenty years old and still a virgin. I know it sounds kinda unbelievable but it's true as shit. Not only was I a virgin, but I'd also never had a girlfriend, never kissed a girl and never even held a chick's hand. And it wasn't that I didn't want any of this. Quite the opposite! I longed for it daily. I knew from the time I could walk that girls were special. By the time puberty came along, I thought about them every waking second.
I just never developed the skill at connecting with them in a romantic way. I've always been reserved, quiet and even shy at times, but nobody could say I wasn't trying. In those early years, I lost count of the number of rejections I was dealt. Hell, maybe I was trying too hard!
Now I had scores of super hot, female friends and they adored me, particularly in good conversations. I have a gift for listening and offering thoughtful responses. I've always been decent looking, in good shape and I'm very nice, polite and respectful. Making friends was easy for me. Still is. Attracting girlfriends back then was impossible. Every time I tried to get past the friend zone, the barriers came up fast. Even the ones that didn't currently have boyfriends suddenly did when they rejected my advances.
I thought I did a reasonably good job at hiding my failure from the world but that was the perspective of a young, nerdy kid with no game. I'm sure now the reality was I stood out like a loser and not worth a young lady's efforts. I think by the age of twenty, I'd all but given up trying. Oddly enough, for years, I'd been noticing older women taking hard looks at me, some even openly flirted. In those years of my youth, I had a hard time allowing myself to feel attracted to older women. I'm not really sure why. I suppose it just seemed taboo to me, and I grew up a rule follower. The things I'd do differently if I could!
I grew up with a good friend, Brenden, and we were practically inseparable in those early years. Even now, at the age of fifty-five, he and I are still best friends.
Brenden was a very interesting, colorful character and you'd never guess that a guy like him could be friends with a guy like me. In fact, when I later became a cop, he was still hanging out with his Hells Angels buddies, experimenting with LSD and any other psychotropic substance he could find. Didn't affect our friendship one bit and we quickly learned to not discuss certain things out of respect for one another.
But I'm getting too far ahead of myself. In our teenage years and up until I was nearly twenty-one, we used to hang out and drink regularly. Generally, with friends from his side of the tracks. They were every bit as colorful and lots of fun to be around. For some odd reason, I could go to a biker party with Brenden and despite being a nerdy, 'do gooder' from the nice side of town, these people were totally cool with letting me hang out, drink their booze and stare at their scantily clad women.
One of the homes we regularly partied at belonged to Brenden's female friend, Candice, though everyone knew her as Candy. Technically, it belonged to Candy's mother, Roxy, who I absolutely craved. She was the only older woman I would have been happy to step out of my comfort zone for. When there was a chance to go to Candy's place, I was fucking down because I always knew Roxy would be there.
Roxy was pure trailer trash, and I loved every inch of her. She was somewhere in her late thirties, but her rough lifestyle made her look like she was in her forties. Her slender, tattooed body told me early on that she was a 'long in the tooth' stripper. It was Simi Valley and in 1989, that place wasn't attracting the highest quality women to work the poles. Nevertheless, she was perfection in my eyes. Seeing her in a tank top with no bra and a minidress with her legs spread all unladylike just made my prick ache! And the unfiltered cigarette that was usually hanging out of the corner of her mouth was simply 'yum yum' for reasons I still can't explain.
Roxy was always home and in retrospect, that should have been a clue to how she paid the bills considering the volume of seedy guys that visited her on a daily basis. We often hung out in Candy's room which was adjacent to Roxy's. I knew Roxy liked to fuck because most times I was there, we could hear her getting railed in her bedroom. Weird as it may sound, it became background noise after a while. I knew she was getting pounded, I wanted to be the guy doing it, but I accepted the hot, trashy slut was way out of my league.
So, one Friday night, we were hanging out at Candy's, in her bedroom. The room was small, so we typically sprawled out on her bed as we got drunk and bullshitted into the night. This time, Brenden leaned against the headboard while a buddy of theirs, John, sat at the other end. Candy and I crashed in the middle and drank Jack Daniels from the bottle while we listened to Brenden and John debate whether anarchy could actually work in America. Candy kept egging me on to drink more and I recall thinking it odd she would pay me so much attention since she didn't normally.
Candy was not in her mother's league, by my estimation, but she certainly wasn't unattractive. She was around five and a half feet tall and had an average build, weighing perhaps a hundred and twenty-five pounds. A natural redhead, she had fair skin and green eyes with very curvy, very succulent lips. If her lips were her sexiest feature, her breasts were definitely the most noticeable. I never have been into large breasts, but these babies were enormous! Like DD size, easy.
While I never felt great sexual chemistry with Candy, I always recognized that I'd do her in a heartbeat if I had the opportunity. But in the years, I'd hung out with her, she never showed much interest, so I never gave her much thought after a while. Tonight, just felt different so I let it play out, trying to impress her by going toe to toe with her on the bottle swigs.
For a girl with fifty pounds less body mass, she could put the drinks away. It wasn't long before I was feeling completely shitfaced, leaning back into her and sitting between her legs as she rested against the bedroom wall. Brenden and John were still jabbering on, but I don't believe they had a fraction of the booze Candy and I had. And while we were smack in between them, they just talked around us as if we weren't even there.