I arrived at college still a virgin. By that, I mean that my hymen was still intact. Before going to college, I had masturbated just as nearly everyone does. In addition, in the summer between Grade 12 and college, I began to date David, whom I had known in high school. My church-going parents just thought that I was going out on movie dates with David, and they would have been very upset with me if they had known the truth. Of course, my siblings and I went to church with them, and so I absorbed some of church culture, but I had nagging doubts about many issues, all of which I kept to myself.
Instead of going to a movie, David would drive me to a secluded spot, where I would let him play with my breasts, and would give him a hand job. That satisfied him at first, but both he and I wanted more. I then began performed fellatio on him, letting him cum over my breasts. The
quid pro quo
for giving this pleasure was that I received an orgasm when David performed cunnilingus on me in the back seat of his car. These orgasms took away all the tensions of life. I was happy to use my mouth to relieve David's tensions. The first time that I let David pleasure me, I knew that I was yielding to temptation, but my body wanted it badly. As my first orgasm with David began, I thought of the words of Psalm 25, verse 7:
O remember not the sins and offences of my youth: but according to thy mercy think thou upon me, O Lord, for thy goodness.
Academically, David wasn't like me at all. Shortly after finishing Grade 12, David went to work in a local sawmill. As much as I liked sex with him, I had decided that losing my virginity would be saved for a man who was my intellectual equal. A few days before leaving for college, I went into a drugstore and bought a package of a dozen condoms. This wasn't the drug store that was just a couple of blocks from my house, which my family used all the time. I didn't want someone to say my mother or father, "Liz was in here earlier this week to buy some condoms." Instead, I went to a drugstore where nobody knew me. When I arrived home, I put one condom into my purse, and packed the other eleven in a suitcase. As I left for college, I knew that I would lose my virginity sometime, but I was surprised that it took only a few hours.