I stopped brushing my blond shoulder length hair and gazed at my reflection with sad eyes. Today I turned twenty-three, and I've never had sex. Yes, I've gotten and performed oral on my previous boyfriend, but I was a bit nervous to go all the way. My best friend Tiana says that I don't know what I'm missing, and in some ways I guess that she's right.
Inhaling deeply, I put the memory of my last attempt at sex at the back of my memory and continued brushing my hair. When I was through, I collected my phone and wallet, then darted out of the house. Closing the door, but not locking it, I then made a beeline across the lawn, straight to Tiana's house.
As I lifted my hand to knock on the oak door, her father opened it with a surprised expression, "Elizabeth, you're home, when did you get in?"
"Oh hey, Mr. Woods, good afternoon, I got in last night. Is Tiana home?" I asked, smiling at him.
"Yes, she's in her room. Come on in love. Does she know that you're back?"
"Yes, she does."
"That's great. It's good to see you again after so many years," he stared at me for a few seconds longer than usual, then replied, "well, I'm off to work, I'll see you around," then he picked up his fireman's work bag and left, closing the door. I sprinted up the staircase, but halfway there I heard Mr. Woods calling my name.
Twirling, I walked down a few steps and answered, "Yes, Mr. Woods?"
He came up to the base of the stairs and then said, "I almost forgot to wish you a Happy Birthday sweetheart, I hope that you receive everything that you've always wanted," then he leaned in and softly kissed my cheeks.
As I gazed at him, I felt my face getting flushed with the sexual thoughts that were making themselves known throughout my mind. I wanted to get fucked for my birthday, Mr. Woods. But I never said that out loud, how can I? So with a bright smile on my lips, I replied, "I hope so as well, Mr. Woods, have a great day."
"Thank you, dear, see you later."
Waving him off, I slowly walked to Tiana's room and knocked on her door before entering.
"Come on in, I'm in the bathroom," I heard her say.
"It's me, girl, your father let me in," I shouted as I closed the door with my butt.
"Okay, I'd be out in a sec," she responded.
"Take your time, I'll be at the window seat."
"Okay, girl."
I sat at her window and looked down to the driveway and saw her dad getting into his black jeep then he drove away. I had always liked Mr. Woods, but as I got older, that like turned into a major crush. When I finished high school and got accepted to a University miles away I was so certain that my feelings for him would go away, and at some point, they did, which pleased me beyond reason because he was a married man and I was not a homewrecker.
Then about three years ago, I came home for the holidays and Tiana told me with tears in her eyes that her mum had left her dad for a woman. I know that this was a tragic moment for them and I was being a horrible person and friend but my heart did a little dance at the news.
I noticed him becoming withdrawn and gaunt. My mother always made an extra plate for both Tiana and her dad, but he never ate much of it because according to my bestie, he was going through his phase.
Then a few months after the fact, he began making regular trips to the gym and slowly got his life back on track. And boy let me tell you, Daddy was looking like a buffet meal with extra hot sauce. Yum!
As I came out of my trance I heard, "Happy Birthday, bitch, what are you looking at?" she asked wrapping her cool arms around my body.
"Your father," I confessed.
"Still crushing, I see." She kissed my cheek then came and sat on my thighs, "Look, I'm not encouraging you to do anything that you're uncomfortable with, but he's available and you're single, so go for it."
"I can't, I wouldn't know what to do or how to start doing anything with him, Tiana. Besides, he still thinks of me as the ten-year-old person that he met for the first time all those years ago. Why are you giving me the green light with him anyways?"
"You both are my two favorite people and I want to see you all happy." Holding my face she repeated, "Go for it!"
"I can't Titi," I said regretfully.
She hugged me and then said, "This is why I love you, even under pressure you always think rationally. Come on, enough with the worrying, let's go prepare for the club, birthday girl."
EIGHT HOURS LATER
We came home stumbling through the front door of Tiana's home, at two in the morning. Or should I say Tiana was stumbling whilst I was trying to help her walk. This girl practically drank out the bar! But we had a remarkable time. I got my first lap dance and I danced on a strippers pole!
Closing the door as silently as I could, we made our way up the stairs and into her room. I removed her clothing and covered her. Kissing her forehead I collected my things and then left her room. As I turn away from the door, I collided with a wall.
"Ouch, Fuck," I mumbled rubbing my aching breasts.
"Such a filthy little mouth you have, Elizabeth," he replied gazing down at me, "come with me," as he took my hand and lead us down the hall into the TV room.
"Have a seat, and I'd be back briefly," then he disappeared down the corridor that we just came from.
I've been in this room numerous times, but today it felt alien to me. Everything felt like I'm seeing it for the first time. Suddenly, I heard singing. Turning toward the sound, I saw Mr. Woods returning with a cake with a single-lit birthday candle on it, and he stood in front of me.
"I know that your birthday was a few hours ago, but I wanted to do this for you. Make a wish, sweetheart," he whispered to me.
"Oh Mr. Woods, you didn't have to," I mumbled coyly.
"It was nothing, go on make a wish," he said staring at me intently. Closing my eyes I did what I was told, when I opened them I gazed up at Mr. Woods and blew out the candle.
"What did you wish for?" he asked.