Chapter 1 -
This story takes place when I was in my first year of Uni. N. and I met 2 years before I met my wife, and we get along like best friends do. She was already in a relationship when we met, and I also get along with her now husband. While we have kind of lost contact over the years, whenever we communicate nothing has changed. She is easily one of my best friends in the world and I love her dearly. Nothing has ever happened between us and never will, but it could have if I had taken what I now see as the clear invitation that is described below. I recognised it at the time to some extent, but took myself out of the situation both because she was in a relationship and because I was too nervous about sex to act on it. The point where this story becomes fiction is where I return after initially leaving her room - the truth is I got on the bus and jerked off in the shower at home.
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Sitting in my first class at uni was a strange experience for me. I was full of confidence in the changes I was planning to make in my life coming out of high school but was still a social wreck on the inside. I was tall, skinny, and had brown, curly, mid-length hair. In addition to this, not that anybody knew it then, I am reasonably well-endowed - definitely not a catch, but looking back at old photos now, not bad looking.
I arrived early out of nerves and took a seat near the front. I nervously made small talk with my old, eccentric Italian teacher (who I later grew to adore) and waited for the unknown entity that was my classmates to arrive. They gradually filed in, but I did the British thing of not making eye-contact with any of them out of respect/fear.
There were a few women that were very attractive, but most in the room seemed to be regular looking people. Just as the class was about to begin, a blur of long red hair came bursting through the door, apologising for her lateness in a wonderful, posh, country British accent. She sat next to me with a cursory, âsorry, do you mindâ - I definitely did not mind.
One thing that has always driven me crazy is a red head. I grew up with a major crush on early Hayley Williams at her most punk and that fetish has never changed in me. I took a closer look at her - slightly tanned skin, with long, messy ginger hair and a beautiful, slightly freckled face. She wore a baggy, brown jumper and regular jeans and trainers, giving me no indication of what she looked like underneath it all, but immediately I wanted to find out.
The class came and went. We had spoken a little during it, but I didnât learn anything about her. The next day we had another class and she arrived earlier. In the meantime, I had gotten to know a taller, metal-loving rugby player called John, who would go on to become my friend throughout uni and beyond, and we were sitting and talking about things that metal-heads talk about, when she sat on the other side of me. We were later joined by Max, a small, thin, socially awkward nerd who just wanted to fit in with somebody, and there we were - our little clique that would define my first year at uni. We strengthened our bond with pool, drinks at the student bar, and nights out at the local clubs - something that is still a very awkward experience for me but was made enjoyable by her presence.
Over the course of the semester my friendship with John became what it is today - very strong, as did my connection, and interest in, N. I spent as much time with her as possible and we grew close. I learned that she had a boyfriend who lived somewhere else, that she was British, but had only recently moved back to the UK after living in Spain for the previous few years. We had almost nothing in common in terms of interests and hobbies but got along like a house of fire and I thought about her constantly.
There were some issues with our clique - I did not get along with Max and saw him for the leech that he would later prove himself to be, but N. took pity on him and befriended him. N. did not get along with John because of his rough exterior and awkward manner, but I saw the person inside. Despite all of this, N. and I continued to get closer and closer. As we got closer, we began talking about more personal issues. She managed to prise from me that I was a virgin, and that I had no idea how to speak to women. She confided in me that she was constantly worried her boyfriend was cheating on her and that she had recently been feeling as though he was no longer attracted to her. In a video chat she had had with him where she tried to turn him on by stripping for him, he had brushed her off, saying he was too busy. She thought he was no longer interested in seeing her naked. I told her he was crazy if he didnât want her. I wasnât planning on that comment having any impact on her other than to make her feel better about herself, but it sure did.
