I arrived at college still a virgin. By that, I mean that my hymen was still intact. Before going to college, I had masturbated just as nearly everyone does. In addition, in the summer between Grade 12 and college, I began to date David, whom I had known in high school. My church-going parents just thought that I was going out on movie dates with David, and they would have been very upset with me if they had known the truth. Of course, my siblings and I went to church with them, and so I absorbed some of church culture, but I had nagging doubts about many issues, all of which I kept to myself.
Instead of going to a movie, David would drive me to a secluded spot, where I would let him play with my breasts, and would give him a hand job. That satisfied him at first, but both he and I wanted more. I then began performed fellatio on him, letting him cum over my breasts. The
quid pro quo
for giving this pleasure was that I received an orgasm when David performed cunnilingus on me in the back seat of his car. These orgasms took away all the tensions of life. I was happy to use my mouth to relieve David's tensions. The first time that I let David pleasure me, I knew that I was yielding to temptation, but my body wanted it badly. As my first orgasm with David began, I thought of the words of Psalm 25, verse 7:
O remember not the sins and offences of my youth: but according to thy mercy think thou upon me, O Lord, for thy goodness.
Academically, David wasn't like me at all. Shortly after finishing Grade 12, David went to work in a local sawmill. As much as I liked sex with him, I had decided that losing my virginity would be saved for a man who was my intellectual equal. A few days before leaving for college, I went into a drugstore and bought a package of a dozen condoms. This wasn't the drug store that was just a couple of blocks from my house, which my family used all the time. I didn't want someone to say my mother or father, "Liz was in here earlier this week to buy some condoms." Instead, I went to a drugstore where nobody knew me. When I arrived home, I put one condom into my purse, and packed the other eleven in a suitcase. As I left for college, I knew that I would lose my virginity sometime, but I was surprised that it took only a few hours.
On a Sunday, the day of the opening of the college residences, I got up at 5:45 am, had a shower, got dressed in a blouse and skirt, had breakfast, kissed my mother and siblings, and then my father drove me to the station at 7:00 am, arriving at 7:15 am. At the station Dad told me how much he loved me, that he was so proud of me, and that he would pray for me every day. I cried as Dad and I kissed, and I boarded the train just before it departed my hometown at 7:30 am.
Everything I needed to take was in two large suitcases, which the porter helped put on the train. On this train, all seats were reserved. I was assigned an aisle seat, with a lady in her 50's at the window. At the next station the lady got off, and a very handsome young man who had just boarded the train took her place. I found out that his name is Peter, and that he was headed to the same college as me. He told me that he had taken a gap year after high school, so he was no doubt 19 years old. I asked him what he had done on this year, and he said that he had visited 49 states (all but Hawaii), all ten Canadian provinces, and the Yukon territory (on his way to Alaska). He had kept a journal, and he said that one day he might write a book about it. After a few minutes, he asked if I would like something as his treat from the café on the train. He brought back two coffees with cream and some banana bread.
It took over another two hours to reach our destination, and we chatted the whole way. He told me that he was majoring in music, with piano being his instrument. I told him that was about to study English, French, History, Art History, and Music in my first year, but anything could happen after that. We spoke about Jane Austen, Rembrandt, Handel's keyboard concerti, and Shakespeare. He was so different from all the young men in my high school, and for the first time in my life, I felt an extreme sexual attraction based on intellect.