I'm so tired, tired of being so shy. Paralyzed with anxiety each time I have to interact with someone else. Moreover, it has prevented me from getting any meaningful romantic relationship.
I'm already 22, and I haven't got a girlfriend yet, let alone kissed a girl. I'm just hopeless. I don't have the guts to approach girls that interest me, and when they do the first step, I just freeze.
But now I started a new job, and I don't have a choice anymore. I have to learn how to not be so shy. My new boss is so attractive. I stutter every time I have to talk to her. It's preventing me from doing my job correctly. I don't even know how I passed the interview. I was a mess during it. I couldn't get two-sentence together, and each time I peeked at her, I couldn't help but see her plunging cleavage. I flustered so much that I looked like a stop sign. Somehow, I think she thought it was funny cause she wouldn't stop smirking. A bit like today :
Perking out of nowhere in my cubicle, my boss asked me: "Hey Alex, did you call the client to let him know we received his order?"
Startled by her sudden apparition, I stumbled to answer: "I...I... Yes, Ms. Stevens. I called Mr. Carlson. He said he'd send a guy to pick it up."
"I already told you. Don't call me Ms. Stevens. Just call me Leah. But good job anyway. Keep it up." she winked at me.
Still, again she seemed to smirk or find something funny about my struggles to answer her. I have to fix this problem. It's not only hard for me to talk to my stunning 30 yrs old boss, but I'll never get a girlfriend if it continues like this.
That's when I saw this weird ad on my phone while browsing the web. You know how a phone sometimes just seems to be able to read your mind and send you an ad for things you only thought? That was one of these moments. The ad read: "Fix your self-confidence issues while sleeping!! Free hypnosis program!". It's free so I thought, why not try it? I saved the link and thought about looking it up once at home.
Later at my apartment, I was finally back in my comfort zone. It's so comfy being home. Here, I can lose myself in books. Call my friend when I feel like it or just go on quiet walks whenever I want to. Still, I feel like something's missing. As much as this type of living is easy, I always end up feeling a bit bored from the loneliness. Also, it's killing me that I'm still a virgin at 22. All my friends roast me about it whenever they get the chance.
Oh, that's right, I almost forgot about it! The link for that hypnosis program was still on my phone. What a strange web page. It says to enter your email to receive the instructions. I'm definitively not giving my good address for this. I'll just use my second email address for discounts, publicly, etc... After that, I didn't receive an answer immediately, so I continued with my bachelor's evening.
Before going to sleep, I checked one last time. Oh, here it was. An email named: "First step to self-confidence file 01". The email explains that I'll receive an email with a file every day for the next 5 days. It also mentions that I have to listen to them laying in bed when I go to sleep. Alright, I guess I'll do what it says. It doesn't seem too complicated. With my headphones on I started the file. At the start, only some soft music played, a bit like at those spas. Then, a soft feminine voice spoke to me:
"Take a deep breath. Hold it. Hold it. Now, release," she asked of me. The voice continued to make me do some meditation and breathing exercises.
The more time passed, the harder it was to stay awake. I started to lose track of time. Falling in and out of sleep, the last thing I remember hearing was: "At the count of three, you will fall asleep. One. Two. Three. Sleep." and a snap of a finger. After that, I don't remember anything.
I woke up the next morning, just a few minutes before my alarm. Somehow, I felt energized and refreshed. More than I had in a long time. My headphones were right beside me. I guess I must have taken those off during the night. Also, I was pitching a mighty tent in my underwear. I don't remember the last time I had a morning wood this intense.
Seeing that my dick was so needy for attention, I decided to rub one out before the shower. As soon as my hand contacted my dick, I felt how rock-hard I was without even having to watch any porn. I could hear myself panting from the excitement. After only a few minutes of stroking, I surprised myself. I was already on the verge of cuming. And...Fuck, uhh? My dick is already throbbing, I can feel it. It's pumping cum. Shit. One spurt after another, I'm cuming on my chest. Usually, I would have gotten a tissue, but I got surprised by my speed. Goddammit. I feel like a stupid teenager that doesn't know how to jerk off.
After that I jumped in the shower, quickly forgetting about this little accident. Before getting in my car to go to my job, I looked back at the email, and I already had received the second file for today. For a free service, it seemed impressively well done.
Once at the office, my stunning boss greeted me like she does every day. Her brilliant smile and flowing brown hair radiated her positive energy as always.
"Hey, good morning Alex! How are you?"
At that point, I thought to myself that it might be a good idea to try my "new confidence". Usually, I would just say: "Good, thank you." then avert my eyes, and go to my cubicle. But no today!