She lived in the poshest of the student accommodation options - the one I had no way of affording. One day she invited us all to visit for drinks and games. John graciously declined with a âno, thanksâ, but Max and I accepted. I wanted to spend more time with her and was genuinely interested in seeing how the âother halfâ lived. Max and I arrived at the same time, laden with alcohol and making awkward small talk (as was our normal) and she met us wearing her usual baggy, American-style branded jumper, yoga trousers, and the pair of eco-friendly, over-priced shoes she liked showing off to me. We got a tour of the common room, with N. introducing us to a few of her friends there before taking us to her bedroom. It was as quaint as quaint can be, and very her. There was a pin board adorned with dried flowers and pictures of her smiling with friends from elsewhere, star shaped lights had been attached to the walls, and her bed was covered with a white and pink flowery bed cover. The wardrobe was half-open, showing that she owned way too many clothes, despite seemingly only ever wearing the same few baggy jumpers and jeans.
She noticed me looking and apologised for her messiness. It didnât matter to me, and I let her know as much. She blushed a little and asked if we wanted to see some clothes she had recently bought. I found it odd, but let it happen, and she opened wide her wardrobe. Immediately, a pink box full of underwear and bras fell out, as well as the condoms that she stored there. I would later find out that she did this intentionally to gauge my reaction, but at the time she blushed and apologised before hurriedly putting them all back in. I got up and helped her. She blushed even deeper as I passed a few of her bras to her. Max had backed off closer to the door, looking scared, as was typical of him in awkward situations.
Once everything was cleared up, she showed us some summery dresses she had bought and smiled when I said I thought they looked great - I genuinely did and couldnât wait to see her in them - and out of them. She invited us to sit on the bed and brought over out a couple of board games. She removed her shoes, revealing her bare feet, before taking off her jumper. She was wearing a loose-fit t-shirt with a V-neck, showing a little of her cleavage and pink bra straps. I took a quick look, and she must have noticed, because she had a little bit of a smile when I met her eyes again. Max had busied himself opening up the alcohol as soon as she started removing her clothing and he brought it over for us, looking embarrassed. We played for a while and started getting more comfortable and relaxed as the alcohol started taking effect, laying and slouching on the bed instead of sitting upright. My legs gradually got closer to N.âs and I noticed for the first time the shape of her underwear through the yoga trousers, no longer covered by the jumper she had been wearing. I could see the shape of the frilly edges and started yearning to see more.
After playing for a while, N. drunkenly asked us if we wanted to see what else she had bought the other day. We said yes, not expecting her next move. She lifted up the front of her shirt to show a flowery bra with pink straps. Max practically fell backwards off the bed. I became speechless and made an incoherent grunting sound. I began to stiffen as it dawned on me what she might be doing to us. I had enough of a moral compass then to tell myself not to go too far, because she was in a relationship. However, not being an idiot, I decided to play along a little longer to see if I could add a bit more to the good-old wank bank. Max recovered his senses and made his excuses to go to the bathroom, leaving us temporarily alone. N. shifted her position, âaccidentallyâ brushing her naked foot against my semi-erect cock as she did so. I jumped back a little from a mixture of surprise and the feeling that it sent through my cockhead. Her only reaction was to smile knowingly, before apologising unconvincingly.
Her flashing her bra, however sexy it was, had changed the dynamic of the room. Max returned and we half-heartedly finished the game. Max had begun to drink more than before out of nervousness and started looking a little ill, so N. suggested that I take him home. She got up quickly, insisting that we let her pass us our coats. We dressed and left.
I saw Max onto his bus into town, and I waited to get mine. As my bus arrived, I realised that my bus card was no longer in my coat and that it must still be in her room. Rather than walk in the cold, I resolved to go back and find it. I knocked on her door and she opened it in faux surprise, looking a little red in the face. I put it down to the alcohol she had consumed and explained the situation. She let me in, closing the door behind us and staying there.
I couldnât find the card anywhere that my coat had been, and I went to ask her if she had seen it. She pulled it out from between her breasts, smiling as she handed it to me. She must have taken it as she passed my coat to me. I could feel the warmth of her skin on the plastic and enjoyed thinking about where it had just been. She casually asked me if I had had fun that evening, before producing another bottle from her desk and asking if I wanted to share it with her. A combination of drunkenness and my now hardening cock told me to overcome my previous misgivings about her boyfriend and the ethics of where this was clearly going, and I willingly joined her. She had me completely under her spell.